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BUCK, EDDIE & CHRISTOPHER 2x10 "Merry Ex-Mas"

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Dyke March, San Francisco, CA, 1999

Photograph by Phyllis Christopher

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PAUL MESCAL as HARRY in

ALL OF US STRANGERS (2023)

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So I’ve been watching the show 9-1-1 and I’ve made it most of the way through season 5 and it is giving me one concern for the depiction of Buck’s lovely bi future (and also just generally annoying me)

So this show has a slight track record of neutering its queer characters. Now I realize that Michael’s soon to be husband is very much a side character but I just watched them get engaged and they didn’t kiss? Huh? In fact there’s been a few moments where I’d assumed they would kiss and they just didn’t. Meanwhile Athena and Bobby are doing firefighter role play (which I’m very entertained by). Hen and Karen have some moments and they’re often in their bedroom but it does seem more reserved.

The show tells queer stories but it just seems to be slightly freer with the heated moments and topless in bed type scenes (it’s still a network show mind you) with the straight couples. Right now that could maybe be chocked up to actor preferences or the particular plot context and characters but Buck has long been involved in some of the steamier moments in the show so I feel the real test here (and it may change with abc) is whether they maintain that now? Or is there a shift?

In conclusion, new fear unlocked network tv neuters buck.

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EDDIE & BUCK → 5.14 'Dumb Luck'

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The thing about Buck is that everyone wants a piece but nobody wants all of him, and the thing about Eddie is that he has a hard time wanting something with all of himself but that’s how much he wants Buck, and the thing about Buck is that he never knows what he wants or makes his own choices but he always chooses Eddie, and the thing about Eddie is that he only makes choices that are for the benefit of other people except he chose Buck for himself

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Reblogging would be a great help, but don’t feel pressured to

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buck, bothered and bewildered!

(Their faces in this scene killed me, had to draw it)

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one time a guy i know whose girlfriend was heavily pregnant didn’t tweet anything for a whole day so i texted him ‘congrats on your baby’ and made him think i had some kind of baby precognition 

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I fucking love Chris parent traps Eddie and Buck, I eat that shit up in every fic but in show I NEED Chris hating Buddie because every person his dad dates leaves. He has friends who probably went through the same thing further emphasizing that someone dating your parent Will leave when they break up. His mom was the big one of course and Ana and Marisol he doesn’t care about but Buck? Buck who is always supposed to be there?! His dad’s dating Buck? Is Buck staying even when they break up? I need Chris to go full anger meltdown at Buck and Eddie for changing the one thing he knows but also risking that

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WELL

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So what I’m gathering is that at the bar it some how came up that Buck recently came out and some drunk queer people heard this and adopted them immediately and brought them to a house party

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i’m just saying if i had to write a final bucktommy scene at the end of s7

i’d probably have a full-circle moment of them at a romantic restaurant, this time they’re holding hands and buck only has eyes for tommy. they only pull apart when the bill comes (buck pays without hesitating)

and as they’re getting up and tommy’s helping buck into his jacket, buck remembers, oh, and asks if tommy can drop him off at eddie’s instead of the loft; he promised he’d pop over to play this new video game chris diligently saved his allowance for

and tommy says of course, he says sure, and he smiles but there’s something… else behind it. not malice, not quite sorrow, not resignation. maybe resolve? nothing buck can identify, but we see him clock it with a tiny, inquiring head tilt, a question in his eyes. tommy just smiles at him, hand on his lower back, guiding him out of the restaurant.

cut to them pulling up in front of the diaz house; Buck unbuckles his seat belt, leans over to kiss tommy goodnight, and tommy… lingers. just a second too long. he’s playing the same cautious beat we saw after their first kiss. buck doesn’t let it go this time.

so buck invites tommy to come join them for a while, to come play games. he clearly doesn’t want to leave him like this. and tommy, always clever, makes a quip about buck inviting him into someone else’s house.

buck hedges, because it’s not “someone else’s” house, not really, it’s eddie’s house. maybe buck says something about it being more of a home than the loft is?

and tommy’s got that look again. and buck, a little scared now, asks him what’s wrong. and tommy takes his hand and says “evan… i —“

“wait, tommy, don’t —“

“i think we need to talk.”

cut to inside the diaz house: chris answers the door, and buck looks… hollow, maybe. eddie comes around the corner and immediately asks chris to get the game set up while he talks to buck for a minute.

chris goes, shooting buck a concerned look. eddie gets close, asks buck if he’s okay. buck just barely shakes his head, tears in his eyes, and eddie immediately shuffles him to his room, closing the door behind them, giving them privacy.

“tommy just broke up with me.” he says it before eddie can even ask.

and eddie is shocked, concerned, because what happened? they were good, so good, buck had even said that he was really falling for him —

“yeah… he said the same thing.” and buck’s really not trying to hold back the tears but he’s not exactly crying, it’s more like the tears are just happening while his mind is elsewhere. “he said he doesn’t want to fall in love with me.”

and now eddie’s getting pissed, because what the hell? why wouldn’t he want to fall in love with him? was he — was he afraid of commitment, or did he want — ?

but buck cuts him off, barely listening to eddie, and says “he said he didn’t want to fall in love with me when i’m… already in love. with someone else.”

and then buck, breath shaky, looks at eddie for the first time since he came into the house. “eddie?” he asks, and its fragile and terrified and somehow both hopeful and hopeless, “am i in love with you?”

and we just see eddie hear this. and he opens his mouth to say something, anything, and —

roll credits.

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watch eddie start to get tipsy and want to be so supportive of newly out baby bi buck that he’s like “let’s go find a lgbt party for you!!!” and then everyone at the party starts thinking they’re like together together (“you guys are such a hot couple!”) and buck goes to correct the first person who says it but now a slightly drunker eddie grabs him by the bicep and shouts “this is my partner buck!!! he’s bisexual!!!” and everyone just cheers and well… buck just forgets to correct anyone and that is how 50 or so people believe for the entire night that eddie and buck are getting married to each other because they keep talking about a wedding and their son and they’re touching and beaming and radiating love.

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LNC: ALEX CLAREMONT-DIAZ (IN.SP) | Henry [x]

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the Columbia University arrests are worse than they seem. They're arresting protesting students for trespassing. It goes without saying students cannot meaningfully "trespass" in the common areas of a university they attend. So Columbia University has suspended all student protestors from their institution, in the process revoking their access to housing, their belonging, and most crucially damaging their academic futures. We are witnessing full scale silencing and removal of anyone of conscience from the next generation of academia.

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Y'all, the world is sleeping on what NASA just pulled off with Voyager 1

The probe has been sending gibberish science data back to Earth, and scientists feared it was just the probe finally dying. You know, after working for 50 GODDAMN YEARS and LEAVING THE GODDAMN SOLAR SYSTEM and STILL CHURNING OUT GODDAMN DATA.

So they analyzed the gibberish and realized that in it was a total readout of EVERYTHING ON THE PROBE. Data, the programming, hardware specs and status, everything. They realized that one of the chips was malfunctioning.

So what do you do when your probe is 22 Billion km away and needs a fix? Why, you just REPROGRAM THAT ENTIRE GODDAMN THING. Told it to avoid the bad chip, store the data elsewhere.

Sent the new code on April 18th. Got a response on April 20th - yeah, it's so far away that it took that long just to transmit.

And the probe is working again.

From a programmer's perspective, that may be the most fucking impressive thing I have ever heard.