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I feel so alone and left out rn. I can’t stop crying

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losing a fp feels like you just got your soul ripped out and now you're not even a human being anymore.

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It is hard resisting being so clingy and begging for constant attention. But I know it is wrong. But. I still yearn so badly for their complete attention. It is so hard not talking to them and giving them space. All I do is wait for their attention.

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it's always "i love you even with your disorder!" until they don't understand your symptoms

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did my anon get mad at me

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im a terrible person.

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i want to know you.

i wanna know what kind of music makes you feel good, what comforts you in the dead of night. i wanna know what side of the bed you sleep on at night. i wanna know your favorite season and why, i wanna know what weather you hate. i wanna know where you feel most at home, with whom you feel most at home with. i wanna know what you did growing up, your hobbies, your interests. i wanna know why you think the way you think, i wanna know how you see the world.

i want to know you so badly.

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having bpd is like u do one little thing wrong and suddenly you want to kill yourself, you think you're the worst person alive, you think that the person you messed things up with is leaving you, you think they hate you, you're never going to be forgiven, they don't care about you or your apologies, they don't understand you didn't mean it, wait maybe they're the worst person ever, wait no im just crazy, why am i like this, this disorder is gonna make me kill myself one day. :3 ^__^

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i wouldn't wanna miss a moment of your radiant glow if she hugs the plushies does that count as us cuddling? ;3

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my ideal relationship is being so close we're basically one and the same ♡ we spend every single second of our day with each other, we go everywhere together, we have the same friends, everytime we go out we wear matching outfits, we NEVER!! take off our wedding rings! we have matching tattoos! matching scars! we have matching profile pictures on every social media! we have each other's passwords! we make joint accounts! people around us get sick of how much we love each other!!! we dedicate our entire lives to our love and we die together!!! ♡

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hi pookie

hellooooo how are you

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I can't help but stalk your accounts :( I need to know if you're on, what you're doing, what you're thinking about, if you're thinking of me, if you're avoiding me. I need to know everything you do and think.

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When I say I want someone obsessed with me, I mean that they're so obsessed that the thought of me leaving fills them with nauseating dread every second I'm not right under their nose. I want my absence to leave them feeling sick and vacant. I mean that they're so obsessed that every time they're having a conversation with somebody else, their mind wanders in boredom, just wishing it were with me. I want someone who panics when I mention another persons name and follows up with 20 questions in suspicion about the person I've brought up. I want to be creeped out, then backed into a corner, unable to escape the hold they have on me.

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so you really want a stalker bf? someone who is possessed and obsessed with you? watching all your steps and thinking about killing everyone who looks at you? sending people to hurt everyone who messages you, since he knows people all around the country? are you sure u want that?

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im sorry im a terrible person. please know im trying. i dont like who i am, who would like this? who would want to be like this? i hate myself and i hate how i treat others and how my brain is wired and how i hold everyone to such a high standard. im sick of myself.

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this is one of the realest accs ever

omg rlly ? tyy