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not-a-body · 4 years ago

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I am incredibly not okay. A friend of my parents is helping me to find work, I met him at my mother’s funeral, and I couldn’t look at the resume he’s helping me write without crying. His corrections weren’t harsh, and he was incredibly kind to write some of it up even to show me the correct formatting but I just ... I couldn’t.

It hit me that this was something I’d as my mom for, but she’s gone. I’m 26. I should know how to write this stupid resume and make it look good. But I can’t do it alone, and I wish my mom were here. I wish could be sitting with her, as infuriating and difficult as it was to get help from her sometimes, and have her help me.

I am really not okay.

#not okay #grieving #I wish my mom was here #she'd help me make this sound good #it hit me this is real #it's not a dream

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not-a-body · 4 years ago

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Thanks for noticing! I've been working on it for a couple decades now

Girl you are literally decaying

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not-a-body · 4 years ago

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My mother is dying and all I can do is grieve

#cherish your loved ones #tell your mom you love her #tell your dad you love him #tell your family you love them #she couldn't talk #i will never forget seeing her trying to say she loved me #this isn't healthy coping #but i don't know what else to do #it just has to be out of me #before it eats me alive

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not-a-body · 4 years ago

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Meant to practice with references and it went somewhere else

#digital art #art #digital sketch #drawing

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not-a-body · 5 years ago

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Please don't eat my cat.

*eats your pussy because I’m proud of you*

#he won't taste good #i also love him #like a lot #besides its so mean to eat someone's pet #just give me a thumbs up #don't do this

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not-a-body · 5 years ago

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Fell behind on posting art. Big old art dump to compensate.

#art #art dump #digital sketch #digital art #pen and paper #colored pencil #map #amateur art #spilling my work into the void #it's not like there's anywhere else for it

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not-a-body · 5 years ago

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Tonight's work. The head is janky. The folds are janky. But janky is the start to not janky.

#art #sketch #mechanical pencil #sharpie pen #official day one #not happy but still kinda proud #go me

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not-a-body · 5 years ago

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Note to self: Do scale references. Those scales look lazy af. Not happy with it. At all.

Trying this again. One drawing every day with EFFORT. Not a lazy sketch or a slap it together in three minutes and only feel okay about it. A couple I've done so far as a reminder to me what I'm looking for here.

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not-a-body · 5 years ago

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Trying this again. One drawing every day with EFFORT. Not a lazy sketch or a slap it together in three minutes and only feel okay about it. A couple I've done so far as a reminder to me what I'm looking for here.

#art #digital sketch #practice #just for me #this blog will get swallowed in the tumblr void anyways #even online i stay invisible #fucking love being invisible #here's hoping I keep this up this time

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