oeodesamito

[oeodesamito]

Dear Computer Tech Designer

These past few days have been tough because of the Lockdown and ever since then I have been missing you and thinking about you like crazy. I really am sad not only because of the quarantine situation but also because I am afraid that this LDR-like relationship we have now could go down south really quickly since we’ve only been dating for a while and I honestly am not sure if our bond is strong enough to get through this. I really want things between us to work because I really do have feelings for you and you make my heart so so happy.

Last night did not really end that well... Honestly if I were to change anything in our relationship, it would be me meeting you as a normal person and not as a pathological liar. Ever since the day I came clean I knew that this would deal a big impact to our relationship, and honestly as much as I strive to change, I can never earn your trust back, and I understand that cus I’ve said so much lies to u sobrang tagal na :( Yes you get to catch me cus of course those stories are exaggerated that i dont even recall them honestly, like how u caught me in caution hot or like my karate. But like i said I did not register those as lying before, and now that I am aware of what I say, I still try my best snd tell u the truth cus i really want to make it up to you and also change for the better.

Honestly I am so happy you call me out, but i also am sad that this will keep happening in the future since Ive told u lies for like what? 2 months? And i honestly do not recall all of those cus they never register to me. So in the future, may it be something I do not recall, I am sorry for those, because that was me who just lied to make the stories more colorful, but ever since last week babe ive been trying my best not to lie at all, and of course I was hurt too because u didnt believe me sa call, and tbh it is understandable naman cus ive lied to u a lot before.

What’s killing me is the fact that I will never get your 100% trust, but I wish you know that even tho hou don’t trust me, I wish you could at least see or feel my 100% effort to change and know that my feelings for you are real :(

Sorry if mali mali na grammar and sabog na lahat, it’s 5:35 and i just wanted to make something a little sweet i guess...

But yea enough about that cus im too sad to function... Dio you have been the most loving, patient, and caring boyfriend I have ever had. I know that I keep saying that but I don’t know any other way to express how perfect of a boyfriend you are honestly <3 You try your best to keep in touch with me, you always make kamusta me, you also even make kulit me and try your best to cheer me up. You even SANG AND IT WAS EVERYTHING <3 I really want you to know that, I am in love with you for who you are and that you are perfect to me <3 you don’t even need to change a single bit. Your little actions, gestures and kissies mean the world to me, promise.

I hope that we could stay strong and still keep smiling this lovkdown because this will really test our relationship, and I believe na kaya naman natin. I love you Diorisse 💕