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・ﾟ𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐋𝐄𝐎 ‘

𝐇𝐄  𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓  𝐇𝐄  was  alone  with  his  beer  when  the  girl  spoke.  He  wasn’t  drunk  –  tipsy  was  more  like  it ��and  Leo  raised  a  brow.  Leaned  up  against  the  nearby  surface,  he  looked  like  a  cool  boy.  His  dark  hair  messed  up  as  per  usual,  shirt  wrinkled  and  washed  jeans.  To  anyone,  he  looked  like  a  dreamboat.  But  he  stank  of  booze  and  puke.  “Do  you  talk  to  yourself  like  this  all  the  time?”  The  question  flipped  out  of  his  mouth  as  though  he  didn’t  hear  a  single  word  that  came  from  her  lips.  However,  what  he  said  next  would  say  otherwise:  “Things  happen  so  that  we  can  enjoy  the  little  things  here  and  now.  It’s  saying  that  we  work  too  hard  or  something.”

chocolate irises searched masculine features, the intense need of wanting to see the same silent fear she had spread across his features eating at her flesh. an dry and unfamiliar laugh falling from her lips and into the air around them. “ i .. yeah.. it’s a weird habit of mine i guess ?? ” she told him, head shaking the smallest bit. “ my dad use to say it’s because i don’t know how to stop talking..” juno smiled forcefully. her tapping fingers coming to an stop as she moved ever so slightly, nose scrunching up at the oder that forced its way through the air. “ do you always smell this bad ? ” she asked, the comment meant to be more playful the anything, but her tone falling flat. she was never the one to judge on how another decided to cope with their own situations, and truthfully she wouldn’t mind about five shots herself right about now. “ you think.. this is something that’s suppose to be enjoyed ?? ” she questioned, eyebrows furrowing. “ like some kind of gift ? ” she asked before another dry laugh left her lips. “ that’s .. that’s definitely a optimistic way to view things .. a little bizarre but definitely optimistic . ”

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she sat submerged in an self inflicted darkness ,  deep breaths falling from nostrils as distant chatter ( as distant chaos ) danced in her ears .. acrylic nails tapped softly, anxiously on the back of her phone . the very phone that only twenty minutes earlier had been almost drained from calling her fathers number over and over and over again. her stomach turned , and her head pounded with questions and theories.. but even with the worry and confusion that had attached itself onto her skin, the brunette couldn’t fight the laughter that had taken control. her brown orbs fluttering open, as brown locks moved as she shook her head . ‘ this .. ‘ she spoke, hand gesturing towards the others who seem to run around like chickens without heads , ‘ this is deadass insane . ‘ she finished, teeth capturing plump lips for just a moment . ‘ i just like ?? i keep waiting for a camera crew to pop out of somewhere and laugh in our faces ? ‘ she thought out loud . ‘ because this is just .. too much ? like how does this even happen ? ‘ 

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“i’m almost never serious, and i’m always too serious. too deep, too shallow. too sensitive, too cold hearted. i’m like a collection of paradoxes.”

— ferdinand de saussure. (via stolenspoetry)

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“I don’t want to hurt you,“ he says. “I don’t care,” I tell him honestly, and I don’t. He could leave me for the moon and I wouldn’t regret a second of the time we spent together. I know in this moment that I would rather have my heart broken than not have this. I make a contract with myself. I will love him and forget the consequences - just this once. He can have everything.”

— S.Z. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #255 (via blossomfully)

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You are not your mistakes, you are not your wounds, you are not your pain.

You are human.

— n.m.g.

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Oh, I get it. You’re a bully. Why would I even bother to have a conversation with someone like you? What is the point?

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66 and 97

66. your future: career? 

despite her mother abandoning her, she was abandoned in the arms of a father, who loved her, who wanted her, and who felt just as attached to her as she was to him. she got an happy ending, something that rarely happens to kids that have similar faiths as juno and her brother. instead, they end up in the foster system where they are abused, neglected, deemed unwanted and unloveable. juno hopes to be the light in those children lives, she hopes to be the person that recuses them and finds them their very own ‘ dad ‘. social work is a thankless job, even her dad reminded her of that .. but its the only thing she can thing of doing and hopes her legs will carry her there. 

97. if you could go back in time, how far would you go?

juno would without hesitation revisit the day her mom decided she no longer wanted to care for her children, not to say goodbye one last time or even just see her one last time .. she would simply ask why. why would she place an emptiness within side the very own babies she carried for nine months. why would she hurt them? betray them? leave them. 

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6, 10

6. does your muse believe in an afterlife? 

this answer seems to only be an yes because of the fact that death, and what comes after death was something that juno stood face to face with at an young age, the summer before her mother left her; she use to spend her summer evenings with her toes dipped in the lake, as her old and sweet neighbor fished. and she did just that up until the very last week of august, which is strange considering the last week of august her neighbor had been found dead in his own home, and had been dead for a month. she cant tell you specifics, but she can confirm that when you are dead, you’re not just dead. 

10. does your muse have nightmares? what about?

juno has nightmares .. in fact, juno’s mother haunts her dreams, in a way that old memories haunts hearts .. her nightmares, they always begin with soft giggles filling the air .. smiles placed on plump lips . warm embraces dancing on her skin . but despite the beauty in that, it never stays beautiful. her mother, and her kind eyes start to go dull.. her pearly whites start to rot. her glowly skins starts to melt, and before you can even wrap your head around the image, needles start to appear in her mothers flesh. the dream always ending with the two along with her brother in the car as her mother screams ‘ i dont love you, i dont love you ‘ over and over again .. her hand steers left in an instance, and blue is all you can see before juno wakes up .. out of breath, sweating, and sad.

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send me a # to learn an unusual hc about my muse!

bonus points if you ask me to randomize it !

what’s your muse’s favorite album of all time / favorite artist?

how do they listen to their music? ipod, mp3, computer, cd, records, etc?

do they take baths or showers? do they prefer one over the other?

do they wear their hair down when they sleep, or tied up / braided?

how many blankets / pillows do they like to have on their bed?

what do they normally dream about? nightmares or nonsense?

do they wake up groggy or alert? do they like mornings?

what do they sleep in? pj’s, normal clothes, nothing?

what do they smell like? do they use perfume or cologne?

what shampoo scent do they like the best and why?

bar soap or liquid? do they like loofahs?

do they prefer sleeping alone or with someone else?

do they like the room cold or hot when they sleep?

do they stay up too late? do they like staying up?

do they know how to drive? do they like to drive?

do they prefer taxis / buses / subways, etc? or none of the above?

do they have pets? what kind? dogs, cats, etc?

do they prefer cats or dogs? or neither?

what are their phobias? do they have any at all?

what do they hate being teased about? are they teased often?

did they have any fears growing up that they’ve since conquered?

do they have a fear they want to conquer, but haven’t yet?

how do they show fear? sweating, shaking, blankness, anger, etc?

do they have a short temper? what’s most likely to set it off?

do they get scared easily? does loud noises, shouting, etc, scare them?

what are they most passionate about? what could they debate about for hours?

what do they never, ever want to speak of, ever?

do they have kids? do they want kids? if so, how many?

is there something they’d like to change about themselves physically?

is there something about their personality they want to change?

do they have good fashion sense? or do they just wear whatever?

do they critique others easily? do they judge from afar?

are they too hard on themselves over the little things?

are they the jealous type? what are they most likely to be jealous of?

are they possessive over their things? or over other people? both?

would they rather be alone or in a relationship?

what do they think about polyamorous relationships? would they do it?

do they have parents / parental figures? do they have a good relationship with them?

do they have siblings? if so, how many? do they like them?

do they have a big family or a small family? no family?

where would they want to live if they could live anywhere? why?

are they happy in their current living situation? why or why not?

do they like living alone or with another person / other people?

did they go to college, or are they attending? did / do they like it?

what’s their dream job / profession? do they have one?

if they could control one thing in the world, what would it be?

do they like tv shows or movies? or neither?

do they have social media? do they like it or hate it? obsess over it?

do they have a creative outlet? if so, what is it?

where do they see themselves in 2 / 5 / 10 years?

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13

how much pain can your muse withstand? for how long?

physically, juno is no super women. sticks and stones definitely do break her bones, and that pain is not something she tolerates well. paper cuts, bruises, the nail pain when you bang your acrylic nail too hard are feelings she’ll dramatically cry out from, but they are tolerable. after all, she grew up with her brother and definitely knows how to take a hit.. but theres a level of course, and broken arms, legs, ribs, or whatever the case may be is not something she deals with well. emotionally though? put her through hell and i promise you, she’ll still come out on top. her mama might of raised her for a few years and then dipped, but her mama definitely did not raise no bitch. 

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8 & 18

8. does your muse tend to bottle things up?

emotions and the vulnerability that comes with them, has always felt and remains to feel like keeping your head above violent waters. to spill those feelings, has such a similar feeling to water in her lungs. its painful, uncomfortable, and fearful. and so, in simpler terms bottling her feelings up is not something that is out of habit for juno. but it is something that she day after day conquers, especially with ones she keeps close to her heart. it may take her a minute, but eventually those feelings will be released; the manner of those feelings really do depend. 

18. does your muse think they’re capable of changing? do they even want to?

some traits latch onto you, and imprint themselves into everything you are and everything you will ever be; so when changing is mentioned, i think juno knows deep down that some parts of her she will never be able to change. no matter how much she tries. but in some sense, she would like to think she’s capable of changing. that being she would like to be the best version of herself you know? and, i think so too. 

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i will literally adore you if you send me one

1. Last kiss

2. Last phone call

3. Last text message

4. Last song you listened to

5. Last time you cried

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice

7. Been cheated on

8. Self harmed

9. Lost someone special

10. Been depressed

11. Been drunk and threw up

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:

12. had sex

13. How many people have you had sex with this year?

15. Made a new friend

17. Laughed until you cried

18. Met someone who changed you

19. Found out who your true friends were

20. Found out someone was talking about you

26. What did you do for your last Birthday

27. What time did you wake up today

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for

30. Last time you saw your all of your siblings at the same time

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life

32. What are you listening to right now

33. When is the last time you had sex?

34. Who's getting on your nerves right now

35. Most visited webpage

36. Favorite colour

37. Nicknames

38. Relationship Status

39. Zodiac sign

40. Male or female

41. Primary school

42. Secondary School

43. High school/college

44. Eye color

46. Height

47. Do you have a crush on someone

48. What do you like about yourself

49. Piercings

50. Tattoos

51. Righty or lefty

FIRSTS:

53. First piercing

54. First best friend

55. First hookup

56. First Bestfriend

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating

60. Drinking

61. I'm about to

62. Listening to

63. Waiting for

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids?

65. Get married?

66. Career

WHICH IS BETTER:

67. Lips or eyes

68. Hugs or kisses

69. Shorter or taller

70. Older or Younger

71. Romantic or spontaneous

72. Nice stomach or nice arms

73. Sensitive or loud

74. Hook-up or relationship

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger

77. Drank hard liquor

78. Lost glasses/contacts

79. Had sex

80. Broken someone's heart

82. Been arrested

83. Turned someone down

84. Cried when someone died

85. Fallen for a friend

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself

87. Miracles

88. Love at first sight

89. Heaven

90. Santa Clause

91. Kiss on the first date

92. Angels

93. How would you label yourself?

94. Someone You Pray Everyday For

95. Did you sing today

96. Who From All Your Ex's have You Cared The Most About

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?

98. Out Of Everything In The World What Do You Wish For

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?

100. Do you like the way you look?

Actually ask me something. Anon or not.

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Angsty Character Questions: 

1. Is your muse afraid of death? 2. What is your muse’s kill count?  3. What is your muse’s biggest fear?  4. How easy is it to anger your muse? 5. What is your muse’s biggest regret?  6. Does your muse believe in an afterlife?  7. How many scars does your muse have? 8. Does your muse tend to bottle things up? 9. What is one thing that would break your muse? 10. Does your muse have nightmares? What about? 11. Would your muse kill for someone they care about?  12. What was the worst injury your muse has received? 13. How much pain can your muse withstand? For how long?  14. What was the most traumatic moment in your muse’s life? 15. How often does your muse cry? Do they view it as weakness? 16. If your muse could talk to one person they’ve lost, who would it be?  17. Does your muse consider themselves a good person? Why or why not?  18. Does your muse think they’re capable of changing? Do they even want to?

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cell phone headcanons

send me “#” for cell phone headcanons about our muses including:                              - what your muse’s name is in mine’s phone                              - what your muse’s picture is in mine’s phone                              - what your muse’s ringtone is in mine’s phone                              - my muse’s last text to your muse