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[nononosthoughts]

Situationship w/woozi

Woozi x femreader

Part 3, last and finally part :3

Warnings : swearing, angst , situations, yerning :p (didn’t proof read)

Since that date Jihoon has been acting as if nothing changed or is going to happen, he was still his naturally distant self replying what felt like every three to five days with simple How are you, what are you doing today?, and once in a blue moon I miss you text. He would apologize from time to time saying that work is getting to him; that we have a lot of deadlines and projects to work on and that he simply cannot reply to me as fast as he would want to.

On the other hand, I was already trying to distance myself emotionally from him since what happened during the date told me all that I needed to know and what to expect from him. Even though he was never mine officially….I still want him to be mine, desperately and pathetically I hoped he would magically wake up one day before I left and want me how I want him.

As the days went by he started to reply less and less, I knew this was going to happen eventually… he was finally ghosting me. This act alone bothered me so much more to the point where I felt like I was genuinely feeling manic some days because of how much I was overthinking this entire situation. Just on the fact alone that we had a conversation and agreement where we BOTH said that if feelings were to die it’s better to simply tell the person than to just up and ghost them. This felt like some kind of karma that I had long awaited for, since I was a self-admitted serial ghoster and to be the ghostee in this case just stung a lot more than it should have. The ones that were almost something are the ones that hurt the most, but after sometime to think about the entire situation as a whole I don’t think he was ever mine at any point.

As time goes on and I get more and more closer to my departure date, he’s still a thought that comes to mind almost every other day. Especially since his last text to me was him saying how much he misses my lips, but that was now a month ago. After that last text, it was like he disappeared from my life completely, I was too proud and embarrassed to text him after that so I opted to leave things are they are for my sanity…

My pov

During the three months am I left to study abroad while studying, it was hard to think about him as much since I was in a new city, with a new language I had to learn, with roommates, and other classmates. So since I arrived I had something to occupy the part of my mind he would, my roommates and classmates kept me busy in between classes.

One of my roommates though had a boyfriend who was back at home and their long-distance relationship would remind me of what could’ve had (wanted to have) and whenever she could talk about him she would, so I would often just smile and nod. Since I was single I forced myself to get back into the dating scene especially since I’m probably never going to see those people after I leave. I went on three simple dates with some local guys, and none of them amounted to much they were just sweet guys who I was just simply passing the time with.

Since jihoon, I felt as if it was my fault for allowing my self to develop feelings for someone before I can confirm that they’ll feel the same way. As time passes and I found myself thinking less and less of him, I slowly stopped rereading our old texts as I made myself forget about him in this three-month span of time. Even if it was hard at first, not thinking about him became more and more less difficult. The fact that I let him walk away from me and didn’t chase and beg him to be with me, I just simply thought I wasn’t his person and I shouldn’t let it affect me anymore or think about him. Although I didn’t think about him for the first couple of weeks I arrived back home until….

Jihoons pov

Distancing himself from her felt like it was a necessary measure, he didn’t want to rush into something that he wasn’t certain with yet (even if she did literally spell it out for him). He wanted her to enjoy her time abroad without having to worry about him, he didn’t want to feel like he was holding her back in any way. Even though it stung a lot at first cause she didn’t even try to reach out initially “Why wouldn’t she reach out if she wanted me too badly” he thought to himself in repeat at first. But then he remembered how she see that she wasn’t going to chase or beg for him if he wasn’t going to be upfront about his feelings.

That’s when he figured out that he messed up greatly, when he realized that he knew that it was too late to reach out. He knew that he had my stuff so much that it made him feel so bad about how he treated her. He couldn’t think of any way to make it up to her, so he just decided to leave it as it was; leaving everything unsaid no matter how Badly he Wanted to Tell Her.

As the weeks passed by he drowned himself in work trying to find something to keep him consistently busy, but when he would lay at night alone all he could think about is her. For lack of better judgment, he decided to scope out the dating scene again, nothing but meaningless conversation and hookup that weren’t enough to suffice for him.

On one of his dates as the girl he was with was talking about something he found himself spacing out realizing how much he misses the way she tapped her fingers on the table when she would be nervous, the way she smiled at him whenever they made eye contact, the way she laughed at her own jokes…..

After that lame excuse of date ended he was all alone in his apartment, thinking about her… wondering what she’s been up to, and if she’s enjoying her time studying abroad…

He decides to stalk her Instagram, seeing pictures of her smiling, in new surroundings, and with people she most likely met while she was there. The feeling of longing started to build up in his chest seeing the smile he missed so much, all the inside jokes in her comments. Selfishly he wanted to be in on them as well, wanting to know all the small details of her day there like how were her classes going, if she’d eaten, where she’d gone…… but he couldn’t and it’s all his fault…

From that day onwards he decided to stop with all the pointless dates, all he wants is her and he will need to figure out how to get her back.

As weeks continue to pass he works on himself a lot, going to therapy, going to the gym, and drafting and drafting an apology text for her but no amount of words can express how sorry he is and how badly he wants her…

He knows she’s back home now since she posted a picture of her dog, and something just comes over him he grabs his keys and heads out the door…..

Present

My comes to my door and says there’s someone outside who's asking for me, I question her asking “Do you know them?” She simply shrugs and says “It’s a man, and I didn’t catch his name”.

I peek out my window before I head out of my room to see if I can recognize the car parked outside but I can’t. I head out of my room to the front door and freeze when I see who’s at my door waiting for me. I almost want to turn around and run back into my room, I wasn’t expecting to see him ever in my life but yet here he is…..I clear my throat as I walk up to him and greet him.

“Hi jihoon..”

His head snaps up to see me. He smiles softly as he takes in the simple sight of me.

“Hi…” he said softly

“What are you doing here?” I say trying to conceal my defensive tone as they close the door behind me so we can talk outside. I take in his features, he looks tired… my heart almost wants to make me feel bad but I push those feelings away since I will not allow myself to feel any type of way for him…

“Look, I’m really sorry…. With how we ended things-“

“WE?? There is no we in this situation, all I know is that YOU ghosted me. Ended things wasn’t a mutual decision jihoon”

He flinches slightly, he knew it wasn’t going to be as easy as he wanted it to be.

“I am truly sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you…. I was just going through stuff and I thought it wasn’t fair to drag you with me..”

“So you didn’t want to hurt me by doing the mature and respectful thing and TELL me that you didn’t feel ready yet. So you ghosted me instead…. You have no idea how much that hurt me jihoon”

“I know, I know I am so sorry from the bottom of my heart, and if there’s anything I can do to make it up to you I will do it. Being away from you made me realize how much I truly like you, please let me make this up to you” he reaches to take my hand.

“I don’t know, you hurt me a lot, I can forgive you with time but I don’t know if I can ever trust you again” I pull my hand away from his.

“Please… I’ll get down on my get on my knees and beg if I have to, words can’t start to describe how sorry and upset I am at myself” he takes my hand and squeezes it softly.

I sigh softly and I look at his hand which is holding mine “I just don’t want to get hurt again”

“I won’t but you, please just give me another chance to make things right” he says in a pleading tone, not hiding how desperate he is now.

I looked at his face trying to find any trace of uncertainty, but there wasn’t any all I saw was the disparity in his eyes waiting for my answer. I smile softly and nod “I’ll give you another chance jihoon, but we’re taking things slow okay?”

Jihoon feels his heart skip a beat as he hears me agreeing to try again, he almost wants to jump up and cheer. He pulls me in and hugs me tightly as he whispers,

“I promise I won’t let you down..”

Part 1 -> part 2

[nononosthoughts]

Choi Seungcheol || even more bf texts w/ scoups

genre: fake texts, one shot, idol!bf, fluff, smau

warnings: suggestive jokes, cursing, banter, scoups abuses the word baby, lmk if i missed anything else!

a/n: literally took me forever to post this cause tumblr likes to give me a difficult time but here it issssssssss. my sweet 🎀 anon requested this but it’s not letting me post with the request:((((

[nononosthoughts]

Part two! Woozi situationship :3

Woozi x femreader

Note: I decided to change the perspective ^-^, let me know what you guys think

Warnings: swearing, situationship, angst(?), didn’t proof read 😞

<- Part one

As I sat there in his arms trying to focus on the movie with a weird feeling in my stomach; the thought of uncertainty is gnawing at the back of my head. What does he actually think about me? The feeling that he’s not gonna take you seriously, I mean all he said was that he likes me too; never did he actually ask me to be his girlfriend either…

“Jihoon” I hum as I watch the movie.

“Yes?” He replies as his hand traces circles on my arm

“I’m not going to wait around for you to make up your mind either, I know what I want and now the ball is in your court”. I saw internally screaming at myself as I almost cringed at how desperate I sounded. What happened to being chased not chase after men??? I think to myself as I sigh.

Jihoon exhales as he says “Look as much as I would love to make you mine officially, there are still things I wanna work out..”

I sit up separating myself from him and looking at his face “What do you have to work??” I say in a tone that almost feels defensive.

“I mean, all this stuff with my ex… you leaving in a month, and work stuff” he says as he tries to pull me back into his arms as if we were trying to make me drop the conversation just by embracing me.

I snap my arm away from him “Jihoon you told me you and your ex broke up a year ago, what else do you have to work out?? YOU said you were looking for something long-term, that’s the only reason why I kept talking to you. Don’t tell me that you still figuring stuff out cause now it feels like you’re just saying that to not be serious about me. And stop acting like I’m leaving forever, I’m only gonna be abroad for three months at most”

“Baby, you know all too well that we dated for a couple of years, you would know if you’ve ever been in a long-term relationship… but please let’s just stop talking about this… let's just enjoy the rest of our night....” he says in a tired tone as if you were being the inconsiderate one.

“You know what, you’re right let’s just stop talking about it,” I say in a dry voice. Did he actually just fucken throw the fact that I’ve never been in a long-term relationship in my face? I exhale softly as I try to calm myself down to stop myself from saying something I’ll regret. I get up from the couch and look at him as a force a sweet smile.

“It’s getting pretty late now, and I have to work in the morning…” LIE I don’t work in the morning, I'm not even scheduled. I just want to get away from him since he so easily threw that fact at my face ircked me so much that I wanna get out before I say something I’ll regret.

Jihoon sits on the couch looking up at you cluelessly and nods as he watches me grab my bag from his kitchen and he’d to the front door. As I slip on my shoes jihoon comes up behind me and hugs me he kisses my cheek and neck. As soon and I feel his lips touch my cheek I almost wanna scream, I feel gross and pathetic. After all that he still thinks is right as if to act like nothing is wrong???

We say our goodbyes and he doesn’t even offer to walk me to my car this time, I don’t even say anything about it since I much rather force myself to act pleasant with him right now. As I walk back to my car in the dead of night, the only thing lighting up is the street lights. It’s so quiet that all I hear as I walk back to my car are my footsteps, as replay the conversations we had in my head. Why do I feel so dumb? I actually allowed myself to like someone and of course, it’s someone who isn’t yet “ready” for a relationship.

[nononosthoughts]

Woozi x femreader :3

Note: I can’t sleep so I’m writing again, this is based off my situationship(?) from college. Please let me know what y’all think

Warnings : some swearing?? Suggestive, angst-ish

You’ve been going on dates with Jihoon for more than two months now, they’ve been simple dates like the movies or going out to a jazz bar. The dates overall are really nice, amazing conversations and it’s not awkward nor is there that sense of lust that you’ve gotten from other guys.

You haven’t been on the official dating scene for a while but you have been on plenty of dates that lead to hookups right away. So being with him is a change of pace that makes you nervous, you’ve never allowed yourself to like anyone to this extent…

It’s not like he’s perfect though Jihoon is constantly working so you guys barely text: and when you tell your friends or anyone that’ll listen, even your own brother about that they think it’s a weird situation. “If he really fucked with you the way you say he would text you more, regardless if he’s working or not,” your brother told you, but you swear how he is when you guys are together makes up for it. You can’t lie and say it doesn’t when it does bother you how Jihoon doesn’t text you, but since you guys have a slight age difference you try to chalk it up to a simple “it’s because he’s older and has a lot more responsibilities and works almost all day”. You have tried playing that petty game of not replying in time either but for your sanity that only lasted a day….

The only thing that makes this a weirder situation and more frustrating is that you’re supposed to leave to study in another country for a semester in less than a month. So if you guys decide to be more serious and start officially dating, long distance is what you’ll have to deal with at the start of your relationship. You guys haven’t really talked about it much either but it is something that’s in the back of your mind constantly, especially when you realize how much you actually like him…

One day when you’re a work he texts you:

Jihoon: hey beautiful r u busy on Saturday?

Me: I just work most of the day, why?

Jihoon: you like pasta?

Me: hmmmmm🧐 yes..

Jihoon: I know this Italian place downtown, what time are you off?

Me: like 5 😔

Jihoon: making the reservation :) bring something to change into, and come to my place once you’re off

Me: sounds good 🫡

After that series of texts it was radio silence until Saturday when you said you were on your way to this place. As you’re on your way to this place you glance down to the passenger seat looking at your change of clothes and smirking to yourself. The change of clothes you brought with you to change into was something you know he hasn’t seen you in before, it was a simple black squared neck top and tight maxi skirt. It was your own way of finally figuring out what of your assets he likes… And with this outfit, it’ll definitely show both off even though in the time you guys made out in his car after the movies you did notice that we was reaching towards your breast a lot….

You arrive to his apartment and grab your bag and clothes, locking your car as you walk to his apartment. You ring his doorbell and wait for him to buzz you in, once you make your way into his building he’s waiting for you with a sweet smile.

“Hi~” you hum as you wrap your arms around his waist and look up to him

He pecks your nose as he chuckles and leads you into his apartment. You toe off your shoes and set your bag down on the couch:

“I did my makeup for work so all I have to do is change my clothes and retouch my makeup if I have time, what time is the reservation?” You say as you look through your bag as you look for eyeliner and lipstick with one hand as hold your clothes in the other.

“It won’t be for another hour so you can take your time getting dressed and all that, I’ll be here” he plops down onto the couch and watches you with a smile as you look through your bag.

You head to his bathroom to change, it only takes a couple of minutes to get dressed. You come out of his bathroom and back to the living room showing him your outfit.

“What do you think?”

He looks you up and down with a smile, taking in all of your figure and pulls you onto the couch next to him.

“You look amazing, I almost wanna cancel the reservation and keep you for myself tonight”

“Jihoon~” you giggle as you shake your head and rest it against his shoulder

We chilled and talked for a bit before we headed to the reservation. Overall the dinner went by great, we talked about random stuff about ourselves and even more intimate things like your past relationships, how many kids you each want, etc…. You find out that he’s gotten out of a longer-term relationship and he’s for the most part gotten over the breakup but you sense a bit of uncertainty for some reason. On the way back to his apartment jihoon gets a little quiet while he drives: You silently hold his hand and look out the window.

Once you guys arrive at his apartment he puts on a movie to watch as he sits next to you and has his arm around your shoulder. You lean your head against his chest, hearing his heartbeat this time is slower compared to the last time you guys were like this. You get distracted by your own thoughts as you think to yourself “Should I just tell him… that I’m serious about being with him long distance, that I really like him? And that I'm willing to try anything to make us work.” You shift to sit up and look at him.

“Jihoon, I really do like you…” you confess. Staring at him as if you’re trying to read his mind… you've never so outwardly been this forward this someone before about how you feel about them. Actually, you never allowed yourself to like someone like this for a while cause you’re afraid of being turned down or even worse being led on…

He smiles softly and cups your face with his hand, “I really like you too, but…” he pauses and thinks for a moment as if he’s trying to think of what to say.

You feel your face completely change and your heart clench. “But?”

“You’re gonna leave to study abroad…. I don’t think it’ll be the best for either of us to get into something this serious just yet…” he runs his hand through your hair.

“I’m willing to do anything jihoon, please?” This is the closest you’ve ever gotten to begging a man for anything, you feel so embarrassed and pathetic.

He chuckles softly and says “Beautiful I want you to enjoy your time there without worrying about someone else, plus you can’t have much fun if you have a boyfriend.”

You try to process all his words but all of a sudden the last part stands out to you, you raise your eyebrow.

“What do you mean by I won’t have fun if I have a boyfriend?”

“Oh I know how girls are when they study aboard, I've heard stories about how they experience the locals, go out to bars, and clubs”

You stare are him almost offended, the fuck did he just say? And what is he implying about you? You have told him about your past experience when you partook in hookup culture, but you told him how it was more of a double-edged sword for you since it affected your mental health badly. You shake that off deciding not to want to start something that you shouldn’t.

“-But I am willing to try, you are” he interrupts you before you can even speak.

You hum as you sit back on the couch, almost feeling uncomfortable and unsure about this whole interaction just now.

After a while, the movie is still playing but you’re not even paying attention to it, replying the whole conversation in your head. Asking yourself so what now? What is supposed to happen now with us?? What are we?????

Pt 2 is here

[nononosthoughts]

Hi! This is my first time writing something like this :3

Please let me know what you guys think 🤍

You went out with your friend last night, you always swore up and down that you’re not a heavy drinker nor someone who participates in one-night stands after the club…especially since you guys are traveling alone in South Korea.

Yet you found yourself waking up in an unfamiliar room, with a shirt that doesn’t belong to you, your panties on, and with a pounding headache… As soon as you fully grasp your predicament this morning, you push yourself to sit up motivated to leave before the man next to you wakes up. You look over at the man to your right peacefully sleeping, you’re unable to see his full face but you take notice of his long eyelashes and think to yourself ……” Of course, a man is blessed with amazing eyelashes”.

You scoff and push yourself to stand up from the bed as you look for your clothes scattered around the bedroom floor, you were able to find the skirt, your shoes, your bag, and your phone but not your top.

You quietly pace around the bedroom while silently swearing at yourself, while looking for your top. After a couple of minutes, you decide to cut your losses with your shirt to avoid that awkward morning small talk if he wakes up, you decide to get dressed with your clothes and keeping his oversized t-shirt on. Promising yourself you’ll give it back…..

Which means you’ll have to talk to him at some point or another. As you make your way to the bedroom door you glance back at him to see him still peacefully asleep, unbothered by the noise you’ve made while getting dressed. You feel almost envious of how deep of a sleeper he is, you look at him taking in his facial features…his lips, his eyelashes and his relaxed expression.

You let out a sigh and make your way out his room to his living room slowly and carefully closing the door behind you.

“It’s probably rude to just leave without saying anything or leaving a note…..” you think to yourself and let out a sigh and make your way to the kitchen island and find a post-it note and a pen and write down:

“sorry I left without saying anything :/ I didn’t wanna wake you up. Here’s my phone number xxx-xxx-xxxx feel free to reach out once you wake up if you want. P.s- I took one of your t shirts, I promise I’ll give it back”

You leave the note on the table and head for the front door. As you make your way out the door you look back at the apartment number so you can remember so you can come back and leave his shirt.

On your way back to your Airbnb, you pull out your phone to see that your friend (Alex) has called and texted you multiple times, a couple of minutes ago….probably cause she just woke up too. You call her back and wait for her to answer.

“Girl where did you go? AND where are you??” Alex says as she answers the phone.

“I could ask YOU the same question miss girl, please tell me you at least remember anything from last night. And I’m on my way back to the Airbnb, I woke up in some guy's bed. AND no we didn’t do anything before you ask.” you reply back with some playful attitude and chuckle at how much of a mess you look like right now as you check yourself out on the building windows.

Ale exhales trying to recount last night's events “Well, I remember everything up to the point where I was begging you to come home with me. You didn’t want to come home with me because you wanted to spend time with these group of guys we met. But you were still conscious at that point”. Alex chuckles

You feel embarrassed and sorry for leaving your best friend. “I’m sorry, Alex. You should’ve dragged me out. Do you remember their names?” you ask hopefully.

“You and me both know we are THEE worse at remembering names, no but they seemed really cute” she laughs

As you reach the Airbnb you say “open the door for me I’m here”

Alex hangs up and happily skips to the door and opens it for you. Once she opens the door she playfully coos at you “what a shame that the little girl didn’t get lucky at least”

You roll your eyes and make your way inside “Truly what a shame”; especially since you’ve been in a dry spell for so long you’ve lost track..

There’s a brief moment of silence and you say “either way I wouldn’t be happy with myself if I did, especially since I can’t even remember his name. But I left him my number so we’ll wait and see I guess” I plop down on the bed as Alex sits down next to me.

“But what you really need now is to shower and get ready, have a afternoon planned out and as much as I would love to stay in after the night we had we already paid for most of the things and we have no other choice but to go” Alex pats my back and gets up and starts getting ready

After a couple of moments I begrudgingly get up and to get cleaned and dressed.

The whole afternoon passes, keeping us busy with activities that we’ve planned. Throughout the whole day you kept glancing at your phone, a small part of you hoped that he would reach out first. But it was radio silence, which killed any type of hope you had in actually meeting someone decent. Alex tried to reassured you by saying that he’s probably busy, or he just didn’t see the note. But you knew that shouldn’t focus on him texting you, the part of you that wants him to reach out and it be a fairy tale is the hopeless romantic that you thought you held down for a while(And the fact that you don’t have his number either).

Once you and Alex made it back to your place; you both decided it’s best for a chill night in, ordering in some food and movies.

At some point through out the night you get the aforementioned text from a number you don’t have on your phone that says:

“Hey, hope you’re doing well :). I have time tonight if you want I can swing by and pick it up from your place”

You groan and sit further back on to the couch, a part of you was hoping he’ll forget about his shirt. But then you realize he might be interested in seeing you…. You shake your head at that thought and think to yourself “yeah right”.

You show the text to Alex, hoping she can give you some guidance and say “should I?”

She thinks for a moment and Says: “hmmmm….why don’t you meet him in a park near by, it’s a neutral setting and if anything you can just run back”

I think for a moment the text message still open on my phone considering what she said; “I don’t think it’ll be that long, so should I just say sure and send him the address?”

Alex hums in agreement as she focuses back on the movie. As you send the message you realize you’re not really dressed to impress, but why should it matter? You’re just giving him back his shirt?

Then it hits you as you’re walking to the park near by you don’t even know his fucken name, the realization hits you and makes you feel ten times more nervous and almost dreading it.

A couple minutes pass by and you hear some footsteps coming from behind you… your heart basically drops as you think to yourself ways to run away without being spotted… then you hear his voice

“Hey…..y/n?”

You turn around with t-shirt in hand with a nervous smile as you say “hiiii~”; You cringe internally as you hear your voice go ten octaves higher than it naturally is…

“Heres your shirt, I’m so sorry I couldn’t find my top at your place this morning and I didn’t wanna disturb you….” you ramble on as you take in his facial features; his thick eyebrows, long eyelashes and those gosh damn lips!!

He chuckles softly and takes his shirt as he says “you actually ripped it trying to take it off and you refused to let me help you take it off, so you literally ripped it off of yourself.”

As soon as he explained what happened to your shirt and your actions you almost prayed to let the earth swallow you whole at that very moment. On top that he let you stay at his place when you were shit faced, you acted a complete fool in front of such a cute guy.

“I am so sorry, gosh that is so embarrassing..” you sigh as you try to laugh it off and pinch your nose bridge. “I don’t usually act that like when I drink, I swear…”

He laughs and shakes his head as he steps closer and smirks “why don’t you let me take you out, you mentioned that you’re here for a couple of weeks when we met at the club. So let me take you out and see how you act when you normally drink”

You looked at him almost with a surprised look, there’s no way he’s in his right mind you bright to yourself. Taking a small step back to create a respectable amount of space between each other.

“Are you sure?” You chuckle as you looked at him almost puzzled.

He nods as he chuckles at your reluctance

You perch your lips together as you quietly think to yourself weighing your options… well I am here for a minute, but what about Alex?! She won’t mind probably…I don’t even know his damn name, what if he’s a weirdo? What does he want of this?? just a simple hang out won’t hurt? Right??? All these thoughts race through your head as you inhale and sigh and nod.

You smile “okay, I’m down just let me know when and what time…”

His eyes almost light up as he nods and says “I’ll text you the details, okay?”

You nod “it was nice seeing you again……” you trail off as you internally swear as you still don’t know his name

“Seungcheol.. it was nice to see you too yn~” he chuckles as he waves before he turns to walk away

Seungcheol you make a mental note and wave as you turn and walk back to your Airbnb