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I wil never understand social situations!! I will never be good!! I will always make people hate me and fundamentally misunderstand ameverything. I wish it were just he and I against the world again and no one can fucking sympathise because he’s beijg so evil to me. I ‘miss his smile and his cute face and everything about him and my life feels so fucking depressed and aimless. I miss him and no one understands because he’s so evil ajd meaj to me. I need to just be normal and hate him and I’m driving everyone away because of how much I miss hom

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I am fucking awful!! I am evil and terrible

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awman :/ saw:/

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yaooi?(?!?

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I have becone chastity from jacking off in the bathroom because I am bored and am too happy to cut myself rn what am I supposed to do because I am bored besides work on my essay that I cant focus on

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I wish I could be a dr without all the school and stuff my ideal career is dissect something and then paint the insides and then have money appear in my bank account

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I need to dissect something

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curious if I have bipolar 2 or just am depressed and every time the clouds part for a second it is so exciting that I feel on top of the world and like I can and should do anything

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I hate groupchats I hate being left out of things I hate that all my friends from highschool like my evil ex boyfriend more and I hate that he hates me so mcuh

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I went from a happy monogamous man in a normal loving relationship to a freak who fucking cuts himself and is depressed in bed all day jesus christ!!! I should have made it work!! it wouldnt have but I shpuld have stuck it out with him and been happy just a little longer even if we were miserable

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me when I fucked up my whole life for like minimal reason

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every friend I have who I will see over the summer likes my ex more than me

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me when I have friends that are nice and like me and do really cool things i get to see and I have energy to do papers and I smile on my own. It’s like the sun is coming out it’s like spring. I should read a book or something

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vanitas vanitas a knife in the bedroom

a slut in the bathroom an arbiter of life

growing roses by candlelight forcing them up

cracking stems coated in thin luster cuts

get ready classes get ready for art

hurting, a start for the self-referential masses

of water lilies naturally spinning like tops

they pity and win until everything stops

I’ll kill you, I’ll haunt you, I’ll watch you in a mirror

get ready get clearer, so hideous to flaunt

a searing pain, a passing of time

I miss him, I’d kiss him, I’m no more than a line

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I HATE HAVING OCD MY HANDS ARE SO DIRTY AND EVERYTHING IS WRONG AND I AM UPSET AND I WILL BE UPSET AT WVERYONE WHILE J LOVE WHO IS NEAR ME UNtil I FINISH MY PAPER AND PUT SHARP OBJECTS IN MY SKIN AND EST SOMEHTING AND DIE

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MY HANDS ARE TOO FUCKING DIRTY TO CUT MYSEFL I AM GOING TO FCUKIGNG KILL MYSELF

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i’ll be better again in a few days and all this will feel like an idiots dream where swans all have arrows through their necks and fear shifts men from nervous wrecks to perverts and unthinking kings. Who’ll bear that crown but some ass who’s ostrich head is stuck in the ground. I want to skip class, I want to skip my friends birthday, I want to lay lazy and lie about my teeth through the same gritted things I usually keep behind bars. I want him like the moon wants the stars. I want to help myself like telephone poles and deer want cars