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smoke til you choke

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smoke til you choke

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The one person I truly believed in doesnt believe in me

I know how stupid and childish im being [one pill]

I KNOW everyone will think im weak and pathetic [one asprin]

but i am [two pills]

WEak and pathetic [one glass of wine]

 im  committing to someone with every bit of my being and he just wants a normal girlfriend who loves him and im incapable of being good enough [slice slice stab]

im tried [two pills]

im too tired to keep trying [one more pill]

travis is beautiful he is kind and caring and wonderful [punch to a wall]

he deserves better than a basket case like hes always had. [whiskey]

i cant keep moving on in life like I matter to anybody [punch]

when i need those people, im alone in my bedroom typing up a suicide note to followers on the internet that have no idea who i am [three mnore pills[

they are the easiest to vent to because the dont respond and they dont care and if they care its enough to say good luck

Thank you all for being here

thank you, oh void of nothingness 

for welcoming me 

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you chug a fifth of alcohol by yourself & everyone around you is too busy cheering to wonder how empty you had to be in order to do it

This fucked me up (via obsessiveloserr)

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Some people smoke, others drink, and others fall in love,each one dies in a different way.

(via difficult)

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not killing myself is a personal achievement but you cant really brag about that at dinner parties

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I love absolutely everything about Maira Kalman's My Favorite Things.

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When it's too late to listen, I just know they will all hear me loud and clear.

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i'd like to pretend the end is like this. Happy and peaceful. But I couldn't care less. I just want all of this bullshit to end. I dont care what comes after. I just know it wont be this, and thats enough.

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  Im starting to wonder...

Should i start being a mega bitch to everyone?

Should I isolate myself and make everyone angry?

If the people I care about are fucking mad at me or avoiding me, me just being gone somehow or another wont matter right?

how do you say goodbye without letting anybody know its not see you later?

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