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↪     𝑴𝑼𝑺𝑰𝑪 ᶠᵒʳ ᵗʰᵉ 𝑺𝑶𝑼𝑳 .    (  a  collection  of  various unsorted lyric starters .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .   will be updated frequently .  )

i’m not sticking around to watch you go down .

i hope that you don’t suffer ,  but take the pain .

the truth is , i’ve never seen a mouth that i would kill to kiss .

we will be everything that we’d ever need .

you only listen to your fucking friends .

you made a few mistakes .  it’s alright ,  it’s okay .

i’m trying to get better , but i can’t do that when everything is about you .

i can name a couple ways this shit might go .

can you feel my heartbeat fuckin’ kickin ?

you were my everything and all you did was make me fuckin sad .

it’s kind of tripping me up , i’ve got it bad for you .

i’m on my own , i had some space to deal with it .

i’ve got it too good to cry .

i don’t know where i am or where i’ve been .

don’t treat me like some situation that needs to be handled .

finish up the bottle , then we’ll go .

this room is so suffocating .

motherfucker , don’t play with me .

there’s no doubt in my mind that if you could ,  then you would try .

i’m not the type to be out past dawn .

it’s been a long time since i felt this good on my own .

i really wish that i could say it to your face .

i kinda like it when you talk to me the way you do .

i’ve got something up my sleeve , i walk my talk .

i love you , but i know i’ve gotta let you go .

it’s getting hard to find a silver lining .

of course it hurt , of course it fucking hurt .

i know that you’re hiding something from me .

i don’t need to be loved by you .

trying to ignore it is fucking boring .

i tried to pretend ,  but it just doesn’t feel right .

i just can’t take it anymore .

i’m not trying to change your mind .

living in the city isn’t where it’s at .

don’t waste the time i don’t have ,  don’t try to make me feel bad .

i almost did it … glad that i didn’t .

you better run , you better do what you can .

yeah , i don’t really wanna be here .

pretty things should be seen and not heard .

can’t you bother someone else ?

now i’m sitting here wondering , when did this all start ?

i’m terrified but i can’t resist .

is there someone else or not ?

i’ve been around long enough now to know that good things never last .

i’d rather be the girl that got away than be under your thumb .

it ain’t so bad if i wanna make a few mistakes .

wish i could get some fuckin’ sleep without wasting all my weed .

you scared me to death ,  but i’m wasting my breath .

i feel like a kid again .

you were always taught to believe that everything you think is the truth .

nothing comes without a consequence or cost .

i don’t deserve someone loyal to me .

thought you were headed somewhere new .

touch me like tonight we’re gonna die .

can we go back to the world we had ? 

you should know right now that i never stay in one place .

i’d suffers hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight .

the games you played were never fun .

you said you’d stay , but then you ran .

if i can’t hold you like a lover , i won’t hold you at all .

you and i have history ,  or don’t you remember ?

i’ll be the one to deliver the news .

i’m better than this ,  i know my worth .

there’s something tragic about you .

you don’t know what it’s like , waiting up all night .

thank you for teaching me how i could live without you .

tell me what it is you wanna know .

you’re not a monster ,  you’re just human .

maybe i need better friends . or maybe i need a wake up call .

there’s so much to do , i’ll never have the wherewithal to do it .

i know i’d miss you ,  if i left right now .

i don’t like anyone better than you .

they told me once nothing grows when a house isn’t a home .

what makes you sure you’re all i need ?

i know you feel the way i do .

forever never really felt so right .

i overcommunicate and feel too much .

you say you’ve changed and you’re sorry ,  but i don’t wanna know .

i know i’ve got friends ,  i still get so lonely .

i’ve been doing greater good for a long time .

i’m no hero ,  but i can take a punch .

i thought it would all be great when i was older .

i used to be the one that was lying .

i can’t stand your condescending tone when you talk to me .

we’re still going cause we’re not quite dead .

i wanna scream ,  but what’s the use ?

i know what’s going on in your head .

you know ,  i never wanted to hurt you .

i don’t want to be a prisoner to who i used to be .

if we could stay this way forever , would it be enough ?

can’t you see that i’m getting bored ?

i hope you don’t think that shit’s fair .

i never knew you had such a dirty mind .

sometimes i don’t have a filter .

i’m the worst mistake that god has ever made .

you know i love you , but i’m still learning to love myself .

darling , you’re sick in the head .

am i someone you can’t live without ?

if you don’t come back , at least i’ve got nothing to lose .

did you think that i should listen to you ?

the meds aren’t working for me anymore .

goodbye to my good side ,  it only ever got me hurt .

you know ,  you’ve got a real smart mouth .

i know i’m where i belong .  deep down inside ,  i’ve known all along .

i’ve been putting myself on the sideline .

i was worth something , and it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food .

i know i took the path that you would never want for me .

my tongue’s gotten real tired of me biting it .

you’re acting like your deadbeat dad .  you’re better than that .

i swear i changed my ways for the better .

i hate it when dudes try to chase me .

when you’re in love ,  you get so cruel .

sorry , but i guess i’ve gotta let you down again .

just fucking leave me alone .

i walk through this world just trying to be nice .

i can’t be your savior ,  i don’t have the power .

will heaven step in ?  will it save us from our sin ?

follow my lead ,  take my hand .

you should’ve made some plans with me ,  you knew that i was free .

there are things that we’ll never say , but we know .

the only way you can know is to give it all you have .

i’m not gonna stay and watch you circle the drain .

you get me through every dark night .

i know that i’ve done some wrong ,  but i’m trying to make it right .

now you’re over there ,  and i’m way over here , what are we gonna do ?

think about what you believe in .

if i keep my eyes closed ,  he looks just like you .

i don’t wanna feel better .  no one’s ever gonna love me like that again .

there are things that you say ,  and you don’t say .

all my filthy life i loved someone i barely knew .

bless your soul ,  you’ve got your head in the clouds .

what did you say ?  you’re breaking up on me .

if you adore me ,   why do you ignore me ?

you’re not as brave as you were at the start .

it was a bad idea ,  calling you up .

i see it on your face ,  you’ve had a bad day .

people are so fake ,  this world is a cruel place .

i’d rather be hunter than the prey .

someone’s gonna hate ,  it’s never gonna change .

you used to be so kind .

never gonna be easy ,  was it ?

every day’s another shot but all i do is fuck it up .

i can take the hate and all the pain .

it doesn’t matter who’s wrong or right .

tell your baby that i’m your baby .

they’ll kick you and they’ll beat you ,  and they’ll tell you it’s fair .

i wanted to pretend that this time was the end .

no one around me knows who i am or what i’ve done .

i would’ve gave it all for you .

i won’t run ,  i’m not afraid .

same way that they come ,  that’s the way they go .

somehow ,  i just want you more .

i never regretted the day that i called you mine .

i don’t want to get over you .

take it out on me .  i don’t mind if we fight if you make me bleed .

you look better in that dress than i do .

i know i let you down ,  didn’t i ?

it’s a cruel ,  cruel world .

i know i don’t want to live without you .

i’m always tired ,  i just can’t fight it .

i’m too consumed with my own life .

you didn’t think it’d be so much fun .

i won’t let you go ,  so don’t let go of me .

darling , you’re so pretty it hurts .

how’d i ever get so off my rocks ?

tell me where i went wrong .

what’s a king to a god ?  what’s a god to a non-believer ?

they’re out to get you ,  better leave while you can .

i know i’ll never know just what to say .

goddamn it ,  i was worth something .

we don’t need to be enemies .

should’ve kept my ass in bed .

i tried to love you ,  but you’re not my type .

there’s something here that i just can’t explain .

baby ,  is that really what you want ?

i’m not good at making friends .

i keep a close watch on this heart of mine .

i’m obsessed ,  i’ve never met someone like you .

can’t you see that you’re lost without me ?

when i’m like this , you’re the one i trust .

i was born into this , won’t hesitate to use my fists .

i always get my revenge .

the world thinks i’m a mess .

there’s something wrong with me ,  cause all i wanna do is get high .

it’s been a long time since i gave a shit .

sometimes i have these thoughts , they leave me all confused .

when i said take me home ,  that wasn’t what i meant .

oh my god ,  why are you sad again ?

you have to show them that you’re really not scared .

i don’t have many friends .  most of them are pretend .

i had my cake ,  and i ate it too .

i’m too afraid about the things i might say .

shit wasn’t real ,  it was all in my head .

it’s too late to apologize .

i know my disposition gets confusing .

you’ve gotta be so cold to make it in this world .

satisfaction is a distant memory .

no one can ever know .

there’s you in everything i do .

i wish i could say that i’m sorry ,  but i’m over that now .

you’re playing with your life ,  this ain’t no truth or dare .

fool me twice ,  and i know that’s all i need .

i hope if everyone leaves ,  you choose to stay .

i was afraid to leave you on your own .

where along the line did we stop seeing eye to eye ?

if they laugh ,  then fuck them all .

i’m sick and tired of everyone in this place .

i miss the way you made me feel .

he’ll never stay . they never do .

take a dose of something to forget .

aren’t we too young for this ?

i’m not the type to admit i’m wrong .

i shouldn’t think the things i’m thinking .

i don’t wanna know where you’ve been ,  or where you go .

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do you care about him yes or no quickly

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the brothers bloom dialogue prompts from rian johnson's 2008 film.

___, what have you done?

oh god, he's dead!

___, you dunce!

if we see each other again, it'll be as strangers.

as for the money, let it rot.

"wow" is the word you're looking for! wow!

buy you a drink?

it's true you never work with the same crew twice?

there you are. you hiding?

hold on, i must make piss.

do we have to go through this again?

i mean it this time, ___. this time, i'm really out.

i hate you. okay?

i can't do this anymore. i can't wake up next to another person who thinks they know me.

tell me what you want.

how'd you find me?

how you been?

i'm not saying yes, but what's the con?

you got something up your sleeve.

this is about me, right? somehow.

this isn't gonna give me what i want.

could you drive me home?

are you okay?

i'm really bad at talking to people.

i really want to talk to you.

what kind of stuff do you do?

it's a good feeling to be genuinely interested in someone.

are you leaving?

what was your childhood like?

a little fear might suit you, i think.

eat your waffles.

the day i con you is the day i die.

i think it'd be fun. we should do this.

this could go very bad.

i think a little real danger might suit me.

i think you're constipated. in your fucking soul.

you just got to stop thinking so much.

your smile is the sun, ma chère. and fallen men, we need the sun.

you don't have to be scared of me.

you probably won't believe, but i loved you very much.

i'm sorry i wasn't there.

i'm really happy right now. are you?

this isn't the ending you wanted?

i love her. i don't want to turn her into me.

trust me. it's gonna be okay.

you've been awfully quiet.

oh, god, i'm gonna be sick.

is this a con or is it real?

i love you.

there's no such thing as an unwritten life. just a badly written one.

you know what we're gonna do? we're gonna live like we're telling the best story in the whole world.

[notsaints]

lucky number slevin dialogue prompts from paul mcguigan's 2006 film.

why are you here?

what do you want?

i got a present for you.

you think that's funny, do you?

are you gonna be a degenerate gambler?

love you, kiddo.

fuck. shit. jesus.

sometimes there's more to life than just living.

you're not as tall as i thought you'd be.

you have a deceptively tall knock.

what happened to your nose?

somebody hit you?

they say bad things happen in threes.

it was an accident.

do you know what time it is?

i'm a… i travel a lot.

how'd you get in?

is this a crime scene?

i think ___'s in trouble.

thanks for the sugar, sugar.

i'm not the guy you're lookin' for.

i'm just visiting. i just got in this morning.

i will break your motherfuckin' nose.

do you mind if i get dressed first?

i think it's better if you let me do the talking.

unfortunately, the lucky never realize they are lucky until it's too late.

people are never happy with what they have.

i live on both sides of the fence. my grass is always green.

i'm just a guy who was in the wrong place at the wrong time.

if there is one thing i know, it's when someone is lying.

things like that aren't supposed to be real. it's like amnesia.

i'd say you're fucked.

shouldn't you be a little more worried about all this?

i'm not such a bad guy, you know.

you're a conundrum, you.

i was just thinking about what it would be like if we'd met under different circumstances.

if you and i fell in love, we'd have one hell of a story to tell.

so, come here often?

what are you thinking?

you're gonna have to trust me.

[notsaints]

love is a virtuous mind that creates only peace and happiness, whereas attachment is never virtuous and it only causes pain and problems... - tell me your secrets

[notsaints]

Haven't seen any post on here about it yet, so: there is another one day strike tomorrow (Thursday the 7th), as well as a call to boycott the oscar's on the 10th. Much like the super bowl and christmas, israel is planning to attack Gaza when they expect americans to be distracted, on top of having a history of targeting Palestine during Ramadan.

Here is a link to the instagram post, don't forget to call your reps, mask up and attend a protest if you can, and keep speaking up and staying updated on what's happening

Daily click

[notsaints]

LUCIFER | 1.09

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i love crimm

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fingers brush along keys, not playing any melody —— no notes of song leaving from the piano's chords. disinterest colors pale features, music lessons holding none of her attention. eyes roam the walls of her bedroom, landing on her mother last. “ i don't really want to, mom. can we skip the lessons today? ”

shilo begins to get up, fully intending on venturing back to bed; mag's performance is about to start, & she'd really like to —— pausing at the mere mention of going outside, the thought shining unfamiliar brightness in dark eyes. she dares to plant the seeds of a smile, worried she's only getting hopes up for nothing. “ bugs? we could go outside? the two of us? you really mean it? ” excitement blossoms before it can be stopped, smile blooming into a grin, bouncing on heels. “ we can go & come back before dad gets home —— he won't even know we left! ”

ㅤ𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐭, fingers upon keys of the piano ― an attempt at giving a lesson in the art of it. ❝ shilo, ❞ she begins, a mother to her child wishing to share in something she loves : music. fingers dance upon keys in a simple rhythm before straying. there is so much pride when she looks upon shilo, her daughter.

❝ would you like to try? or maybe we could make up some lyrics to go along with it? ❞ words are spoken soft with a grin, enjoying the chance to bond. knowing that such hardships led to this makes it all worth it to be here with her. smile fades just so as debate causes a knit in her brow, attempting to supply another option in the case of disinterest. ❝ or . . . ❞ marni begins, fingers threading together in an exaggerated motion. ❝ we could go look for bugs? your father can't be stern about it when it's two against one. 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐨? ❞

@notsaints / shilo .

[notsaints]

MAZIKEEN IN LUCIFER | S01E03 “The Would-Be Prince of Darkness”

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sharp clicks of leather stilettos echo against the dingy brick, guard dogs on her heels obediently, their leashes tugged along behind for her nightly deal. the shade of the alleyway swears to secrecy, though it's really no secret to anyone at all — amber sweet's addicted to the knife, scream the tabloids, the question on every paparazzo's tongue at every event she shows up to. still, they meet in the darkness: creatures of the night.

“ you know my daddy's money's good. i'd have something better than that, but you're always such a fucking baby about it. ” bodyguards heel as told, & she struts to where ji-won stands. hardly waiting for previous customer to move out of her way. chipped nails tracing slow down his shirt, biting dark lip before shoving the wad of cash into his waiting palm. sour, then sweet. pressing bodice to the wall, thighs parting in waiting, her fingers beckon him closer. thickly - made lashes bat, almost coy, “ come here — give me my hit. don't make me wait. ”

❛❛  couldn't wait to see me, hm?  ❜❜  my eyes hit amber's form as she approaches, and i can't help the cold sense of irritation that smothers my insides.  i snatch a few bills from a paying customer before digging out a vial and loading the gun up.  the woman opens her thighs, her femoral artery present and thumping for the glow.  i kneel, just enough, to shoot her up.  i click the gun and the hiss of the injection follows, the woman stumbling back and making her way from me with a drunken, zydrate - heavy thank you.

i toss the empty vial in the nearby dumpster, then load a fresh one up for amber.  ❛❛  cash first.  ❜❜  my free palm is presented, fingers wiggling playfully.  ❛❛  i don't run a charity, even for you.  hand it over.  ❜❜  my eyebrows shoot up, expectant, before i nod at her bodyguards.  ❛❛  —  and you, step back.  i don't like seeing you two no matter what.  ❜❜  i suck my teeth, a click of my tongue.  ❛❛  —  you're both like bad luck.  you're driving away my clientele.  ❜❜ 

@notsaints, amber sweet.

[notsaints]

( @suhspiria, chloe. ) ∎ it's always something with you, isn't it? it's always an emergency.

“ detective — ” apology dies on lips before it can leave, phone screen dying to dimness as it falls to side, stepping after chloe. he hates to leave, realizes the work they do is important — important to her, & therefore, important to him. but more pressing issues beckon, & he cannot leave it to wait. it burns, knowing someone is tampering with that which he considers his: hell's kingdom abandoned, heaven's gates closed.

gently, hand finds her shoulder, trying to pull her attention back to him. “ detective, please. if it wasn't an emergency, of course i would stay, but — it's lux. i can't just leave it, even as capable as maze is on her own. ” voice drops to softer tone, near a plea as silence stretches between the vast space keeping them at odds, “ . . .come with me. ”

[notsaints]

( @suhspiria, linda. ) ∎ it's really okay if this is not your thing.

there are few things about earth that make her stay here more bearable — liquor, the sex & violence humans love, the promise that they'll go back to hell eventually, & lucifer's doctor, linda. she leans onto elbows, knees spread a little, tilting her head. watching linda in contemplation, almost fascination, hands loosely twined together.

“ so — what? ” she finally breaks, half - laugh barked out. “ you sound so nervous. what are you thinking? c'mon, tell me. ”

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“ oh — i'm not hiding. ” offered smile aimed to assuage from the embarrassment beginning to burn at cheeks, as his hiding place is discovered & called out. “ no, i'm in here, um, doing paperwork. for my patients. ” explanation falls flat, as well as his expression. he tucks a loose strand of hair behind his ear, as gaze flits away, still trying to prove his innocence despite the nervous ticks. “ it's quieter in here than in my office, y'know — having patients in & out, doctors, nurses, it gets to be noisy. ” still lying through teeth, but eyes blink something hopeful. hoping she believes him.

ㅤ❝ 𝗔𝗥𝗘 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗚𝗢𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗧𝗢 𝗞𝗘𝗘𝗣 𝗛𝗜𝗗𝗜𝗡𝗚 in here? if so, how about some company? no fun in hiding alone. ❞

@notsaints ♡'d for matthew & ophelia

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“ don't you have someone else to bug, spencer? ” comes grumbled remark from where he's bent over desk, pen held tightly in grip & pressed to paperwork. to say he's not in the mood for sugary antics is an understatement — he'd poured enough sugar in his coffee this morning to last him the rest of the day, maybe the rest of the next 48 hours. interested in shawn's banter even less, only bound to make his oncoming headache worse.

“ i would never eat something that you've touched. who knows where you & your hands have been. ” he mutters, still focused on the forms before him. baiting his breath, hoping the psychic will just turn heel & leave with no more conversing, but of course, it's not so easy. it never is. finally, he spares shawn the briefest glance, jaw set, tone much firmer, “ go away. seriously. ”

                   ❛            look , lassie. your vibes ? they're totally off , man , they're disrupting my chi & making things all murky. what's wrong ? i can't help if i don't know.            ❜                  truth be told , i'd only invaded the sbpd today to steal their doughnuts , but i'd been sidetracked. jules said lassiter was more surly than usual , which i'd noticed a couple days ago , when he'd nearly bitten the head off some poor cleric officer just trying to do her job. with a slight incline of my head , i wandered over toward his desk , my arms full of the stolen pink box of frosted desserts , rocking back on the heels of my faded sneakers as i eyed him curiously.

                   ❛            would .. you like a doughnut ? look , i've got old fashioned , glazed , double chocolate , & sprinkled strawberry. though know ahead of time , if you pick the sprinkled one , i might have to fight you to the death for it. gladiator style.            ❜

@notsaints / closed starter !

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( @zydrations ) ∎ no, that medicine beeping thing of yours means you should probably go. do you even know what part of town we're in?

he's right — she knows it, as medicine reminder beeps repetitively, demanding attention. the world that surrounds is strange, unrecognizable, only bits & pieces look like that of what she's seen on t.v., the air breathed in carrying an unfamiliar burn. hastily, she searches through bag's stuff for pill bottle, knowing it's only a matter of time before her dad's scolding voice rings out. almost able to count down the seconds, “ it's fine, ” spoken after her gulp, quickly washing down the pill with nothing. attention turned back to the man, eyes flashing with brief panic that bleeds into a lingering nervousness. maybe trust is misplaced in this stranger, but it feels safer than being alone. “ can we keep going? there's so much i haven't seen yet. please? ”

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