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When Aftercare Fails

Mister and I had a really intense session this week. It involved restraint and some other elements we have been working our way up to. I was edged and then made to come over and over again until I was incoherent and unable to function.

The psychological aspect was the most powerful. Mister was able to do more with his words than I ever thought was possible. He used his words and he reached down inside of me. He cracked me open and set me free. When he was done, I was left raw and venerable.

Mister is always good about aftercare. Our usual routine involves skin to skin cuddling, something sweet and warm to drink (unless we’re in a tropical climate, then it will be cool and sweet), something to eat, and soothing words paired with caressing. He likes to keep me still, as I tend to be highly sensitive after a session.

This time, I fell asleep during aftercare. We both had to work the next day, and our session happened after we’d both had pretty intense work days.

When I woke up the next morning, I felt groggy. I didn’t really think much of it, because I’m not a morning person, and we’d had an intense night. I just figured it was just regular morning tiredness after a long, intense night.

About an two hours after Mister dropped me off at work he figured out that something was wrong aside from regular morning grogginess. He figured it out before I did. I wasn’t thinking clearly enough to actually realize that something was wrong.

Mister had been texting me, and I wasn’t responding in the way I normally would have. I was either sending him one word responses or sentences that didn’t sound like something I would normally write.

So, he called. And he knew immediately that I was in trouble. I wasn’t able to answer him as well as normally. My voice was really soft. I was speaking too slowly. I was mumbling and slightly slurring my words. I was having problems gathering my thoughts and tracking our conversation. He called me again, and I was just getting worse. He asked me how I was doing, and I told him that I was having some weird vision problems.

My vision had gone a little blurry and my eyes couldn’t seem to track when I was reading. Mister asked me what was going on and I told him that everything was “fuzzy”. He told me he’d be by to get me in the next hour. He told me to just sit quietly until he arrived.

He had me tell my coworkers I had a migraine. I’m so glad he gave me those instructions, because I don’t know what I would have said if he hadn’t. A lovely coworker came into my office and closed the shades so the room was dim, which made it easier for me to tolerate.

Mister called me again to ask how I was doing. I told him my hands had started shaking and I didn’t know if I could stand. I told him I was scared. He told me he would be there in the next 20 minutes.

He arrived in less than 15. When he came into my office, I was sitting with my eyes closed and my hands clasped in my lap. He took my face in his hands and asked me to look at him. Whatever he saw on my face worried him. I could tell even if I wasn’t able to fully comprehend what was going on.

I was correct in thinking I wouldn’t be able to walk. Mister had to support me with an arm around my waist. It just felt like putting one foot in front of the other was almost impossible. I stumbled a few times and as soon as we got to the parking garage (and out of sight of my coworkers) he picked me up and carried me the rest of the way to the car.

Once we were in the car, Mister turned me to face him. He told me I had two choices. I could close my eyes or I could look at him. I was not to look out of the windows or windshield. I’m glad he gave me these instructions, as I would have definitely gotten sick or fainted from looking at that much activity.

He unbuttoned his shirt and took my hand, sliding it into his shirt so I could feel his skin and the soothing motion of his ribcage as he breathed. Skin on skin contact is such a very important element of our aftercare. He started the car, turned up the heat, then we headed home.

Our drive home was quiet. I looked at him, and when things became too intense, I would close my eyes and concentrate on the feeling of his warm skin beneath my fingers.

We arrived home pretty quickly. He helped me out of the car and into our building. Once we reached our floor, he carried me the rest of the way. As soon as we entered our place, he stripped me down to my panties and put me to bed. He covered me with several blankets, then he went to gather some things before he stripped down to his underwear and joined me in bed.

When he came back, I was curled into a ball and shivering. Mister wrapped himself around me and stroked my back. I was able to uncurl, but I was still shivering and unable to speak. Mister helped me to roll onto my stomach, then he slowly, carefully laid on top of me. His weight and his heat pressing me into the bed calmed my shivering. He had his mouth at my ear, telling me that he loved me and I was safe. He told me that it was ok for me to come back. He was there to keep me safe. He had me and wouldn’t let me go.

The shivering slowly stopped. But as the shivers stopped, the tears began. Mister stayed on top of me while I cried. It wasn’t hysterical crying, or anything like that. It was slow, steady weeping.

I felt confused and lost. Overwhelmed. Some of those feelings had been buried. I hadn’t really allowed myself to feel them for a while. Our session the night before had brought them to the surface. I’d fallen asleep before I’d purged them. Our session had caused a second set of reactions that neither one of us anticipated.

My love allowed me to cry. He never shushed me. He eventually sat up and pulled me into his arms, wrapping me even more tightly in the blankets.

I slowly stopped crying. Mister held me quietly for a while. When I opened my eyes, I noticed he’d dimmed the lights and lit a few candles that I really like. He helped me drink some apple juice, then continued to hold me while I dozed a little.

When I woke up, he’d made me lunch. I wasn’t hungry, but he asked me to take a few bites and before I knew it, I’d finished the entire thing. After I ate, Mister turned on some movies for me. I just laid quietly and watched the movies. Occasinally, Mister would tilt my chin up so he could check my eyes.

The wonderful thing is, he didn’t make me speak. He would ask me questions and I’d nod or shake my head. I’d shrug if I didn’t know the answer.

I spent most of the day in bed. Mister did help me up a few times. I tried to venture downstairs to the kitchen, but I was too shaky, so he sent me back to bed.

He stayed with me. He brought food up for us and put a heating pad in the bed next to me so I could have some extra heat if I wanted it. He’d also bought me a coloring book and crayons. There was a moment where we had a movie on, and I was cuddled up next to him. He had his arms around me. He was watching the movie while I colored in my book.

I never would have thought to include coloring or art in our aftercare. Somehow, Mister knew that as much as I love art and being creative, a “mindless” activity such as coloring would be perfect to help me decompress.

I didn’t speak for most of the day. I didn’t need to. I didn’t want to. Mister didn’t make me. I just wanted to be small and safe in his arms. He allowed me to.

The next morning, he took me to have tea. Tea was lovely. We were the first ones there, so it was very quiet. We had a quiet conversation, tiny sandwiches, and scones. Mister prepared my tea for me, he added an extra cube of sugar before he added the cream.

After tea, he took me back home and put me back in bed. I spent most of the day in bed with Mister. When I did venture out, I was very clingy. Holding his hand and staying as close as possible. When he went to make us a snack, I held on to his shirt when he needed his hands.

The entire time, both days, he stopped several times and had me look at him. He can tell so much just by looking into my eyes.

Mister and I eventually talked about what happened. We realized that this was the first time we’d had an extra intense session while we were not on vacation. The other times, we’d been on vacation and I’d had a few days to recover.

He apologized for not anticipating that I might have a delayed drop. He assured me that in the future, we will not have an extra intense session without adequate recovery time for me. He was proud of how well I’d done, but it will be a while before he pushes me that hard. And he will always ensure I have enough recovery time.

So what happens when aftercare isn’t enough? More aftercare.

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Hingashi

To the east of Othard, across the Ruby Sea, lies the nation Hingashi. Though it is now known to be the birthplace of the ninjutsu and samurai traditions, little else can be said with confidence about this isolated land of its reclusive peoples.

Flag: The flag many associate with Hingashi that of a black circle with three waves curving inward is in fact not a national standard, but rather a banner of the Mitsurugi clan, which currently rules Hingashi.

Motto: Live with Conviction

Government: True power Hingashi rests in the hands of the bakufu, a military government. However, the official head of state is the emperor, who “entrust” matters of governance to the shogun and his officials. For generations, the royal household has seen fit to favor the Mitsurugi clan, whose sons have served as strong leaders. It should be noted that while the current figurehead is male, the right of succession is not restricted to men alone absolute primogeniture is the Hingan tradition.

Leader: Emperor Reigen

Ruling Body: The Mitsurugi clan leads the bakufu at present. Their influence over a given region can vary greatly, though, as they must retain the support of many wealthy families which have their own agendas.

Racial Distribution: Far Eastern Hyur (50%), Far Eastern Roegadyn (15%), Au Ra (10%), Other (25%).

Religion: The people of Hingashi generally profess a belief in the kami, a legion of divine spirits said to exist in all aspect of nature, from mountains and rivers, to the very crops Hingans grow and consume. These kami feature prominently in several creation myths, though the particulars of each tale differ from region to region. To declare such myths part of a formal religion may be misleading, though, as the Hingans do not engage in any standardized rituals, nor do they consistently favor any given kami over another—a being deeply venerated in one land may be virtually ignored in another. Their faith might be best described as a pragmatic amalgamation of those practices which appeal to the individual most. Suffice it to say, the average of Eorzean may struggle to comprehend this approach.

A Forgotten Past

Regrettably, there is little to no information concerning Hinganshi prior to the Fourth Astral Era. Extant Allagan records currently available for study make no mention of the islands either. Therefore, it must be assumed that while the Allagan Empire ruled the Three Great Continents at the height of its power, its dominion did not extend to what would later be known as Hingashi. This presumption is further supported by the fact that, in the limited archaeological surveys of the island undertaken with the permission of the bakufu, not a single Allagan ruin has been discovered. This is not to say there was no evidence of Allagan influence whatsoever, though, as small artifacts such as jewelry and tomestones were unearthed. The prevailing theory at this time is that the islands were either deserted or home to only a token population prior the to the Fourth Umbral Calamity, at which point refugees fleeing the collapse of the Empire came en masse. The Allagan trinkets found in Hingashi were brought by these new arrivals, who subsequently cast off the last vestiges of their fallen society and strove to create a new one free from the trappings of the past. Again, it should be stressed that this is a theory based on limited evidecence, and it should not be taken as incontrovertible fact.

The First Emperor

The oldest surviving primary sources discovered in Hingashi are wooden tablets which date back approximately three millenia. They were found on Koshu, the nation’s largest island, and appear to be a record of taxes owed to a wealthy landowner. From this we can conclude that Hingan society was sufficiently developed to support complex system of taxation. Only two hundred years later, a clan in the western plains of Koshu rose to prominence following the fall of its neighboring rivals. The clan’s head declared himself a great king and launched a campaign to bring all others to heel, and in the whole of western Koshu beneath one banner. As time passed, subsequent leaders were declared emperors,  and if records are to be believed, the current imperial household can trace its ancestry all the way to his first ancient king.

An Age of Blood and Strife

For nearly a millennium, an unbroken line of emperors held absolute power. However, fifteen hundred years ago, at the dawn of the Sixth Astral Era, a dispute over succession plunged Hingashi into civil war. Two ruled an emperor in the east and an empress in the west—and for the better part of three centuries their descendants fought against one another. The resulting chaos greatly reduced the power and prestige of royal bloodline.

In order to claim victory, the royals increasingly turned to the vassals sworn to serve them. To secure their martial support, they granted them new rights and promised new privileges. So focused were the royals on defeating their hated rivals that they did not consider the wider implications of their generosity until it was too late. When at last the dust settled, an emperor in the east reigned triumphant, but as a figure head, for he had surrendered nearly all his power to other clans. Emboldened, these clans then turned upon one another, and a new struggle for supremacy began.

The Rise of the Mitsurugi Clan

Over the course of six hundred years, Hingashi was ravaged by the fires of war. Clan seized every opportunity to strike at their enemies, and were in turn attacked by other equally ruthless foes. Those born into poverty could rise prominence through strength of arms, and indeed, there were farmers that became landed generals. Those who lacked such talents could resort to trickery and deception, and indeed, there were tales of foolish lords betrayed by their vassals. No one was safe, and naught was guaranteed.

So it was that Hingashi was awash with blood until the Mitsurugi clan, rulers of Onokuni, came to power. Though their leader, Kanzan, was not skilled in the arts of war, he was a peerless politician and strategist. While others resorted to violence to achieve their ends, he forged alliances through marriage and employed ninja to gain vital intelligence. In this way, he not only defended his clan’s holdings from outsiders, but outmaneuvered his rivals so that when at last the decisive battle came, the Mitsurugi clan alone stood above all others. Kanzan once more demonstrated his foresight when he restored the imperial household to power, declaring that the mandate he had to rule had been bequeathed to him by the Hingan emperor. In doing so, he appeared to honor ancient traditions and appealed to those who had yearned to return to the halcyon days, even if in sooth the Mitsurugi clan remained the true power behind the throne.

The Opening of Kugane Though the Mitsurugi Bakufu faced resistance from several clans, it was a far cry from the chaos which had once consumed the island nation. Peace had come to Hingashi, and while the clans were not wont to relinquish their independence—and indeed took many measures to preserve it—they could not deny that there was some benefit in cooperating with the new government. No longer preoccupied with internal strife, the people were, at long last, free to look beyond their borders and see what wonders the world held—and many were quite eager to do so. In recent years, however, the bakufu has grown wary of foreign interests. The rise of the Garlean Empire and its aggressive expansion with the aid of magitek has not gone unnoticed, nor has the struggle of the Domans across the Ruby Sea not been a source of some concern. The fall of Dalmasca served to underscore this, and spurred Hingashi to, like Radz-at-Han before it, formally declare themselves neutral with regards to Garlemald’s actions. As such, they will not intervene in the affairs of Yanxia nor Nagxia. For the time being, the bakufu maintains its strict isolationist policies and devotes the majority of its attention to internal affairs, whilst permitting only a small measure of foreign trade to take place via the port of Kugane on Shishu. The port is also home to several embassies, including most notably that of the Garlean Empire. Indeed, Kugane could be said to exemplify the nation’s precarious position: all are welcome, but none are friends.

Organizations

The Imperial Court

Presided over by Emperor Reigen, the imperial court was once the center of Hingan political power, but over time has lost virtually all influence. By all accounts, it continues to exist only as a concession to historical tradition. In accordance with said tradition, the bakufu is “permitted” to rule by the grace of the emperor, but there ends the court’s official involvement in matters of governance.

The Bakufu

Hingashi’s true heart of governance, the bakufu was first established by Kanzan of the Mitsurugi clan following a prolonged period of internal strife. Successive leaders have all come from this powerful family, which rules from the capital of Bukyo, between Onokuni, their ancestral home on the island of Koshu. The bakufu has consolidated its political and military might at Bukyo Castle, where many samurai are called to serve as bureaucrats for a time. Their power is far from absolute, though, as many regions and clan retain a measure of autonomy, resulting in a system that may be best described as federalism.

Kugane Bugyo

The hand of the bakufu in Kugane, the bugyo is the most senior official in the local government. As Kugane is the sole open port within the whole of Hingashi, the expectations and burdens headed upon this magistrate far exceed those his peers in other domains must endure. Should a foreigner commit a crime, for example, it would fall to the bugyo to administer appropriate punishment. However, in such matters he must consider the wider circumstances, as reckless action could lead to an international incident. Therefore, the position of bugyo of Kugane is not awarded lightly, and familial connections alone will not suffice. One must possess a keen mind and a talent for navigating politics domestic and foreign to even be considered eligible.

Sekiseigumi

Per an agreement with the bakufu, the financial burdens of these protectors of Kugane must be shouldered by the Buhen, which is why roughly half of those who serve have ties to the clan and its vassals. The other half in comprised of them and women who come to the city from all across Hingashi out of an earnest desire to uphold the law. By and large, those who joined out of familial obligations seek only to fulfil their responsibilities without incident. They may be competent and diligent, but unlikely to go above and beyond the call of duty. The other sort take to their duties with greater passion, be they training or peacekeeping, and while there are those who praise their dedication, the more zealous Sekiseigumi have a reputation for being quick to draw steel. Needless to say, it is constant struggle for a captain to balance the concerns of both factions. 

Lore Book Volume 2. More info coming!.

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Doma Part II

Intercession of the Shinobi

For seven centuries, the Rijin clan remained firmly in control of Doma, though their largely uneventful rule was punctuated by occasional periods of unrest. One notable example was the reign of King Seien some three hundred years ago, who even from childhood seemed destined to wreak havoc. He was a brash, impulsive ruler, with no consideration for the cost. As Doma’s coffers ran dry, he turned to merchant clans for financial assistance, and when the time for repayment drew closer, he taxed his subjects to raise capital.Seie, was in every aspect, unfit to lead.

In these troubled times, the kingdom found salvation in an unexpected ally. Sasuke, a shinobi of the Kagekakushi clan who had come to Doma to carry out a secret mission, was moved by the plight of the people. After fulfilling his duties, he sought out Seien’s younger brother, Shoen— a far more sensible man whose attempts to restrain the king’s appetites had only drawn his ire and freed him from captivity. Together, the two led a rebel army and overthrew Seien, and in doing so brought an end to a dark chapter of Doman history.

The Garlean Occupation

The newly crowned Shoen implored to his friend Sasuke to remain in Doma, but not as a mere retainer. Rather, the king feared what might become of the realm should another like his brother claim the throne, and saw the shinobi as a check against tyranny–defenders loyal to Doma, not her leader. Sasuke shared Shoen’s concern and readily agreed to his proposal, and shortly thereafter founded the hidden village of Shinobi-no-Sato deep in the mountains of Yanxia. Thre he trained others in the arts of ninjutsu, and for nearly three hundred years the Kingdom of Doma enjoyed peace and tranquility.

Alas, such things are not wont to last. During the reign of the forty-third king of Doma, Kaien Rijin, the Garlean Empire invaded Yanxia from the west. After establishing a beachhead on the One River, imperial forces were reinforced by massive airships used to secure  floating isles as part of a multi-pronged attack. With the support of the hastily constructed Castrum Fluminis, the Empire was poised to bring the Kingdom of Doma to its knees. At first, Lord Kaien and his vassals were determined to drive the Garleans from their lands, but as the invaders brought their airships and armor to bear and losses mounted, it quickly became clear the the defenders were outmatched. Doma surrendered, and for the next twenty-five years was subject to imperial rule, until a group of rebels finally rose up and cast down their oppressors to reclaim their freedom.

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Doma Part I

For two and half decades, this once-grand kingdom on the shores of the One River was subject to Garlean rule. However, with the expulsion of imperial forces, Doma is free once more to control its destiny.

Flag: The Doman character for the nation’s name adorns the center, and the crimson border surrounding it represents the royal family’s ancestral role as gatekeepers of the One River. The field upon which rests is green like the color of the rice plants which grow in Doma’s many fields.

Motto: By the Righteous Blade We Are Delivered

Government: since Doma’s founding, the Rijin clan’s sons have ruled as kings with the support of an educated samurai caste. During the twenty-five-year Garlean occupation, an imperial viceroy held absolute authority, but the recent liberation has seen return of the old government, with the leader of the rebellion and head of the Rijin clan restored to the throne.

Leader: Hien Rijin

Ruling Body: Though the king of Doma has the power to intercede in all matters of governance, he delegates much of the minutiae to a cadre of samurai advisors.

Racial Distribution: Far Eastern Hyur (60%), Far Eastern Roegadyn (20%), Au Ra Raen (10%), Other (10%).

Religion: On the whole, Domans tend to practice their faith in private, and do not proselytize nor judge those who do not share in their beliefs. As is the case in many regions of the Far East, they worship a host of spirits referred to as the kami. Though some of these divines beings can be likened to personifications of nature, enlightened sages and long-lived animals of legend may also be defined as kami. Further complicating any attempt to categorize these entities is the variety said to inhabit ancient relics.

Industries

Agriculture: The banks of the One River have long been considered to be some of the most fertile farmland in eastern Othard, particulary the region surround the river’s mouth in Yanxia, Rice is the crop of choice, though persimmons and plums are also quite profitable.

Fishing: Domans have lived off the One River and the Glittering Basin since antiquity. As the kingdom expanded outward, so too did her people, who built villages on the coast of the Ruby Sea and from where ventured farther and farther west. While sources of food are abundant, some of the adventurous fishermen have made a living hunting sea tortoises for their shells, which are highly valued by all manner of artisans for use in their crafts.

Papermaking: The fibers of the Yanxian mulberry and the waters of the One River are key ingredients in the production of Doman Paper, which is prized the world over for both its durability and its beauty. Not only is it considered ideal for scrolls and documents that must be preserved, but it is also a medium in which artisans may craft fans, lanterns, and more elaborate displays. Though the industry languished during the imperial occupation, masters of the craft managed to preserve the knowledge of their techniques, and in the wake of Doma’s liberation they set about rebuilding the mills and resuming production.

Beliefs: Loyalty is perhaps the most virtuous quality to the people of Yanxia, be it to Doma, her king, or his vassals. The samurai would trust in the Rijin, and the people would in turn trust in the samurai. Many Domans would attest that one need only look to the carnage born of betrayal in the past to see this wisdom in this.

Diet: As one would expect given the amount of farmland devoted to it, rice is part of virtually every Doman meal. Aside from that common element, however, the cuisine of the central and coastal regions can differ to a surprising degree. Pork, and other meats are favored in the heartland of Doma, where seafood is far more common along the coast. The seasoning used in preparation are somewhat dissimilar as well, with the coastal villages preferring the more subtle flavors of Hingashi while stronger spices imported from Radz-at-Han are regular incorporated into Yanxian fare.

The Feats of Ganen

For all intents and purposes, the history of Doma begins with one man: Ganen Rijin. Eight hundred years ago, following his father’s death in battle when he was still but a boy if fourteen summers, Ganen became leader of his clan. Even at that tender age, he immediately understood that the Rijin, a clan little renown and meager holdings, would be judged easy prey too tempting to ignore, and would soon be attacked by one larger and more aggressive clans that were locked in a constant struggle for supremacy. Sure enough, it was not long before his scouts brought word of enemy troops massing near their borders. While formulating his defensive strategy, Ganen first considered how a small contingent of soldiers might defend a fortified position against a larger force, which then led him to devise a most cunning plan. Then the invading clan’s cavalry  first sighted the Rijin soldiers, they were surprised to find them woefully underequipped-on foot and bereft of chain and plate. They fled, and the eager invaders gave chase, only to become caught in wetlands and weighed down by their armor. At Ganen’s command, the trap was sprung and hidden host archers rained arrows down upon the helpless army. Thus began the legend of the boy general who would later found a kingdom.

The Birth of a Kingdom

Many accomplished warlords have left their mark on Yanxia over the centuries, but Ganen had two qualities others lacked. For one, as a child he had learned the art of geomancy from a wise hermit. He could read the elemental energies as well as any practitioner, and use this knowledge to his advantage when deciding on the time and place to engage his enemies.

Ganen’s other strength was his disregard for birth and background. Whether farmers, fisherman, or even former bandit, he would accept any recruit into his service so long as he believed them possessed of ability and wisdom. Races such as the Lupin who would be considered lessers by many Eorzeans were man’s equals in his eyes, and he welcomed them into his service with open arms. Ganen showed mercy to his defeated enemies and in so doing earned their respect and loyalty, further bolstering his armie’s ranks. With every victory the Rijin grew stronger, and in the span of twenty years they controlled the whole of the One River’s eastern bank.

On the western bank, however, other clans observed the Rijin’s expansion with growing fear. Led by Koboku, they assembled a massive army, and it soon became lear that confrontation was unavoidable. For eight years the war ‘twixt east and west raged with hardly a day of rest, until General Ganen at last led his armies to victory with the aid of the Namazu messengers and spies, who provide invaluable military intelligence. Having united all of Yanxia beneath his banner, he then decreed that the kingdom of Doma was born.

Lore book Volume 2.

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Far Eastern Script

While the Eorzean alphabet was gradually developing into that commonly used today, far to the east, the letters of Nagxia, Yanxia, and beyond were experiencing a much different evolution. This supplementary column will attempt to serve as an introduction to the peculiar script of the Far East.

Origins

The Origins of Far Eastern script can be traced back almost two thousands years ago to a system of writing developed in ancient Yanxia. Unlike Eorzean, which employs letters (graphemes) to construct the literal representation of a word’s pronunciation, Yanxian was made up of logograms– thousands upon thousands of unique characters representing individual words or parts of words (morphemes). A principal drawback of this system, however, was that literacy was dependent on the memorization of these countless characters, a task that proved impossible for all but the educated elite.

From Yanxian script slowly evolved a series of syllabic letters that removed the meaning from simplified renderings of older characters, while retaining their pronunciations. These new “Kana” could be arranged much like the graphemes of Eorzean to form sounds and words, effectively reducing the number of characters to be put to memory from over ten thousands to approximately one hundred, and opening the door for the majority of Othardians to learn their letters.

PD: This is from the Lore book volume 2 and transcribed from there!. I will be posting about Doma and Hingashi today all the words come from the lore book remember this is not a resume of mine!.

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Shinto 101

Hello! As someone who grew up with Shinto (along with Buddhism and Catholicism) and also currently a miko at my local shrine (of the Konkokyo branch) I figured I would like to give a basic intro to Shinto most online sources (Even books) are misinformed about or lack, or misunderstood in a Western setting. Any other Shintoists/Konkos/etc. that would like to contribute to this guide, please feel free and reblog to your heart’s content! :)

—— What is Shinto? Am I allowed to join? Are non-Japanese people who worship native Japanese gods (*kami) still considered Shinto?  Shinto is not really a religion, but a system of Japanese pagan worship of the local nature/worldly deities. Basically just a system to honour the spirits of Japan and the world. People built shrines for these spirits/gods (called kami) and left offerings for blessings. Eventually, shamans began to communicate with the kami and learned more about them, and are recognized as the current kami of today.  Presently, Shinto is majority traditional than spiritual in Japan. Many people only go to shrines out of tradition (Festivals/Matsuri, New Years, Weddings, etc) , an excursion, or a “good luck wish” place (Asking to pass an exam, asking for a baby, etc). Many people, even the priests or mikos at some shrines, aren’t even sure the god of that shrine really exists. But that’s not the point. The point is just to continue on tradition and go by feeling and energies of that place. Indeed, shrines are also good for the soul to visit. 

However many spiritual people inside and outside of Japan still exist. These are shamans and people who can hear and feel the gods and act as their caretakers  and devotees.  YOU ARE ALLOWED TO BE SHINTO! ANYONE IS! :) Even if you don’t have a drop of Japanese blood in you or you’ve never even been to Japan!!!! 

(Rev. Koichi Barrish, of Tsubaki America Jinja and  visitors) I cannot stress this enough!!!!! Many materials on Shinto are ruined by the Western understanding of Shinto from World War II era, namely Kokka Shinto. This Shinto was Japanese propaganda to exclude foreigners. PLEASE understand, this is not true Shinto Shinto is simply the worship/reverement and appreciation of nature and/or the kami of Japan and giving them an altar/shrine and (optional) offerings. Even if you just feel close to a kami and adore them, or just feel the vibrations of nature and adore nature, you are already (or can be considered) a Shintoist! It’s as simple as that :) Many people are Shinto without realizing it. 

Are only men allowed to be priests? What are miko?  Men and women are allowed to be priests/priestess. They can also get married and have children! Their role is to command the rituals and maintenance of the shrine. It gets a little more complicated though.

Every shrine has a head priest. Their role is to set service dates, give special services, process requests and paperwork, prepare offerings, and overall caretake for the kami and shrine. Then, there’s associate priests who assist with these duties, and also with administrative work, such as treasurer or secretary. Sometimes in smaller shrines, these are left to a certain group of trusted laypeople to work as volunteers.  After that, there’s the miko (me!). In olden days, these were women who ranked higher than the priest and could channel the gods and either be possessed (kamigakari) by, or be the mediator between god and man and deliver oracles.

I do those things now; but many miko do not. The role of a miko in modern times is simply to help clean up the inside/outside of the shrine, help serve naorai lunch and tea (lunch made from offerings), perform Kagura/Kibimai/Miko Mai sacred shrine dance offering (what I do), or sometimes even play the instruments in dance like koto or flute. (what my friends do). They also watch over omamori and ofuda that are for sale, or assist with events. 

Also, as a side note, one thing Western writers write that bothers me: Virginial miko. Mikos are NOT required to be virgins, and never have. Ame-no-Uzume is the patron deity of all miko, as her dance is the origin of Kagura among other things. Ame-no-Uzume is also the goddess of revelry and sensuality, including sex. Sex is seen as a divine act and also enables one’s spiritual senses to heighten. A miko that has to be a virgin doesn’t make sense. In the end, it doesn’t matter! Mikos were virgins, some weren’t. In fact some are even married with children. (There’s no age limit either) What matters is their heart is devoted to the kami of their shrine, and has sincere intentions to caretake for that kami.  How many kami are there? What exactly is a kami? Why are there shrines to kami?  There is an infinite number of kami, for every little thing in the world, even man-made things. Even including yourself and your body, you are a part of kami.  Some kami are more powerful in nature (have more energy) than other kami, simply because they are more ancient, a spirit of a powerful physical thing (like Amaterasu and the sun) or they receive a lot of devotion and prayer (and thus, strength and support).

A kami is not necessarily a god/deity, though commonly kami = god/deity. However, kami also can mean the spirit of a thing, or the energy surrounding a place, like the kami of a tree, is a spirit of a tree, and the kami of the sun, is the goddess of the sun Amaterasu. Kami is a complex word, but in essence the best way to understand it is the context in which it’s referred to.  “The kami of the tree seems happy” - the spirit of the tree is happy “The kami of the sun is shining brightly” - the goddess of the sun is shining brightly “Kami are everywhere” - the gods/spirits are everywhere

Now, there’s titles to add onto the word “kami” - O-Kami, means “Great God” usually reserved for only powerful gods like Amaterasu-Omikami (greatest goddess) or Sarutahiko-no-Okami (Great god Sarutahiko). There’s also Kami-sama, which can either refer to a general deity, or, in my case, to Tenchi Kane no Kami, the deity that is the spirit of the universe itself. Thus, this Kami encompasses all the other kami as part of it. So it’s Kami-sama! We have shrines for kami not because they really “enshrine” in the sense the kami is cooped up in their shrine and cannot leave lol. But they act as “power spots”. In the sense the kami’s essence is felt very powerful at shrines. And/or, the kami’s spirit can travel or be split to reside in the area of these shrines. Essentially, shrines are like wi-fi hotspots, the place where you’ll feel the most connection to the kami enshrined there. Home shrines/altars work the same way. The kami’s presence will be there. Usually this is done through the power of ofuda (tablets which contain the kami’s essence or have the kami’s name which draws them towards it)

(torii - that big red gate, acts as a symbol to a more spiritual area) Do ofuda/omamori or other shrine paraphernalia really “expire”? This is a bit controversial, so bear with me, and it’s a little secret information from a miko. They do not lose their power with time. However, they are good to keep buying to support the shrine.  The reason however shrines say to burn and renew them each year is not for only donations. Over time, the power does not lessen, but grows more powerful. If the owner is a layperson than does not know how to purify or bless, this ofuda/omamori can absorb other energies, and often can become a Tsukumogami (a youkai/spirit of an object) and loses the essence of the kami you want to worship. Therefore, you should only keep using an old ofuda/omamori if you yearly purify/bless it with the essence of it’s original kami. (I will explain in another post) If not, please just buy new ones! ;w;

How do I begin practicing Shinto or worshipping a kami? What do I need to do? Any special ritual? Do I need to go to a shrine? Alll you need to do is feel connected to a kami, and you practice Shinto. There is no special ritual like Baptism or Buddhist vows,  (well, there’s a variation, but its absolutely not a requirement). And you do not even need to a visit a shrine in your life to be Shinto. All you need to do really is go outside and appreciate the beauty of nature. Not even that, just appreciate all you have in your home and all of your blessings. Focus on the good and positive, realize the nature of the universe, and that is practicing Shinto.  If you want to get more into it, please build or set up an altar (there are home shrines called Kamidana you can buy, but they are not necessary) And use an ofuda to attract the essence of the kami. Or even just a paper with their name, or their image. At the altar, you can leave offerings or not, but common offerings are rice, salt, water, and sake. You can leave whatever you like though, as long as you offer it with sincerity (I will go more into it on a future post)

Shrines are scarce outside of Japan, but there are a surprising number. The famous one in America is Tsubaki Jinja in Washington. Let me list a few

Tsubaki Jinja, in Granite Falls, Washington

Ki-no-Mori Jinja, in Salt Spring Island, British Columbia, Canada

Shrine to Amaterasu-Omikami on Shambhala mountain center in remote Northen Colorado

Small Inari shrine in Brooklyn Botanic Garden, New York (the National Shinto association is in New York as well)

There are also a handful of shrines in Hawaii! Taken from wiki ”

Daijingu Temple of Hawaii

Hawaii Ishizuchi Jinja

Hawaii Kotohira Jinsha - Hawaii Dazaifu Tenmangu 

Hilo Daijingu

Izumo Taishakyo Mission of Hawaii

Māʻalaea Ebisu Jinsha

Maui Jinsha Mission”

There are also many Konko shrines/churches (the branch I belong) all across North America, you will find a complete list here (Spans from East to West coast, across US, Canada, Hawaii, Brazil, and Korea) www.konkofaith.org* *Note of respect: While Konkokyo has origins in and worship style of Shinto, which may be good for you in terms of spirit and comfort, it is also it’s own religion. If you visit a Konko building, please be respectful and do not assert it’s a Shinto shrine! Please have an open heart and mind :)  If you live in Europe, there’s a hokora (shrine foundation/worship hall) in the Netherlands, in Amsterdam. Konkokyo also has yearly London gatherings/services.

Hopefully this guide could help you be acquainted with Shintoism outside of Japan! If you have more questions, please feel free to ask me! There are also many great Shintoists already here on tumblr you can ask :) 

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Daffodil - Do you like trying new things? What is something new you’d like to try?

“Those who know me well, know that I am more often within a saddle then not. My horse Kage and I, have pounded much of the Eastern lands beneath the thunder of hooves. Now I very much have my eyes set upon the lands of the West, and though the thrill of exploration is a favorite of mine. I would very much enjoy the chance to try our hand at cross continent endurance racing. Pitting my skills of survival and navigation, with Kage’s speed, stamina, and endurance. I’d try the Gold Saucer - but the last time I brought kage in they frowned upon it and said the races were ‘chocobo’ only.”

The giant shrugged, before coming to scratch a blunted claw into the mottled black and gold scales of his chin. “I very much enjoy trying new things, as it’s part of my philosophy as a Hedonist. To drink in every experience I can of the world, and the life I have to live - and enjoy it’s pleasures small and large. I’m…” his hand lowered to spread out his fingertips “Adventurous, in that regard. I’ll always try something at least once, unless it’s something that would bring harm to myself - or those around me.”

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Dandelion - Would you consider yourself stubborn?

“Stubborn?” the word left the Xaen’s lips with a heavy chuckle to back it before puffing out a mirthful plume of air from his nose. “I would like to consider myself reasonable, if not willing to bend with the wind when needs be. But, I also stand my ground when it’s needed - and if I truly believe my path is the right one for me, others may find me as unmovable as a mountain.”With a shift he came to bring his hands to fall upon his sides, while that long serpentine tail slithered behind his heels..“Others often call me stubborn, and find me so. My own moon and business partner among them - so perhaps I consider myself just a -small- bit stubborn..” he smirked as a hand lifted a pinched his taloned fingertips together - just slightly.

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Send me a shade of color for my OC(s) to answer

Red - What makes you angry?

Crimson - Have you ever been in war? If so, describe how it impacted you

Maroon - What are you most passionate about?

Imperial - Are you in any position of power or authority? 

Ruby - Would you consider yourself impulsive or reckless?

Chili - Do you like spicy foods?

Brick - What are some things you dislike?

Rose - Would you consider yourself a romantic person?

Redwood - How tall are you? 

Wine - What is your opinion on alcohol? (and does it exist in your world?) 

Orange - What are some of your comfort foods?

Spice - Do you like to cook? Do you cook often?

Tangerine - What is your favorite fruit?

Peach - Are you generally a more gentle and soft spoken person or a louder and rougher person? 

Squash - Do you live in an agricultural setting?  If so, are you a farmer or something of the sort? What kind of crops do you grow?

Amber - Do you wield any sort of superpower? If so, what is it?  

Honey - Have you ever considered marrying someone? What is your opinion on marriage in general? 

Sandstone - Who in your life has been the most healing for you?

Rust - Have you thought about becoming old? Can you become old? Are you scared of being old? What do you think about elders? 

Pumpkin - What is your favorite part of Autumn? (If that exists in your world)

Jumpsuit - Have you ever been arrested/ in trouble with authority?

Bronze - What is your favorite way to warm up when it’s cold 

Yellow - Are you an optimist or a pessimist? 

Dandelion - Would you consider yourself stubborn? 

Marigold - What types of flowers are in your setting? Do you have a favorite?

Blonde - What is your hair color? do you like it?

Lemon - Are you more of a clean or dirty person?

Safety - What is the most traumatic experience in your life?

Gold - Would you consider yourself more rich or poor, in comparison to the world you live in?

Butterscotch - Is there candy in the world you live in? If so, do you have a favorite one? 

Daffodil - Do you like trying new things? What is something new you’d like to try?

Sunshine - Are you a more active or lazy person? 

Green - Was there ever a time in your life that you went through a period of growth? describe it. 

Juniper - What is the nature like in your setting? 

Shamrock - Do you believe in luck? If so, are you a generally lucky person?

Pine- If camping exists in your wold, have you gone camping? did you like it? do you go often?

Green tea - Does Tea it exist in your world?  If so do you like it, and which kind is your favorite? 

Fern - Would you enjoy running a flower shop? 

Seafoam - Are there bodies of water in your setting? Describe them if you can

Mint - Does Ice cream exist in your world? If so, what is your favorite Ice cream flavor? 

Laurel - Is there a major victory you’ve achieved in your life? if so, what is it? 

Emerald - If you could be immortal, would you want to be? 

Brunswick - Are you a person who is often jealous? what makes you jealous most often? 

Avocado - Are you a health nut or a fan of junkfood? 

Army - Do you have a fighting style? If so, what is it?

Olive - What is your Greek personality type? (sanguine, phlegmatic, choleric, or melancholic)

Blue - Are you a creative person? How do you like to be creative? 

Peacock - Are you a more flashy person, or do you like to blend in?

Sky - What is your favorite time of the day?

Arctic - Do you prefer warm or cool weather? 

Cerulean- What is your favorite way to cool down in hot weather?

Baby (blue) - Would you consider having children? If so, how many?

Periwinkle -  Would you consider yourself to be a good parent? what do you think a good parent should be?

Denim - What is your fashion style?

Navy - have you ever been on a boat/sailing? does it exist in your world? did you enjoy it? 

Ultramarine - What is your favorite aquatic creature? (if they exist) 

Cobalt - Do you live in a world with freedom? Describe your opinion on the subject

Teal - What makes you feel most at peace? 

Turquoise - Are you good at communicating your feelings?   

Lapis - What is your opinion on religion and the afterlife? 

Aegean - Would you consider yourself a wise person? who do you look to for wisdom? 

Purple - Is there magic in your world? if so, describe how it works

Violet - What is your ideal date?

Lilac - How would someone win you over?

Lavender - what is a smell you really like? 

Royal - How do politics work in your world?

Eggplant - What’s the weirdest thing you’ve eaten?

Amethyst- What is your aesthetic?

Mauve - What makes you feel nostalgic? 

Magenta - What is your Zodiac sign? 

Pink - Are you currently in a relationship? if so, who is your partner? 

Watermelon - what are your favorite summer activities?  

Bubblegum - Are you a sassy or sarcastic person? 

Salmon - Do you have any health issues or physical disabilities? 

Blush - Do you have a crush on anyone? If so, who is it?

Cotten candy - Would you say you have a sweet tooth?

Carnation - Are you comfortable with PDA? 

Rouge- Do you have an unpopular opinion? 

Pastel - Do you prefer pastel, bright, neon, or dark colors?

Coral - Do you have a strong moral code? What are some moral things that you feel strongly about?

Fuchsia - Are you a generally playful or goofy person? Who or what makes you feel playful or goofy? 

White - Do you consider yourself a good person? What’s the best thing you’ve ever done for somebody?

Snow - Have you ever seen snow? Do you like it? What do you like to do in the snow? 

Frost - What do you like to wear in cold weather?

Bone - When was the first time you ever witnessed death? How did it impact you?

Cotton - What do you like to wear for pajamas? 

Cream - Do you prefer Tea, Coffee, or Cocoa? (If your world has those things. If not, what sort of hot drinks do you have?)

Coconut - What would be your ideal vacation? 

Pearl - What do you look for in a romantic partner?

Parchment - Do you like to read or write? 

Lace - What would you name your child if you were to have one?

Porcelain - Do you consider yourself a delicate person? Do you fall apart easily? 

Salt - Would you consider yourself a mean person? What is it like to fight with you? 

Ghost- Are you easily scared? What scares you the most? 

Ivory - Do you play any musical instruments? If so, which ones and how well? 

Chiffon - Do you prefer a larger and cleaner environment, or a smaller and cozier one?

Alabaster - What is the most recognizable thing about you? What are people most likely to notice about you when they first meet you?

Egg-nog - Do you celebrate Christmas? If so, what traditions do you have? Which are your favorite?

Ecru - Do you have curly, wavy, or straight hair? 

Beige - What kind of foods do you eat when you’re bored?

Tan - What is your skin color? Do you like it, or do you wish you looked different?

Buttermilk - Do you prefer pancakes or waffles? (if those exist in your world)

Oatmeal - What is your usual breakfast?

Linen - What clothes do you wear to work?

Sugar cookie - What reminds you of your childhood? 

Sand - Have you ever been to a beach? If so, what’s your favorite thing to do at the beach? 

Hazel - What kind of folklore/myths/stories are told in your family/community?

Sepia - Do you have any hobbies? If so, what are they?

Buff - Would you consider yourself to be fit, fat, or skinny?

Latte - Do you like milk in your hot drinks? 

Brown- Where do you call home? 

Mocha - How do you like your coffee? (If you like coffee) 

Cinnamon - Which of the “Cinnamon Roll” memes fits you best? (looks like they could kill but is actually a cinnamon roll, looks like a cinnamon roll but could actually kill you, looks like a cinnamon roll and is actually a cinnamon roll, looks like they could kill you and could actually kill you, or sinnamon roll)

Tawny - Cats or Dogs? (or any animal for that matter)

Hickory - How smart are you? Would you consider yourself more book smart or street smart?

Leather - How “basass” would you say you are?

Brunette - If you could change your hair color, what would you change it to? 

Gingerbread - What is your favorite holiday? 

Penny - If you could make a substantial living doing anything, what would you do?

Chocolate - Do you like chocolate? If so, what is your favorite way to eat it? 

Chestnut - Have you ever ridden an animal? If so, which one? 

Umber - Who do you call your friend? How many Friends do you have?

Carob - What do you look for in a friend? 

Cedar - How old are you? 

Caramel - How much does sugar affect you? 

Mahogany- What is your moral alignment? (Lawful good, Neutral good, Chaotic good, Lawful neutral, True neutral, Chaotic Neutral, Lawful evil, Neutral evil, Chaotic Evil)   

Peanut - Do you have any allergies? 

Grey/Gray - Introvert, Extrovert, or Ambivert? 

Shadow - What is your biggest regret? 

Silver - What do you imagine the future to be like? 

Graphite - Do you like to draw? If so, do you draw often? What do you like to draw?

Smoke - Have you ever taken any drugs? 

Fog - Was there ever a period in your life when you were confused and lost? how did you get out of it? 

Fossil - Do you have any older relatives other than your parents? If so, how many? Do you like them? 

Slate - If you could erase any memory from your life, would you do it? If so, which memory would you chose? 

Cloud - What do you spend the majority of your time thinking about? 

Ash - Is there something or someone from your past that you miss? 

Iron - Have you ever used a weapon? Do you own one? If so what is it?

Black - What is the darkest thing you’ve ever done? 

Ebony - Describe your family

Onyx - What are your nightmares most often about? 

Obsidian - Do you suffer from any mental disabilities? 

Spider - What irrational fears do you have? 

Charcoal - on a scale of one to ten how would you rate your survival skills? 

Soot - How hard do you work to achieve your goals? 

Midnight - Are you a night or morning person?

Raven - Can you fly? If not, do you ever dream about flying? 

Ink - write your autobiography in one sentence 

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//OOC: PSA

Doesn’t matter if we’ve never interacted, if we’ve interacted once, or a BILLION times. Doesn’t matter if we have zero threads or FIVE BILLION. 

ALWAYS feel free to spam my ask box with in character asks, questions, or starters. 

ALWAYS feel free to spam my inbox with ask box memes!

ALWAYS feel free to tag/@mention me in memes.

ALWAYS feel free to tag/@mention me in quizzes. 

ALWAYS feel free to tag/@mention me in posts you want me to see!

ALWAYS feel free to tag/@mention me in posts that remind you of me/my muse.

ALWAYS feel free to tag/@mention me in stuff, period! 

ALWAYS feel free to start an interaction with my muse!

ALWAYS feel free to suggest a plot for our muses. 

ALWAYS feel free to send me an OOC message in DMs or in Asks.

I LOVE that stuff. YOU’RE NOT BEING ANNOYING. IT MAKES MY DAY. Talk to me! I love it! :D 

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Terukiyo as a Deity

Tagged by: @subetei-noykin (Thanks for this! :D)

Art by: @argatomar

The Wandering Guardian

ASSOCIATED WITH: Wisdom in judgement, Clarity in inner reflection, Calmness and honor in negotiations, strength and endurance in defense of another. Lesser associations: Devout Hedonism (Philosophy), humble nature, compassion, prosperity, opening doors of new opportunity.

SACRED PLANTS: Wisteria Bonzai, golden spider lily.

SACRED STONES/GEMS: Onyx, Sunstone.

SACRED ANIMALS: Black Cobra. Any creature with molten gold eyes is said to be a ‘watcher’ of the Kami, and thus care is taken over ones actions while in their presence.

COLOURS: Black, Gold, Crimson.

FOOD: Yakitori Skewers, Soba, and Sukiyaki.

SCENTS: Sandalwood and earth. The Deep forest after rain. The fog of the high mountains.

ACCEPTED OFFERINGS/WAYS TO HONOUR:

Bonzai trees are often the typical shrines found within the homes of his devoted, with the trunk often wrapped in a small cobra made of gold, silver, metal, or stone. Offerings are often stone cups of forest soil to which incense can be pressed in and burned before the sapling to pull his attention to the home. While cups of hot tea, and small bowls of miso are often left as well to encourage the kami to stay as a guest. Prayers, are often conducted as simply as a conversation among friends. With the tone of them often informal and heartfelt as the devoted speak of their troubles and why they sought his ‘council’ to begin with. It is said that if a golden eyed being is encountered within the week following such a prayer - that the kami has blessed his influence upon the individual. If the Bonzai wilts, then he has rejected the individuals requests. Honoring him can be done just about anywhere as one travels, and often consists of sitting down and having a cup of sake or tea for two. In which the second cup is then poured onto the earth when finished, or given to an individual struck with misfortune. His sacred places are abandoned shrines and villages. His wrath comes in the form of red eyed snakes and wolves.

Tagging: I have gotten so many new followers as of late. Thus, I pass this on to all of you if you haven’t done so already! I’m quite curious to see what all of you come up with for your characters :D <3

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Li Nezha, a protection deity in Chinese folk religion. His official Taoist name is “Marshal of the Central Altar.” He was then given the title “Third Lotus Prince” after he became a deity.

requested by @spiritworldly and anon

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Welcome!

I’ve gained quite a few followers recently, and I wanted to welcome you to my small, little corner of tumblr and the home of my gilded giant Terukiyo. I’m glad he peaked your interest! And in this blog you’ll find a small variety of things; Ask responses, inbox memes, far east aesthetics, story drabbles, occasionally some Teru doodles (once I get my tablet fixed) and generally everything related to the snake-lizard.

OOC posts on this blog are at a minimum, and even then they are FFXIV related in some manner. I also don;t always tag what I post (Due to tumblr mobile not letting me tag) but I try and save anything that absolutely -needs- it for when I switch to PC.

That said, teru’s ask box is -always- open to you, and your free to interact with him as much to your hearts content. As he looks forward to hearing from you as well! Messages, also are open should you wish to talk to me as well. I’m UK though! So I’ll generally be active during the hours I’m alive, so if I don’t answer right away, don’t get discouraged. I’m probably sleeping.

Thank you for following! And we hope to get to interact with you soon!

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🔥 - BDSM in RP

People need to learn and understand the difference between BDSM and being kinky. 

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