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[noriibo]

I hate ana. I've never liked it. I don't do well being hungry bcs I'm bored, all the time. And there's no euphoria in hunger for me

Overexercising though? LOVE LOVE LOVE LET ME WALK ALL DAY AND RUN AND BE IN PAIN BUT I GET TO EAT WHATEVER I WANT. AND it's good for my mental health. Sun, warmth, fresh air, birds and stuff. Got shin splits and couldn't sleep because of the pain, don't even care bcs it went away eventually

P*rging? Half the time, hate it. But when it's just right? I feel euphoric. I feel great and fresh and full of energy despite the fact that my legs are shaking so much I can't stand. Sometimes you just have the smoothest of expriences and feel on top of the world

That's not to say EDs don't suck. They do. They ruin lives. But God am I enjoying my life being ruined right now

[noriibo]

Let's play a game called "how skinny can I get until my mum genuinely apologises to me"

[noriibo]

seeing pictures of myself at my lw and realising I no longer look like that:

[noriibo]

Had a bit of food with milk in it. Proceeded to thr0w up in my mouth and have acid reflex, for literal hours, on top of nausea. Finally p*rged after over 8 hours, but the hours of acid reflux plus heaving straight stomach acid for like 15 minutes, mean that i feel like absolute shit. Everything hurts and although i do feel better, despite the new pain, I'm so tired

[noriibo]

29/12/24

Dinner

Cheese & veg omlette (356)

Choc chip cookie (60)

Tango (38)

Exercise

Walking (275)

Net: 179

P/C/F = 19/13/31

No more cheese 😔😔😔 ate some today and body said 'I can't take this anymore'. 'New year, new me' but all I have to look forward to is no more gluten or lactose ever again. Like, ok, yes, my opportunities to binge are incredibly diminished now, and I'm so much more likely to hit deficits. But cheese 😔😔😔

Low day. Idk how tomorrow will go, but will aim for omad, probably rice with chicken for dinner. Feeling peckish but otherwise ok. Ta x

[noriibo]

28/12/24

Breakfast

Chicken & veg rice (388)

Egg (68)

Terry's, slice (41)

Dinner

Sandwiches, 2 (569)

Exercise

Walking (321)

Net: 745

P/C/F = 40/59/70

Lots of fats today. Sandwiches are guesstimated, we are not reaching 60s by new years at this point, but. Anyway. Stressed, depressed, just need to do some work and get over it, I fear. The walk did help but... Moderately. Real life is still a bitch x

[noriibo]

27/12/24

Breakfast

Brie & bread (~250)

Mozarella, bufallo (155)

Lunch

5 chicken wings (392)

Salted chips (338)

Cider (289)

Exercise

Walking (~250)

Net: 1174

P/C/F = 66/83/46

I was in a rush this morning so I could not weight exactly how much brie or bread I took. But that's my rough guess. Lunch could have most definitely been minimised from 1k to 600 but... I'd rather skip dinner and enjoy my cider. Although I did come home from my outing feeling like a stuffed pig, from how full I was. Beck to restriction tomorrow. Stay safe etc etc

[noriibo]

26/12/24

Breakfast

Olivier salad (259)

Milk choc (80)

Dinner

Katsu curry rice (92)

Onion + garlic (29)

Sesame oil (40)

Chicken breast (35)

Snack

Ginger beer (136)

Cheddar (40)

Net: 745

P/C/F = 36/75/30

Caved and stepped on the scale, 0.3kg down from yesterday. Felt good about it in the morning, but now I'm just kinda moody and cranky. Whatever. Stay safe

[noriibo]

25/12/24

Breakfast

Chicken, brie & butter sandwich (269)

Milk chocolate (107)

Dinner

Edamame pasta (139)

Tomato pasta sauce (59)

Cheeses (138)

Net: 712

P/C/F = 50/38/37

Simplified the sandwich, but know that brie was nearly half the cals, with a total of 250+ cals today in just cheese. Mozz, cheddar, brie, parm. Whole nine yards. Might be quitting cheese in 2025 so enjoying it while I can, idk what else to say on that

I just had dinner so I feel full but I'm pulling an all-nighter so I'm sure that'll change by 6am. Stay safe yall x

[noriibo]

71.6KG!!! WE'RE ACTUALLY DOWN, AND ON PACE FOR GETTING IN THE 60S BEFORE NEW YEAR🎉🎉🎉

[noriibo]

[noriibo]

You know for somebody who let's their ed rule their life, I sure do suck at having an ed

[noriibo]

“u can suck in ur stomach but ur arms and thighs will tell the truth”

GET OUT OF MY SKINNNNN

[noriibo]

24/12/24

Breakfast

Mayo (102)

Parmesan (55)

Chicken drumsticks (103)

Veg (27)

Snack

Chocolate (144)

Protein (116)

Net: 546

P/C/F = 44/21/30

I am hungry. Idk how yall do this consistently, but I am hungry. Fast went alright although mildly miserable, got lightheaded easily near the end. Gonna try to study but we'll see how that goes. Weighing in tomorrow. Stay safe yall x

[noriibo]

seeing pictures of myself at my lw and realising I no longer look like that:

[noriibo]

I actually got a shoulder tattoo a few weeks ago. I'm ~70kg. My ass DID go down to 46kg at some point so, it's like a very delayed reward. But the delay is 3 years lmao

rewards for reaching gws but im getting a shoulder tattoo the moment i get down to 50kg

[noriibo]

17/12/24

Binge + argument = 45hr fast

Intake for yesterday was 2300, net around the same. Today's intake/net was 885. Some toast, and some veg pasta, and some crisps (worth it). So, to pay back calorie debt, and because I'm upset... Fasting tomorrow, and eating my first meal late on the Thursday. Idk if i can actually do a 45hr fast, even 36hr ones used to be tough for me, but we'll find out. Stay safe x