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a little diary about trying to find a middle ground between being spiritual and being a schizophrenic

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Tools of the Trade

Featuring in no particular order: the Pentagram of Solomon, the Black-Handled Dagger, Solomonic Hazel Wand, Lion Skin Girdle (mine has tiger claws attached as I lack the appropriate pelt), the Hexagram of Solomon (attached to the girdle), a Star of David pendant, the Goetia grimoire, the Solomonic Crown and two boxes in which ritual equipment are safely stored.

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Ethiopian Orthodox icon of Saint Michael the Archangel.

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every day i think about the throne of the third heaven of the nations’ millennium general assembly and every day i go off the rails insane

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the bird in question

New Heresy: Jesus wasn't even sentient he was mimicking sounds like a parrot.

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— Inscriptions Cain Read in Abel’s Eyes, Silvina Ocampo, tr. Jason Weiss

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joseph kramer, from body and soul, from gay soul: interviews and photographs by mark thompson, 1994

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Imagine a bee rn in a hive muttering "the beekeeper is not real because he is not intervening or helping me at all with this disastrous relationship I have with another bee". now imagine that's you talking about the good lord. now imagine a dog with a propeller hat on

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The best rituals are the ones you make yourself

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And my personal opinion, animal symbolism is not a reliable way of categorizing or classifying or defining spirits. Animals can represent so many different things depending on the person, the region, and the culture.

The same Spirit could show up as a fox the one person and a deer to another . my familiar has done this.

I noticed with my familiar he would show up as animals first. This has happened with me and with another individual who he has shown up to who I have verified this with. I'm just remembering he also showed up as a rabbit

Also snakes and crows.

Additionally, I don't think it's useful to try to come up with labels for groups of spirits. Well... It depends how you do it.

You have to find what is the essential part of the spirit, their culture essentially. In my many years talking with my familiar I'm going to call Barry... It is taking me years and years to understand what he is about, his values and what he appreciates and how he acts and what he stands for and what he enjoys

A relationship with a spirit takes time to marinate

First he showed up as a crow, dear, and rabbit. Then, a black mass with like horns on top of it and kind of an animal face that I started referring to as the devil, even though I knew he wasn't, but I didn't know exactly what else to call him

He was telling me all the things I was supposed to be secret. Knowledge of life and death and Good and evil and had to manipulate the fabric of space and time

He's a carrier of secret sacred knowledge

Anyway. Another example.

There's a spirit who imitated a cat and showed up as a cat. Later on, I realized they probably did that because they could tell that I already had an affinity for cats and wanted to disguise themselves as something that would be somewhat familiar to me. Smart move. This does not mean that it is a cat Spirit or a cat goddess

My familiar is also not a man. I call him he, etc cuz he's fine with it, but he has explicitly told me that this is really just a mask. The reasons for why he presents mainly male, I personally connect to the fact that I am female. He represents knowledge that is other to me, that is hidden, and he is also like another lost part or fragment of me. I know this sounds very heterosexual but it's not like that lol

He molds himself to fit conceptions of him, to an extent

Spirits are very very fond of disguising themselves. I think it's actually like, and inactive part of their anatomy like they can't even necessarily control it that much

They don't have a solid physical form that goes with them from one place to another. It's like their part mirror and they reflect you back at yourself

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A Peasant Girl in the Tatra District East of Hungary, Marianne Stokes

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Hi, Chicken!

I have recently entered a dilemma. After diving headfirst into research about 'quantum mysticism' (and VERY quickly learning how BS it is), I'm left wondering if there's anything linking witchcraft and science together.

I ended up watching a ton of science videos from a reputable source, and it left me feeling... weird about magic/witchcraft as a whole.

I guess I'm just looking for validation that magic/witchcraft is real, whether or not science can explain it.

Thanks, friend! <3

Internalized Scientism is common.

The only things that are true can be measured (so the philosophy goes), and if you experience something that cannot be measured, well, you aren't crazy - it's just that your experiences are not yet able to be reduced to measurements; your mysticism cannot now be tacked up on a board and dried out as a scientific specimen, but one day - what a relief! - everything you've ever known or been will be reduced to binary, nothing but a mystery-free code copied down in some database; measured, true, complete. What a comforting feeling, apparently, for how ardently some love the thought.

It is not particularly any of our faults for being made to feel crazy, foolish, stupid, or whatever pejorative term, for believing in things that have meaning without having measurement.

At the intersection where you meet the rest of reality lives a dazzling mystery, dark and glittering like granite in a mossy stream, breathtaking and sometimes so sacred we fear to touch it.

What little cracks appear in things that are when a person learns to explore that mystery. There is hardly an easier way to keep people from exploring those bothersome depths than just convincing every last person that because some crude scientist cannot reach into the mystery of their soul and crack it apart with a measuring tape, those mysteries simply do not exist.

I will tell you why I started practicing witchcraft (apart from the goading spirit man) - I knew there had to be something more.

There had to be something more.

Why are you here, Anonymous, sniffing after the mossy stream? Can you tell that your feet are wet, even if you can't feel the water? Do you sense there is something glinting down there, tucked away in invisible cracks?

You are at work, you are at school, you are on your phone, at the store, at a party, and still: moss is growing over your toes. Lichen is growing on the box of cookies on the store shelf. A ghost stag is sad somewhere near the meat department. And if they are not there, is something in the back of your mind yelling, keening, weeping: why not? where did it go, it is supposed to be there, how do I find it?

What is witchcraft, my friend? It is different things to different people, but I will tell you something that it can be:

Witchcraft is a system of tools and frameworks to explore the desperate need for something more.

Do you have that need? Does something inside of you want to cry with joy if you dare admit to yourself there might be something more?

If so, witchcraft may be the framework you choose to explore those mysteries.

I cannot convince you that there is a mystery to be explored. I do not want to convince you of that. I am just telling you - you can explore it. We have the tools. Sometimes, some of these tools are called Witchcraft.

Do you know the problem with trying to see more clearly in the moonlight?

As soon as you bring the sun in, it isn't night any more.

In the rich darkness, you may never gain the clarity of sight and insight you already have under the sun.

But for some of us, that gentle night is a place we must go to; to see things in their ghostly, star-struck forms; to feel the world outside of its measurements; to experience our same universe, inside-out and upside down, merely by virtue of having the sun slip away, and thereby become complete within ourselves - because so many of us are already inside-out and upside down to begin with.

Explore the darkness if you would like to. All you've got to do is open the door and let the moonlight reveal what you may already know:

your toes are in a stream.

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we've all been there!

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I love how Cheryl’s mom calls her “nightmare child” even later on in the show when they’re getting along