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letting the days go by

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Why do you study history

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When a person leaves. A discord server and their messages are there but their colour from their roles is gone that is more disturbing than a human corpse to me.

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"may this great plague pass by me and my friends, and restore us once more to joy and gladness"

Feeling a powerful kinship with this scribe from 1350 today.

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The Christmas truce (German: Weihnachtsfrieden; French: Trêve de Noël; Dutch: Kerstbestand) was a series of widespread unofficial ceasefires along the Western Front of the First World War around Christmas 1914.

Texts: Silent night// Stop the cavalry, Jona Lewis// Testimony of British machine gunner Bruce Bairnsfather// Testimony by British private Marmaduke Walkinton// Wikipedia entry for "Christmas truce"// Image Sources: X, X, X, X

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there's this passage in the name of the rose where these medieval monks are discussing whether it's okay to look at illustrations of monkeys and the old guy argues that it's inherently immoral to even look at immoral things and it's like. average day on tumblr

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fucks me up that by total coincidence the sun and moon's size difference is exactly matched to their difference in distance from us, thus making our beautiful total solar eclipses where you can see the silver threads of the sun's corona possible because the moon just covers the sun completely

The stars (literally) aligned just right for this experience to be possible. It's likely that aliens don't have this

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no I’m just like. Philza was forced to either never acknowledge his best friend in s2 or quit the server entirely that’s actually just… so fucked up. That’s actually like, just… incredibly cruel to do for a “plot twist” that even a lot of the people involved don’t seem enthusiastic about. Did no one get a choice in this? Was there no like, discussion with everyone to make sure they were okay with this? This isn’t even a case of the big CCs shouting over everyone! Phil was one of the biggest and he’s quit over this. Tubbo’s talked openly about not being a fan of the ending. Quackity’s mentioned lore streams he had to scrap because of it I believe. And there’s a really jarring ending to a lot of these later streams, and plot points set up not long ago or even days prior getting completely thrown out to support it, which suggests that it was a snap decision that had to force some hasty rewrites, and those suck for everyone.

Like, even without the whole. Situation. This is just, like, not a good way to run a collaborative project? Even if it didn’t end up with someone basically being forced to either quit or ignore the legacy of someone important to them, big decisions like this being made seemingly only by one person when it massively impacts everyone and with what appears to be minimal warning is just an unfun environment for both fans and creators.

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The longer I live the more I realize I just wanna be well fed and bottom nude all the time

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i hate job hunting so much why couldn’t i have just been sent abroad as a girl to serve at the court of margaret of austria and then later to serve a succession of french queens so that i could return to the english court years later as a lady of sophistication and charm capable of causing one of the greatest religious schisms in european history

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lindsay lohan sampled better off alone to make some uptempo chilldown clubstep about getting barred out

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you wanted to be a good friend, because you loved your friends, but the truth was that everyone else somehow had a pamphlet on being normal that you never received. most of the time you learn by trial-and-error. you are terrified of the next big mistake you make, because it seems like the rules are completely arbitrary.

you've learned to keep the prickly parts of your personality in a stormcloud under your bed - as if they're a second version of you; one that will make your friends hate you. it feels feral, burning, ugly.

instead, you have assembled habits based on the statistical likelihood of pleasing others. you're a good listener, which is to say - if you do speak up, you might end up saying the wrong thing and scaring off someone, but people tend to like someone-who-listens. or you've got no true desires or goals, because people like it when you're passive, mutable. you're "not easy to fluster" which is to say - your emotions are fundamentally uninteresting to others around you; so you've learned to control them to a degree that you can no longer really feel them happening.

you have long suspected something is wrong with you, but most of the time, googling doesn't help. you are so-used to helping-yourself, alone and with no handbook. the reek of your real self feels more like a horrible joke - you wake up, and, despite all your preparations, suddenly the whole house is full of smoke. the real you is someone waiting to ruin your other-life, the one where you're normal and happy. the real-self is unpredictable, angry.

your real self snarls when people infantilize the whole situation. because if you were really suffering, everyone seems to think you'd be completely unable to cope. but you already learned the rules, so you do know how to cope, and you have fucking been coping. it's not black-and-white. it's not that you are healed during the other times - it's just that you're able to fucking try. and honestly, whenever you show symptoms, it's a really fucking bad sign.

because the symptoms you have are ugly and unmanageable for others. your symptoms aren't waifish white girl things. they're annoying and complicated. they will be the subject of so many pretentious instagram reels. if they cared about you, they'd just show up on time. you care, a lot, so deeply it burns you. you like to picture a world where the comments read if they loved you, they'd never need glasses to see. but since that's a rule you've seen repeated - "one must never be late or you are a bad friend" - you constantly worry about being late and leave agonizingly early. there are no words for how you feel when you're still late; no matter how hard you were trying.

so you have to make up for it. you have to make up for that little horrible real you that you keep locked in a cabinet. you are bad at answering emails so every project you make has to be perfect. you are weird and sensitive so you have to learn to be funny and interesting. you are an inconvenience to others, so you become as smooth as possible, buffing out all the rough parts.

all this. all this. so people can pass their hands over you and just tell you just the once -how good you are. you're a good friend. you're loveable.

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Adding my preferred pronouns in my bio but in all 14 cases to force people to learn Estonian grammar

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PLEASE support the railway strikers in the UK. they just announced that they are cancelling services after 6pm on Christmas Eve. people are pissed because they need those services to get to their families for Christmas. well, if the services are that important, then the workers should be compensated for providing them. the UK is broken. so many industries rely on goodwill to stay afloat (I am a pharmacy technician for the NHS, trust me, I know), and that good will is running out. why the fuck would you work longer hours when you end up still struggling to pay for basic necessities?

you don't.

despite what the government tries to push, the workers don't strike to screw over regular people. workers strike so that they can be safer and better compensated to provide the services you need. when workers work long hours for little money, they become less conscientious. as they should. workers don't exist to provide you with services; they are real people, with real lives, which don't revolve around you needing them.

everyone has better things to do with their life than stay late at work to make sure you get where you want to go.