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Guees who finale realize that is just some stupid adictt that has no intention in stoping, it's not me belive me.

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Life uppdate i'm still being an adicct i just got 8 moths into this bullshit and even that i hate it i hate more being sober.

Plus i'm became adicct to opiods, so now it's alcohol opiods metamphetamine, i think theres no more way back

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Life update:I became an addict

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In a 'im going to kill myself soon so let's do whatever the fuck we want' kinda mindset

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I love being alone <- girl who has known nothing but loneliness her entire life and so has no choice but to take comfort in it

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but you see her on instagram and it was never really said that you guys aren’t friends but one day she stopped answering and you stopped texting and it’s not like the wound is a cavern but it is a diagram of what if in red letters. you want to tell her nice lipstick that’s a good color but the last time you spoke it was stilted and awkward 

how do you say goodbye, you know? it’s not an unfriend and block kind of situation. but you watch the people you once loved go on and have a life and you’re outside of it. and it’s bittersweet because of course it’s okay that you’re both thriving. but she used to be who you’d call if you needed to cry. she used to be who’d you’d be binge watching the new series with. you used to be hers, in a way, even if that way wasn’t permanent. and now she’s someone else and so are you and your friendship is clicking heart shapes next to pictures where she smiles next to people you’ve never met. you know where her birthmark is. she knows where you’ve buried your dead.

the poets and the singers and the authors write about romantic love when it ends. but nobody tells you how to get over a friend.

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how can i accept womanhood when i never got over girlhood

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Here's to the people who weren't abused by their parents, but whose parents sucked anyways. Here's to people whose parents fucked up raising you out of ignorance and not malice. Here's to the kids whose parents didn't know what to do with you so they did nothing at all. Here's to people whose parents are getting better and growing as people but still hurt you. Here's to every mean comment that wouldn't have been so bad if it hadn't come from your mom; here's to awkward family dinners because you're all trying to forget;

here's to you, survivor of a thousand 'not as bad as it could have been' hurts. I see you. You aren't alone.

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if you have other friends I'm gonna automatically assume they're better than me and you don't need me anymore

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wanting to kill myself versus not knowing how to without causing other people trauma

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how am i supposed to relax when there are things

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the urge to just lay down and let time pass you by forever. it’s called clinical depression

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the hardest thing is when ur going through something terrible there is an awful middle phase of it when u don’t know if u can get through it or if you’ll ever be okay again and the truth is always you will get through it and you will absolutely be okay again but u just cant see it at the time

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the end of summer is always very bittersweet. i love summer, ive been a summer girl my whole life. i dread winter, because the months of january-march bring seasonal depression.

but the start of fall means looking forward to my favorite holiday, and sweaters, and pumpkin flavored everything, so its not too bad.

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via stellareye on tiktok

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