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there's a mall i always go to in dreams. i even had a job at it once. not the same as my dream strip mall, that is a different mall.

but i fucking went to like... an oddities shop there where they had just. assorted old things. my mom found fake hair streaks from the 80s. there was old candy and old costumes. but they were having a museum event in the back about some excoticist white people shit about native americans predicting the end times. there was a plaque that was like "the universe will cease to exist in 8000 years. the ruler at this time will be named wolf tiger rock ii. we will all be drowned in a vast ocean"

it was very much racial stereotype type "this is how native americans talk, right" kind of language. they had a feature on a kids animated movie they made about it in the 80s. if you walked out the back door of the place you got to shake hands w some native american chief they hired (my hand got stuck in the door and i had to pull it out before i did) and you were brought to a seashore where they shot the final scene (which is weird bc its an animation)

you got to watch the scene on a screen where they showed these characters... one of them was like, a boy with spiky yugioh hair... another was a littke boy too... and the last two were a snake boy and a rabbit girl. these are in order from oldest to youngest. the scene was all of these children simply accepting the waves passing over them, letting them be overtaken. nothing mattered and nothing was going to be taken from them. the universe was ending but they understood that everything was simply going to go on. they had come to peace with it, had no idea what was going to happen, but all they knew was that they were going to be somewhere else. i asked the hosts, "this is a little heavy for kids, isn't it?" and he said "the kids were actually relatively fine with this scene." and then, out of the real actual sea came the actors playing the children. the 2 older boys were fine. the little snake boy was okay, shaking a little bit. the little rabbit girl was clinging to someone's leg and sobbing. she looked like she was only 3 or 4. when i tried to comfort her she was afraid of me. the other 3 boys would talk to me but nobody could console her. i remember putting a hand on her skin and it was stretchy and delicate. she appeared to get younger and younger every time i tried to console her, until someone carried her away as an infant. it was horrifying.

but not as horrifying as the other dream i had last night where i accidentally sent an explicitly pornographic video of myself to my grandma (the racist one. no, not that racist one. the REALLY racist one) on accident where i legitimately had to go up to my mom and be like "haha. something uh funny happened that youre gonna kill me for. i made a video for nolan and accidentally sent it to grandma and it is VERY pornographic what do i do" and then just as I was about to meet the consequences for this act of hubris, i was like. wait a second. i don't have to deal with this. this isn't really happening!

never have i ever been so happy to wake up

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i had a dream where..... in yakuza 0 there was a part where majima was running from a bunch of dudes sent after him but he was in like. a hotel that they TREATED like a dorm. and if you dodnt get this part right majima would die. which. made much more of a difference because i was majima. i was pov majima running from random ass dudes. so im running from these dudes and i get to my room and i look down at my card key lanyard and it isnt there. i go to the hotel worker and shes like. ill open the door for you but you have to find the card inside and show it to me after 5 minutes. and so im inside PANICKING but im cool im cool bc im majima it was very weird bc i was. VERY majima. and all of a sudden behind me is this white karen mom and her daughter. they look like theyve escaped a cult, that type of white people. how they get in here i dont know. and theyre like "our room is next door. we're gonna help you" and im like "how?" and theyre like

"as soon as you come out, run into our room and we'll hide you. we'll make them think you escaped on a plane to germany. we'll talk about franks and stuff (as if that is the money they use in germany) and theyll be like. fuck hes going to germany and theyll end up in germany" and im like. THATS GREAT!!

but my dumb ass couldnt find their room and eventually i was killed.

the second part of me dream involved me being in a vague auditorium with josie as if we were still in school. in middle school how theyd announce the next school musical was via a joke after they finished the current school musical but apparently in my head they were much more up front. they straight up said "it's elisabeth" and i was like YO WHAT ARE YOU KIDDING ME! and i was like. oh my god. am i gonna try out? at first i was set on becoming part of their finale act and then i was like. dude this aint takarazuka. and i was like. oh man. 100 dollars says theyre gonna copy the takarazuka wigs for these characters tho... and then i was like. what are u talking about. please try out for luigi. please.

i didnt want to be disappointed if i didnt get a part i liked so i was like. seriously bargaining with myself. will trying out for luigi be worth the pain if i dont get that part? because im a woman and nobody wants to hire a woman for a mans part in america????

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cool so last night i had a dream that when i went to my tattoo appt and for some reason just. so many people from five towns were there. this was fucking strange.

picture instead of like

a tattoo waiting room... how do i describe this godforsaken place.

it was as if five towns had dropped its students and graduates here like it was daycare but it still looked like the lobby of lark tattoo. it was so fucking strange. and it read like a daycare too! like everyone was going off the fucking wall, a guy in the corner had a keyboard.

john was there, film student john, and he was asking how i was and etc etc etc. john is aa nice dude. but we know my history with john. 1. he made my music video and 2. im a fuckin flake and every time he wants to film again i end up getting a terrible no good bad anxious feeling and duck out. im so surprised he still asks me to do shit. bless the boy, though.

but when i feel weird about a guy in a dream the guy always ends up being super clingy and kissy cuddly toward me and i just kind of... walk. and go about my business. and swat at them like a fly. and people within my dream are like "oh is that your boyfriend" and im like " no actually hes just a pain in my royal ass :)" and instead of trying to stop the guy and be like. hey get off thats not cool. theyre like

"oh okay :)"

so nasa comes in as if shes a fucking school teacher taking roll and i freeze. everyone around me is still going nuts like little kids. im like. ho man. the goddess is here. and shes got like. a literal attendence sheet with tattoo appt times. i remember earlier in the dream i was adamant about getting to my 6:00 appt and that it was that time. nasa comes out like. you missed your appt at 4. and im freaking out because thats so fucking disrespectful of me. like skipping your appt is the worst for an artist thats how they pay their fucking rent what the fuck. and then im apologizing profusely and shes like. i have a few hours after all these appts.

cant believe all of five towns was getting a nasa tsuchiya tattoo holy fuck.

but the kicker is

my tattoo appt

is at 2

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last night i had a dream where i woke up with multiple shitty tattoos and one of them was shimano (a shitty drawing of shimano) holding a gun and im going to draw it and send it to the shimano blog

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had a dream tjat i was watching a cutscene w josie where some guy took majima, threw him into the ocean, and shot him dead and then went, "heh... wish i got to do that to my boyfriend?" and kiryu pops up behind him fucking enraged and hes like "yeah so did i" and beat the shit out of him

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it seems my brain doesnt want me to lucid dream because like

ok lucid dreaming is when you can control your dreams when you know youre dreaming

which involves u to do reality checks within dreams

so like

if youre dreaming you must be able to tell yourself you are dreaming.

i had a dream we were on tje plane to japan and im like OMG ITS HERE WE ARE ON THE FUCKING PLANE TO JAPAN and before that it was night time at the old house and i was just casually getting ready to get on the plane

and i feel like my reality checks were being yelled from my consciousness to my dream self from behind a fucking pane of soundproof glass

because like as soon as i got on the plane im like "you didnt bring any food. you forgot your frock coat. your mom would have never let you forget food"

"there are no layovers on this flight? if there are, why dont you know where they are?"

"youre in your old house."

"rose youre DREAMING"

"its a little early to be going to japan, isnt it? or did time just fly that fast"

like my brain did like 800 reality checks. AND NOTHING. IT COULDNT CONVINCE MY DREAM SELF IT WASNT REAL.

and i woke up and i was like... i fucking knew i was dreaming.

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had a dream that me and my mom went to a movie in kamurocho and a person had an air horn they wouldnt stop firing off so a fuckin usher was just like "alright movie's over everybody leave" but the movie hadnt even stsrted. it was just previews

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i had a dream that nolan had learned how to tattoo so my dumb ass let him tattoo and my brain was like "dont worry youll wake up and theyll be gone" because this fucker just insisted on tattooing my whole damn body with like, squid ink and a sewing needle

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it was inevitable. i probably already had one already but forgot it when i woke up. this is a dream about majima.

i had this dream i went to this meeting that was essentially a bunch of nerds who keep tabs on the yakuza characters (like meaning everyone in yakuza is real, the shit that goes down in yakuza is real, and these nerds keep tabs on it and have meetings where the actual characters show up) and like

i went to one meeting earlier in the dream and i saw majima and he was... majima to say the least. and i was like. thats... majima. wow. oh. oh no. you cant give me a real majima.

he never really paid me any mind because there was apparently something really pissing him off and im like.... damn i wanna ask him whats wrong a delve into his soul and have a heartfelt conversation but like... im just a nerd who watches him i guess. not my place he looks a little too pissy for me to understand.

next meeting was to celebrate some kind of huge defeat of the tojo clan and everyone was there it was like a half funeral for someone important half anime convention and that was the worst because it was literally a shit on the tojo clan the entire time because they killed one of their guys snd everyone was celebrating it and majima was up on the (stage?) with all the other people and stuff just lookong distraught. like we may has well just throw tomatoes at him. i remember walking past him and trying to let him know i aint here to gawk at his misery or something. and then im in tje crowd and im like "this is bad. i shouldnt be here. majima is dissapointed in me" and im looking around like

this is my life now

and i go OH

you know what you should do? smile at him.

and so i smile at him very warmly and he looks me DEAD IN THE EYE and looks VERY FUCKING ANGRY and im like

OKAY DONT DO THAT DONT DO THAT AGAIN STOP FLIRTING WITH MAJIMA

also

majima was wearing a grey shirt and cummerbund with leather pants and my dad was picking me up from the meeting in the same exact outfit

and i was really fucking embarrassed to be there so i was in the bathroom and i just hear people outside making conversation with my dad like "oh, majima-san wore the same outfit"

and for some reason that just tipped me over the fucking edge

the entire second half of this dream after i fucked up smiling at majima was just an endless stream of

we need to go. ive failed. abort immediatly. abandon ship. get me out of here. anxiety

and thats all that happened besides me yelling at a girl and her mom to get out of the bathroom so i could use it and theyre like

are u on yoyr period im sorry

nd im like

yeah!!! im so sorry (but really i just wanted to hide)

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long time no see dream journal this needs be documented

my dream last night involved me being part of a party with all the p4 characters who solved the plot and nolan would pop up periodically and i hugged him and because im VERY FAMILIAR with what his hugs feel like it felt very real

and i was crying im likw

nolan i wanna go give kanji a hug all your hugs feel like kanji hugs

and hes like

youve never hugged kanji before what are you saying

so i walk over to kanji and i ask to give him a hug because it wouldnt be weird, we just solved a major case and i want to thank him for all the ziodyne, and as soon as i hug him I CRY because his HUGS really DID feel like nolans (aka my brain is projecting the most familiar and memorable hug i know onto kanji because of his similar build to nolan)

for aome reason halfway through the party kanji shaves his head

nolan asks me why i have these types of dreams specifically with angry troy baker characters

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drewmt that i took nolan to ftc w me for some reason

and i was on his shoulders and i see yoshiki guy and im like THATS THE KID IN MY SCHOOL THAT LOOKS LIKE YOSHIKI

and i go SCUSE ME WHATS YOUR NAME and he looks really shy and i tell him "my mom really likea this jrock star that looks like u can i take a pic of you"

and hes about to let me but then he runs to a classroom and starts crying

turns out it was a butch lesbian in a wig the whole time and she was v insecure about photos. we sat and i gave her an encouraging pep talk on why she is beautiful

lost nolan

my dad showed up, injured

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har a dream that ichigo and momoko frpm kamikaze girls were trying to kill this dude with another girl biker gang

in the desert

and he killed ichigo so momoko got really fuckin pissed and sliced off half his head with a sword

so he was like "momoko... what about what we had together"

"why are you still talking youre dead i sliced your head in half"

"but momoko what about what we had together. im going into the ground to see ichigo now"

"what do you mean see ichigo"

"we're both corpses, we gotta make do yknow (fuck)"

"no, you cant fuck ichigo. shes my best friend"

"goodbye"

and he sinks into the ground into a sand tomb

and momoko ran to where it was and down the underground sand stairs to his chamber to see him, but the door was locked. "oh well" she said "thats what i get for trying to fuck a corpse"

she runs up the stairs and opens the doorway in like "im surprised im not locked in here, this is a dream. i tried to fuck a corpse"

then i woke up

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big dream night

had a dream i put on tana mongeaus skin and my lips got chapped bc they were so big

what if we could reasonably buy replicas

like recasts of people and wesr them and impersonate them effectively

rest of the dream was me in an extremely strange movie

me and dan from high school

the same dan that hates me

fuckin go to a friends house whos jewish and a nazi is at their door and we accidentally fucking get kidnapped by a nazi and what i THINK happened was escaped on a small plane none of us knew how to fly and all of a sudden magic of pegasus barbie was there like

ill fly this dont worry

and she does and we fucking fly all the way to arizona and im like

barbie dont u have an evil warlock after you

nd shes like

dont worry about it he doesnt know how to get to arizona, esp the fucking desert

so we go inti the boondocks of arizona and theres a huge wooden box with drawers and a few houses

in this box theres high end makeup that didnt make the cut so u can just take it

like the sephora atari graveyard

my leg accidentally got cut from something terrible or something idk and barbie tended to my wounds like a fuckin champ and i was screaming in pain but she was always calm. we fly away.

her father is back at thw kingdom like hMm i sense my daughter has defeated wenlock

for some reason we ALL ASSUMED HE WAS DEAD, i think he actually was but i dont remember

and he zaps the chandelier with his king magic to change the statue on it and the statue changes to wenlock and hes like oh?

the whole fuckin building shakes and wenlocks booming voice echoes through the castle as his real arm breaks through his fucking statue

"you dare think you can kill me?"

kind of stuff

the king goes running out of his castle when it starts falling. his entire nation of stsrving desolate people is falling. his wife is probably dead

yknow i think then i woke up and just wanted to do barbie things

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this one is important

so im watching tuis video of yoshiki and ruki in my deam and for some reason yoshiki is shaking his head like

fuckin hell ruki

tgeyre in a living room or smth

and ruki is like

hey guys

yknow how i go to clubs to fuck girls

ok so a while back this girl is like, im feeling a little frisky tonight, how about it

and im like nah, im good

fast forward, we're in a beautiful relationship, she has a daughter, her daughter is absolitely beautiful (he lingered on how beautiful th e daughter was for a bit too long) "

as im watching this im looking in an ikea closet and hes desceibing the structure of a house th ey live in and its the same as the ikea closet

and hes like

i just have a problem

i think i might like this one other girl but idk

but it might be for the best bc im kind of sick of having nowhere to fuck but the basement floor

can u guys help"

he then complains while yoshiki shakes his fuckin head

and starts talking about the house again

so my brain is like

hey if rukis house is exactly the same as this ikea closet

that means he might be fucking in my basement with that girl RIGHT NOw

i go down to the basement (which i dont have anymore)

and i am greeted by maxmoefoe in a lace front braided instagram ass wig and a pink dress and im SURE this is rukis girlfriend

i ask him

"how fast can you go?"

for no reason

he roundhouse kicks me in the fucking face and i wake up

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had a dream i was at this japanese museum and this girl was on a giant horse when we came out and she was posting but the horse wasn't moving it was kinda... trotting in place and she was wearing a chiffon onesie with hearts on it and she waved at me like "hello my prince!!" and from my car window i said "je t'aime, my princess!"

and we were driving over this bridge that was RIDICULOUSLY hilly and bumpy and in the pamphlet of the museum was a picture of fuckin motonari like whY OF ALL THE BASARA CHARACTERS YOU PUT IN MY DREAM YOU PICK THE ONE I CARE THE LEAST ABOUT

another part of the dream was in five towns at an open mic thing

and there was legit screens overhead in the upbeat playing ouran high school host club

for some... reason....

there was some kpop??

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The last thing you ate + the first thing you see when you look to your left is the title of your pretentious lifestyle blog.

Right now, mine would be called Pizza and Prints.

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had a dream that i watched an animw that was a narrative of sexual assault and it was in a school where boys and girls were seperated and was basically just an excuse to sexualize women

whale island was in it?? they all played never have i ever but instead of stripping thwy would take off an article ofbclothing and put on a cosplay thing