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only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

only good enough to be used and abandoned

// never loved, always treated like an object

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*takes my traumas out of my pocket one-by-one & sets them gently on my therapist's coffee table like I'm showing off my rock collection*

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Does anybody know how to find out if you actually have DID? I can't see a therapist right now and I really wanns rule that out or have at least more certainty...

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There is Nothing by David Shrigley

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“It is terrible to be alone. I don’t mean to live alone — to be alone, where no one hears you.”

— Louise Glück, “Averno,”  Averno

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“You read something which you thought only happened to you, and you discover that it happened 100 years ago to Dostoyevsky. This is a very great liberation for the suffering, struggling person, who always thinks that he is alone. This is why art is important. Art would not be important if life were not important, and life is important.”

— James Baldwin, Conversations with James Baldwin

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when you wish you could cry to release some of the deep sadness you’re feeling but you are actually completely numb and incapable of forming tears so you just have to sit and wait for the feeling to pass without feeling any release or comfort whatsoever

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This has broken me so violently that I know that I won’t be okay ever again

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I need everything to stop, I’m losing my mind. Life is happening to me and I am not equipped to deal with it.

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The strong urge to end it all, the violent temptation to destroy my body, the unending desire to never have existed, the helpless desperation to not be alive. I don’t know how much longer can I live each day feeling all this.

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Dear diary...

I feel like such a failure.

I really think I can't do anything right, and all I'm ever good at is at making things worse.

This week has been a complete mess... And it's all my fault.

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But I feel like I somehow deserve all this suffering. That’s the only way I can make sense of it

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I don’t really deal with my mental illnesses. I somehow just get through the day. As soon as I don’t have to pretend to be a normal person around others, I fall apart. And then I try to force myself to go to sleep because being awake is so fucking unbearable. And I do this everyday. How do I stop wanting to kill myself when this is what my days are like.