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I just wanna be loved and smothered in besitos

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Bergheim, Alsace, France

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I got my heart broken and I survived, I failed 3 courses in university and graduated, I got rejected in the very first job I applied for and got promoted yesterday, I went through hard times with my family but then two years later, we laughed our hearts out over lunch, The closest friends disappointed me several times but I made new friends and loved them with all my heart. I did it once, I can do it again.

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Kitty kitty

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Fear

I have no clue why I'm being hit with emotions now.

Maybe it's the hydroco I don't know...

But my God, we just brought our new daughter home for the first time today - and I have never been more lost.

First of all~ She wasn't a natural birth like I had with my last one - she was a last second c-section.

As much of a brave face I have put on - it is very safe to say I have been thoroughly traumatized for this birth experience: failed epidural and failure to progress past 8cm for the last hours of my labor.

And the pain after the c-section is such an awful beast to deal with. Just thinking about it while I type makes me shake.

I hate not being useful and running at 100%.

I love my husband so much. Throughout this whole nightmare he has defiantly been my lighthouse in the fog.

I'm just afraid I won't be better in time to step up.

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Everardo Galván

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(by black swan)

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