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from a golden evening recently

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real sadists understand that you can torture The Character simply by forcing them to live with themself

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I slept so late i love being unemployed

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[13/100] days of productivity

I've been really into this task of copying all the good stuff i screenshotted into my commonplace journal. The screenshots started in September 2023 and now I'm transcribing things from June 2024.

I'm slowly catching up!

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I’m going back to work after 15 days of a wonderful nourishing break and I can already smell that beef submarine I’ll order in for lunch tomorrow

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don’t let this world’s obsession with youth rob you of the big and small joys of adulthood. i spent most of my teenage years and early twenties struggling with my mental health. but there’s no timeline for happiness. for many people, getting older and growing up means having more chances to redefine their values, find their path and stability in life. some people go to college in their forties. some people marry in their sixties. some people recover better after their thirties. there’s no timeline for this kind of stuff. your childhood and teenage years won’t be the only chance you have at experiencing freedom and joy.

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working on a substack post that looks back on my entire history of my taste in books and going a little insane cause I always have so much to say about books

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I feel like I want to read some YA fantasy again but it’s been so long since I’ve last read YA, I’ve no idea where to start. Also, all the book covers look the same now? Anyone got good YA recs?

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happy june! i hope your month is full of moments of joy and love and light <3

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they say you can't pour from an empty cup but i've been doing it my whole life and aside from all of these mysterious ailments it's working out great for me

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so tired i need to get married to the love of my life and deactivate everywhere

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to begin with, the sweet grass by mary oliver, from “devotions”

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April 5, 2025 - Saturday

Trying to get my life in order and start properly applying to jobs. My internship ended a few weeks ago and I took a little break for Eid, but now its crunch time 😤 Job searching is the absolute worst but I wrote a giant list of all the things I have to do and seeing it is giving me motivation!

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setting intentions for dhul hijjah - it's not too late

🧭 Heart & Purpose

Why do I want to be intentional during these 10 days?

If these were my final 10 days, what would I want to leave behind spiritually?

💭 Mindset Reset

What distractions do I need to avoid to be fully present with Allah?

What thoughts or beliefs do I need to unlearn to approach Allah more sincerely?

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the week did not end me. I have instead ended the week. we made it guys

in this essay i will be exploring why this week will end me

is it the fact that I am literally running on almost two months of working overtime and therefore on the edge of burnout or the fact that I’m on my period and yet it just so happens that it’s this week we have to draft our audit findings for two review meetings and i have an exam and on top of that possibly 6 meetings with stakeholders over two days (2 of which are confirmed) and I literally cannot anymore i swear I am going to be ended gahhhhhhh

It’s currently 1:57am and I’m drafting the preliminary findings for tomorrow mornings review meeting

It’s not the individual events rather the consecutive events without any breathing space over so many days

i.e, working on saturdays and going back to office at night to work overtime for almost two months now

Review meetings will end (for now) tomorrow but right after that i will need to;

- study for the exam on Wednesday morning

- attend the committee meeting on Wednesday evening (and actually contribute and discuss… it’s not just a meeting where i go and sit there)

- Prep for the stakeholder meetings on Wednesday and Thursday

- Plan out my tasks according to deadlines in tomorrows meeting and do a work handover cause I am taking my ass on annual leave starting next week for two weeks 🫠

I was looking forward to taking an exam release on Wednesday and chilling and also enjoying the half day vibes on Thursday but nooo sigh

Feels like it’s not much honestly , so i think it’s just the low energy from being on my period and prolonged exertion. No choice but to persist and persevere 😃

I can’t wait to literally just sleep as much as i want and not think about work after Thursday (in sha Allah)