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you ever just sit and realise u can’t remember 80% of your childhood? like … what happened? who am i ..?

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Friendly reminder

“Doing your best” does not mean working yourself to the point of a mental breakdown.

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stepping on the scale for the 3rd time in a day and not seeing a change

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I really don’t like posts that are like 

KEEP GOING

like, no dude, stop telling people to perpetuate their disorder. they already have that shit ringing in their heads don’t splash it on their screens as a message from others that they need to KEEP GOING in order to reach some goal. like, fuck you. let them stop. let them pause and think you know what maybe i don’t need to keep going. maybe it’s okay to sit here where I am. maybe it’s okay to recover. maybe I don’t need OTHER PEOPLE TO TELL ME TO HATE MYSELF.

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me: *binges on shit for 2 days*

my ed: >:(

me, laughing nervously: its good to fluctuate calories and eat more sometimes .. to help metabolism… right?

my ed, cocking a gun:

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Me after reading my calorie intake of the day

A bitch just binged help

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Meanspo

Look at you, eating. Being healthy. Taking care of yourself. How could you ever think you deserved to starve? It’s fucking disgusting that you would believe for a second that you aren’t beautiful, because you are, for god’s sake. You know what? I hope you get better, goddammit. You are so fucking beautiful it makes me wanna vomit flowers and rainbows. Love yourself, bitch. Eat! Be healthy! you fucking deserve to feel better and love yourself for who you are. I can’t even believe that a person as perfect as you would do this to yourself. It makes me sick. It makes me want to fucking hug you so tight that you feel better. So go ahead, feed yourself. And you know what, eat a fucking cake. Treat yourself, bitch. You deserve it. I don’t care what you did to think you deserve this, but you don’t. YOU. ARE. PERFECT. For fuck’s sake, I love you and you deserve the fucking world. 

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WhY caN’t I eXPlaIn to peOpLE THat sAyIng I LoOk HEAltHy tRIGgerS mE WiTHouT oUtTiNG mYSelF?!!!!

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TW Don’t kill yourself today

Don’t kill yourself today

Because your Netflix trial still has a week left

Don’t kill yourself today

Because no one else will finish off the chicken in the fridge

Don’t kill yourself today

Because I know for a fact that Starbucks is releasing a new Frappuccino sometime next month

Yes, your mother will miss you

Yes your bully will make a sappy Facebook post about how what a a wonderful person you were

And yes

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem

You know that

You’ve known that

Everyone and anyone has been shoving that down your throat since they first learned what the word suicide meant

So don’t kill yourself

Until you finish your shampoo and conditioner at the same time

Don’t kill yourself

Until Doctor Who is finally cancelled

Don’t kill yourself

Until you tell someone your best pasta recipe 

Don’t kill yourself 

Because I will keep coming up with reasons for you not to

And I need you

To hear all of them

Don’t kill yourself

I love you

You’re important

It’s a bad day

Not a bad life

There is more to this

The world will keep spinning on its axis without you

But

Think of all the sunrises you’d miss

I know this sounds pointless

But when you’re sitting in front of everything deadly you own

Revising your goodbyes

There will be too much darkness 

To see anything else

But this is not about seeing anything else

This is about turning off the lights

This is about finding the bed instead of the noose

This is about giving yourself one more day

Even if it takes ten thousand of those

One more morning’s

Until

“I can’t wait for tomorrow”

This is about staying alive

Because there’s gonna be a new Marvel movie

No one should miss that

This is about staying alive

Because the future is coming 

And it’s ready for you

I don’ t need you to see it

I just need you to believe you can make it 

Until then

- Hannah Dains

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Anyone else dreaming of summer?

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Me: I’ve recovered. I’m at a healthy weight. I’m doing good. Nothing can stop me now.

My ED: 👁👄👁

Me: wait-

My ED: 👁👄👁

Me: no please-

My ED: 👁👅👁

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Me going to bed at night like I didn’t just binge on 4 pounds worth of food:

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You wouldn’t think I have an eating disorder.

I’m not the stereotypical image of the beautiful skinny white girl who eats only healthy foods, and loves fruits and veg.

Stop imagining that girl when you hear the phrase “eating disorder”.

Some of us are fat.

Some of us are guys.

Some of us aren’t white.

Some of us are LGBT.

Some of us can’t stand most fruit or veg.

Some of us are disabled.

Anyone can have an eating disorder, not just those pretty skinny girls.

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breaking news: ur actually gonna make it through and everything will turn out just fine

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