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Hello! Is anyone still here? Its been, what, a year?? ...Or maybe 2??

So, in the time I've been gone, a lot has happened in my life!

I got a promotion, hated the promotion and demoted myself (lol not something I would have ever thought I would do), I've been seeing a guy for over a year but he also reminds me on the daily that we are not in a relationship (if only real life guys would just be like the ones I write everyone would be much happier), I did an Onlyfans for a hot second, I got a new job and put in my 2 weeks notice of resignation within the first week, aaaand I moved to live with my best friend!

The main reason I left was because quite frankly I had no inspiration. I kept writing because I felt guilty giving up, but it was forced and I know the quality suffered for it. I told myself I would come back as soon as I felt inspired again, and that day just never came.

I have missed this place, and all of you wonderful, dear, kind readers every day. ♥

I do want to start writing again before the end of this year, but it may not be anything that ends up on this blog. But we'll see.

How has life been? Everyone doing ok? Read any good books recently?

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The Tenth Floor pt22

Pairing: Yoongi x Reader & Taehyung x Reader

Min Yoongi had gone through 34 secretaries in the past 24 months, and each one of them left in tears. This fact alone should have warned you against taking the job, but the pay was too good to pass up. Surely you could put up with a billionaires temper-tantrums, right?

3 years after giving up on the nonsense that happened on the 10th Floor, and after a particularly unpleasant falling out with your former boss, you find yourselves back in each others lives. Can things have changed enough for you and Yoongi to have a fresh start? Or was the damage done too great?

Genre: Crack, Fluff, humor, some angst? Mostly crack tbh.

Word Count: Idk man, this is a short update.

Warnings: Strong language, smut talked about/implied in previous updates, some dark themes occasionally. 

Parts 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21,

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His words hung, uselessly, in the air. He shifted from foot to foot, waiting for you to say something. Anything. To make this less awkward. 

“Funny, after all this time, me bringing you the wrong coffee.”

Why were those the words that came out of his mouth? He had no idea. All he knew was they spilled out in a desperate attempt to lighten the uncomfortable silence that had fallen after you took a sip, made a face, and spat the coffee back into the cup without saying a word. 

“I never brought you the wrong coffee,” You replied dryly. “You just never knew what you wanted until you drank it.”

Yoongi internally cringed. That wasn’t entirely true. He usually knew what he wanted, some part of him just liked to be difficult. 

He thought better than to say that. 

“So this is a nice office,” He tried instead. “Nice... Desk?”

“Thanks I built it myself,” You deadpanned.

“Really?”

“No.” You sat back in your chair, eyeing him warily. “Where’s Jungkook today?”

Right to the point. “He wasn’t feeling good,” Yoongi said smoothly.

You looked at your phone, read something, and raised an eyebrow. “No.”

“He took a personal day.”

“No.” You said again. “He didn’t. What’s going on?”

“Nothing, just felt like visiting our greatest investor in person today. Speaking of, is Changkyun available...?” Even now, after these past several years of only seeing you occasionally, after basically becoming strangers again, Yoongi felt strange lying to you. It didn’t feel good. Like he was reverting to ways he thought he had left behind in therapy. 

“No, something’s up, and Jungkook’s being weirdly secretive about it, too,” You leaned forward on your desk, looking him directly in the eyes. “Is there something we should know? Changkyun’s noticed it, too, over the last several months.” 

“Speaking of him,” Yoongi tried to deflect. “Where did you say he is?”

“He’s out,” You shrugged. “You can talk to me about further investment.”

Yoongi grimaced. “So that’s the thing,” He coughed uncomfortably. “Things aren’t--there isn’t. Uh. It isn’t looking like there’s going to be much left to invest in pretty soon. We’re drowning.” It felt wrong to actually say it out loud, even though the numbers had been saying it for so long.

Your eyebrows knitted together. “I thought you had this whole plan of recovery--”

Yoongi shook his head. “It’s not working fast enough. Changkyun already knows the other investors pulled out. I’m here in a last ditch effort to save some jobs.” He shifted again, then muttered. “I’m selling the company.”

“You’re what.” 

Yoongi couldn’t tell if you actually couldn’t hear him, or if you were surprised. He didn’t think there was any chance you didn’t see it coming--As Changkyun’s assistant, he was sure you got an inside look at how terribly things were going. 

“I’m selling the company,” He said again, louder this time. “I had my chance. I ran it into the ground. My employees shouldn’t suffer for that, though. If someone like Changkyun was to buy it, at least some of them could keep their jobs...”

“You didn’t run it into the ground,” You interrupted. “And you know that. It was failing long before you were put in charge, and even then you had to cater to investors who didn’t understand what was going on. Don’t be so hard on yourself.” 

Yoongi felt his cheeks heat up, and he coughed as an excuse to look away. “Thanks. For that. But,” He rubbed the back of his neck, feeling restless suddenly. “Credit where credit is due, I didn’t fix things fast enough.”

“That isn’t how that saying works,” You muttered, grabbing a sticky note and jotting down a note to yourself. “I’ll talk to Changkyun.”

“Thanks,” He said, taking a couple steps back towards the door. 

“And Yoongi?” You added, giving him a small smile.

“Yeah,” He wasn’t sure what it was about the way you said it that made him nervous.

“It was good to see you.” 

---

Ever the playboy, Jungkook was flirting with a waitress when you walked into the restaurant. 

“I’m guessing the coffee was your doing?” You scoffed as you sat down in front of him. 

“Who, me?” Jungkook smiled innocently. “I would never tamper with a beverage I picked up for my best friend. Even if my annoying boss changed my plans and said he was going to your office instead of me and took said beverage. I definitely wouldn’t put five packets of salt in it when he wasn’t looking.”

“That was the most disgusting thing I’ve ever--Why do you do things like this? What goes on in your head?”

His smile only grew. “Did you spit it out?”

“Who wouldn’t?” You raised an eyebrow. 

Jungkook did a little triumphant fist pump. “How many times did he spit out your coffee when you worked for him?” He asked excitedly, not waiting for an answer. “And now he knows how it feels on the other side of that.”

You shook your head. “So petty,” You chastised. 

“So funny,” Jungkook corrected without missing a beat. 

“I would have appreciated a heads up,” You sighed, opening the menu only to have Jungkook reach over and slide it away from you.

“I knew you might be conveniently out of the office if I told you he would be dropping by,” He shrugged. “Also I kind of already ordered for you.” 

“God damnit,” You complained, sitting back in your chair and crossing your arms. “You always do that. I’m capable of ordering my own lunch, butthead.”

“You’re always late!” He practically whined back. “And then I get awkward, and I feel bad for taking up a whole table and then some random mutters about me getting stood up--which, sorry, but do I look like I get stood up?--so I panic order!” He pouted. “Also. I have great taste. You always like what I get.”

You narrowed your eyes, but let it slide for now. “I didn’t mean a heads up about Yoongi coming in. I meant about his company tanking.” 

“Oh,” Jungkook’s pout dropped. “He told you about that, huh? I guess it really is that bad...” He tilted his head to the side. “If it goes under, I might have to be a regular doctor...Y/n. I might have to see patients again.” He shivered dramatically, and you rolled your eyes. 

“I’m sure you’ll be fine,” You assured him dryly. “I’m more concerned about Yoongi--He’s given it his all. What’s he going to do once it’s gone?”

Jungkook shrugged. “Actually live a little, I hope.”

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A/N *cough* ‘sup let’s not talk about the fact that this has taken me nearly 3 years to update and pretend everything is normal. Yeah? Yeah. What are your thoughts and feelings? Is the time skip too extra? Or just extra enough? Would you have drank the coffee to be polite or spat it out? Let me know! As always I love hearing from you all! 

If you’ve stuck around this long, omg thank you so much. If you’re new to my writing, welcome and thank you so much. It’s been a hot minute, I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe out there! I’ve been stressed as fuck and figured there’s no better cure than writing absolute crack. Stay tuned for nonsense!

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BAE OH GOD it’s been so long

How have you been I’m the literal worst wife ever. Haha I was dying for a while and in and out of the hospital but like woof it’s been a rough couple of years. I have no idea how long it’s been since I messaged but I hope you’ve been well bae.

-Your forever Fish Wife 🧜🏻‍♀️

OH MY GOD HI!💕💕

No if anything I’m the literal worst wife ever--I just realized I didn’t answer your last message, and I am so, so sorry. I did read it though, and that’s so scary you had to have surgery! I hope the recovery process has been going well and that you’re doing better now!

I’ve been hanging in there. Honestly last year kicked the shit out of me emotionally, as it did for so many other people. I got lucky in a way that my job was deemed “essential”, but it’s been a long pandemic haha. I think working so much made me lose my marbles for a bit because I actually tried to date someone? But the bad thing was it was someone I work with haha talk about a bad idea. 

The whole thing was very unusual for me lol but anyway he got bored or weirded out by me (I’m mostly over the whole thing BUT i’m still a little salty he told one of our co-workers that I’m weird and awkward LMAO I mean I AM but geeze louise my dude no need to point it out like that). ALSO I told him I write and his response was “I don’t read” which is probably the weirdest response I’ve gotten to that statement, but his best friend who loves Taylor Swift heard me say it and whispered “I know what you write, because I write it too” and that was probably the funniest response I’ve ever gotten.

Now that I’m getting past that nonsense and my arm is finally starting to work properly again, I’ve been looking at apartments which is really exciting! Not sure where I want to move, not sure what I want to do, but I DO know I’m ready for a change! So having that to work towards has really helped me to get everything back into perspective. 

I hope you’re doing well and staying safe, Bae! It’s so great to hear from you, it literally made my night! 💕💕💕

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did you post tenth floor part 22 yet?????

ive been over my head in this seriesss. u truly deserve the best fanfic ever award..if there is one. lemme just know if u have updated cuz im really looking forward to this

Hi! I think I remembered what happened to part 22. I remember writing it, and posting it, and I’m almost positive I deleted it a week later. I don’t remember why exactly, I think a few people told me it was boring lol which I’m sure it was because I remember feeling like it was forced. 

But the good news is, I just wrote a new part 22! So that’ll probably drop either later tonight or tomorrow, depending on if I feel like editing it. It’s short, but it’s a pretty drastic change from where I left off last, and I’m not sure how people will react to it. So I’m going to start small.

Thank you so much for reading the series and not giving up on it or me! I really appreciate all the lovely messages I’ve gotten while I’ve been away. I wouldn’t have come back if it wasn’t for people like you reminding me there are still people who enjoy my writing💕💕💕

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yooo bro answering these messages got me feeling like it’s 2018 again--

I just wrote part one of the time skip. (AKA Part 22 of TTF)

...Anyone up for a spontaneous Tenth Floor update soon?

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Hii!! I love Champion and was wondering if you planned on finishing it?

Hi!! Thanks so much, I’m so happy that you’re enjoying it! Champion’s an odd one. Unlike a lot of the fics on here, it never really left my head during this long accidental break. I have the ending completely planned in my head, but every time I’ve tried to write it, it feels.... Off. Like there’s some part of it that I’m missing. Some aspect that I KNOW would make it so much better but I can’t quite put my finger on. So I keep a document of notes on it, trying to sort out my thoughts. But the plan is definitely to finish it! Even though it’s full of some pretty major plot holes, I personally feel like it has some of my best writing character-wise. So if I can ever find that missing piece to it, it’ll probably be the first thing I finish! <3

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PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE CONTINUE WITH THE TENTH FLOOR AND I REALLY HOPE IT DOESN'T END ANYTIME SOON!! PLEASE WRITE MANY MORE PARTS. I UNDERSTAND IF YOU NEED TIME BUT PLEASE DON'T DISCONTINUE THE SERIES. LOVE YOUR WRITINGS. ABSOLUTELY ADORE THE WAY YOU STRUCTURE THE PLOT. LOVE YOU BABY!

Love you too bby!! From what I can remember about where I was going with it, it can go one of two ways. One way ends it in the next couple parts, the other way opens it up to another ten or so hahaha. It’s been since 2018 since I updated it, so it’ll be interesting to get back into the crackhead mindset of writing it lol. Thank you so much for sending this and for reading it! I hope whenever I do get around to posting an update it’s worth the long wait <3 

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Hi sweetie, would you please continue The Tenth Floor? the series is absolutely amazing.

Hi! Thanks so much for reading it! It’s been a whole hot minute since I looked at it, but I’m going to see if I can find my old notes about where I was going with it and see if I can pick it up again! I miss those characters tbh, re-reading it makes me realize how much crackhead energy I started that series with and man was it fun to write <3 

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OLD HABITS PT 3 PLLEEAASSEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Were people interested in me continuing this one? If I do I guarantee it’s not going to be as happy or wholesome as the original series, plus the love interest will probably shift at least briefly? If you do still want to read it, I’ll add it to the list of possible series to get back into writing!  Thanks so much for sending this and for reading it! <3

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Ugh guys are so like annoying >.< I hope you’re okay lovely :(

Thank you for sending this!! Now that I’ve had some time to get him out of my head and feel more like myself again, I feel like I can look at it as a learning experience. Literally everyone close to me said from the beginning that he was lowkey toxic and really emotionally immature and unavailable, and I just really, really, didn’t want to see it. 

And in his defense, I wasn’t helping--when he said hurtful things, I didn’t call him out on it or ask why he would say something like that. I didn’t communicate that he was making me feel so bad, mostly because I wasn’t checking in with myself to realize how he was making me feel. I just turned it on myself and felt like I must have done something wrong, even though I could never figure out what it was that I had done. 

I let all of his doubt, mistrust, and indecision get into my head, and it wasn’t until several weeks after he dropped me that I realized that literally every interaction with him left me feeling progressively worse about myself and stressed the fuck out. Even after I came to that realization, he still fucked with my head every time I saw him and it got to the point that I started getting stress nose bleeds every time I had to spend time with him because one moment he’s sweet and kind and generally wonderful and the next he’s volatile and passive aggressive.

Moral of the story is, listen when people tell you someone is bad for you, even if you really, really like them. If your friends say “hey, this person is obviously taking a toll on you, they’re not good for your mental health”, it’s probably a good idea to take a second and check in with yourself. Even now I don’t think this guy is a bad person, but I DO know that the two of us together was a bad combination. I think we were bad for each other. 

I hope he figures himself out and finds happiness, and I want nothing but the best for him. I hope he finds that dream girl he’s been looking for. I also hope he starts eating vegetables, it’s really fucking weird for a grown ass human to refuse to eat fruits and vegetables of any kind, ever. Like what the fuck bro. Who tf eats meat for every meal of the day and why didn’t I think that was odd before now. Actually now that I’m thinking about it, WEREWOLVES eat meat for every meal. So maybe he’s a werewolf, actually. That would explain the mood swings--

No but in all seriousness, I’m doing much better now. Sometime’s things just don’t work out. And it’s sad, and it hurts, but all we can do is learn and move forward. So that’s what I’m doing! And someday I’ll find someone who clicks with me and doesn’t give me nose bleeds and doesn’t think my sense of humor is dumb or annoying. In the meantime I’m going to go back to writing and sharing my humor with you guys! 💕💕💕

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HELLO, PLEASE TELL ME WHERE I CAN FIND PT 22 OF THE TENTH FLOOR. AMAZING JOB, BTW!!

Hi! I genuinely don’t remember if I posted part 22. I thought I did (I actually thought I had posted up to like part 24) but I can’t find it now so I must not have? I think part 21 must be the most recent update, but if anyone knows that part 22 exists please send me a link😅 Also while looking for it I realized I haven’t updated it since mid 2018? Which is... so long ago.... 

Thank you for reading it, I think I might try to update it sometime soon! .. If I can figure out where I left off😅💕

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are you continuing with The Tenth Floor? PLEASE DO!!

So here’s my current dilemma with the tenth floor-- My writing style has changed since the last time I updated it. Like. Drastically changed. So when I pick it up again, it’s going to feel awkward and jarring to suddenly switch tone and style the way that I now want to write it.

The last couple times I updated it show that I can’t replicate my old writing style. It ends up feeling forced and just isn’t... Good. 

Sooo my idea that I just came up with like 10 minutes ago to bridge this gap is a time skip. Time skips are absolutely ridiculous and often the only thing they add to a story is confusion, BUT the Tenth Floor IS ridiculous and confusion, so what better story to use one in? 

Idk, I’m really seriously considering like a 3 year skip into the future. I think it could help the plot, plus I just generally think time skips are hilarious in nature. Thoughts on this?

Thank you so much for your support! I hope you’re doing well and staying safe out there!   💕💕💕

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Wow I've been gone for a hot minute

Happy everything, I hope you're all doing well and staying safe out there!

I have literally no clue what's been going on in the fandom, anything exciting I need to know?

If you're curious as to where I've been, my life generally fell apart starting about this time last year, I've been working an average of 6 days a week since the pandemic started, fell head over heals for a fuckboy who completely crushed my self-esteem (don't ask me why I let this happen, I don't know either), and then dislocated my shoulder. My right hand is finally mostly working again though, and I'm going to try to answer some messages tonight!

Huge thank you to everyone who has stuck around, who've left comments and sweet messages and likes even though I haven't posted an update in a year. And thank you to all the new people too who have sent messages and told me you enjoy my writing! It means so much

Love you all, hoping to update something soon!

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Can someone adopt me as their feral artist plz

I wish rich people went back to keeping artists as pets. Like when you’re wealthy enough you pick a cool weirdo to do regular commissions for you, and if you really want to flex on your peers, you’ve got several.

 And you visit them every once in a while like “hello, I’ve paid for your rent and your tools, have you worked on that commission giant oil painting of me getting sucked off by my political opponent, who is unfortunately still the mayor of this town, like I requested?”

 And your favourite feral art person looks up - mouth full of gravel and completely surrounded by art-related trash like “no, but I designed a helicopter.”

And you’re like “that’s fucking lit, the mayor doesn’t have a helicopter. Please carry on as you have.”

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!!! I recently got my first actual crush on someone (I think) and I think I’m in the same boat. Remember that he isn’t shit and you deserve good things, give yourself space and time, mute/block him if you have to stop yourself from talking to him if that’s what you need!! Good luck, I’m wishing you the best!! 💕💕🥺

Thank you so much 💕 I'm sorry you're in the same boat, it's such a shit feeling. The hardest part about this is that I've liked him for so long before we started dating and then like actually getting to know him just made me like him more. Like I think he's genuinely a great person, and he says he honestly wants to stay good friends and keep hanging out so like I don't want to cut him out of my life it's just going to be a tough adjustment. Plus we work together which means I'm going to see him like every other day so I can't really just take a breather from seeing him even if I told him I need space.

Idk. My friend told me dating people at work was a bad idea. She was right, and now I'm dreading going in bc when I see him I might just cry like a complete dumbass.

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So like I've been talking to this guy literally all month and he just texted me he feels like we should be friends and like idk how I feel crushed, sad, stupid and yet not surprised all at the same time

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Lmao when you think you're finally dating someone good and you run into their twitter account and find out that while they're trying to get you into their bed they're also 110% not over their ex and would drop you in an instant if she called him

can someone pls tell me how to get over this