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Dear Tumblr,

Tonight I am sad. I'm sad that I didn't see it coming. That I wanted the relationship to work so bad even though my soul knew it wasn't right. That I didn't have the guts to end it sooner. That I didn't know and don't know how long ago we fell out of love (was he ever in love? Was I?). That I feel stupid about it, for thinking it would work. Truth is, while he was great about some things, I wasn't enough for him for whatever reason. Maybe I was too much. Or not the right kind of person he wants. Part of me is upset because my world is changing. Everything I knew shattered, and then it was just me with the remaining shards, piecing myself back together. I know it's a good thing. But I feel like I was fooled. I feel like it was a lie. And that's what hurts. Shitty part is I bet he's not even thinking about it. Just drinking his life away while asking me to get him oven mitts. 😂 fuck that. I'm a hot 22 year old yoga teacher with a full time job and tons of ideas and dreams. We'll meet again. I hope you get everything you deserve in life.

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Rant

If your apology starts with "I'm sorry that you" don't even bother "apologizing". Get your half ass apology the fuck out.

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Here are my before and "after" pics. It's been about 6 months. Still not done but I've lost a total of 9 inches and about 15-20lbs

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Life Goals

-Learn how to play violin -Own a French bulldog named Gronk -Also own a bull mastiff because I love squishy faced big doggies too 😍 -Teach yoga for a living -Pay off student loans -Visit Ireland & Scotland -Profit?? Side note, learning to play violin looks kinda affordable but also I do so much yoga when the hell do I have time for anything

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Rant

Alright some people piss me the fuck off. I'm not ballsy enough to write this on Facebook, but I have plenty friends who are trump supporters and that's cool you do you, but one person keeps ranting and complaining about the rioters and laughing at the people marching tomorrow and like fuck you. You have no right to laugh at those people. Women are truly concerned about their rights right now especially regarding our own damn bodies and guess what we are allowed to feel that way! And we are allowed to March about it!! You think that race crimes are better than windows being smashed? Both shouldn't be happening, but you can't seriously say that it's way worse now than when Obama was elected. You are like 19, grow up and stop spewing political bs that you're getting from the internet onto Facebook. Not that this rant is much better but dear lord women who laugh at other women for marching just make me angry.

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Update

So I'm officially down to 148lbs! I believe my highest weight was 169 but I'm not 100% sure anymore. I've decided I'm going to put away the scale for a bit though, I weighed myself this morning and was disappointed I didn't lose a lb even though I'd had been watching what I ate. But I know I didn't drink enough water yesterday and didn't eat the greatest over the weekend. So I'm just going to start focusing on my body and how I look and feel again 😊

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So. I fucked up

I didn't close up the studio right and everything is fine but I feel bad. The studio owner is stressed right now and I get it but tbh I'm hesitant to go back now. Like I don't want to face her I guess? I'm not sure. I normally go to the studio like every night... and now I don't want to 😔

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A little annoyed by beachbody..

Signed up for an on demand free trial, forgot to cancel so they charged me today. Called and they said they can't do anything about it, I'll have to call again to cancel in April 😒

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Mini Rant

I went to a post office yesterday and the worker was so rude. I try to be very nice and polite to all customer service workers, and this lady just did not want to help me at all. I get it sucks, I just wanted help sending a gift. She told me I was SOL basically and it just really irks me. There are ways to be helpful, which I found out when I went to the other post office and the lady there was super nice and solved my problem. So I paid for a dumb stamp I didn't use and I cried because I can't handle conflict well. And I still think that old grandma lady is a bitch. But I can't let it go. I'm trying. Fuck her and that whole situation

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Progress pics. A little nervous to post this, I can't remember who IRL is following me but whatever. The pictures on the left are from October 29th, pictures on the right from December 5th.

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From 159 to 151!

Slowly but surely 😊 my goal has been to lose around a lb a week and so far so good!

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Thinking about looking for jobs again

But it was so frustrating when I was unemployed :/ I just don't love what I do.

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Day 24 of #thegratitudechallenge Today I am thankful for the opportunity to get together with family! Hosts: @kinoyoga @beachyogagirl Sponsor: @yogaprowheel #chelafamily @princessidontworksundays @marieril5 @ellerinke

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Day 23 of #thegratitudechallenge Today I am thankful for getting out of work at noon! Hosts: @beachyogagirl @kinoyoga Sponsor: @yogaprowheel #chelafamily @princessidontworksundays @marieril5 @ellerinke

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Days 21-22 of #thegratitudechallenge I am grateful for the moon and for the #chelafamily Hosts: @kinoyoga @beachyogagirl Sponsor: @yogaprowheel

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Days 18-20 of #thegratitudechallenge 3 things I'm grateful for: my health, my job, and coats #ihatecold❄ Hosts: @beachyogagirl @kinoyoga Sponsor: @yogaprowheel

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If you want to succeed in your life, remember this phrase. The past does not equal the future. Because you failed yesterday; or all day today, or a moment ago, or for the last six months; the last 16 years, or the last fifty years of life doesn’t mean anything…all that matters is what are you going to do, right now.

Anthony Robbins (via naturaekos)