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*  matt healy. thirty. cis male. he/him.  |  did you see soren “ren” findlay this morning on main street? i heard they weren’t heading towards the protests. they’ve been in ballard for one year and last time i spoke to them, they were a tattoo artist. if i remember correctly, they’re an aquarius and they remind me of the last day of summer, walking barefoot through a cool stream, & smoking cigarettes while the sun rises on a sleepless night probably because they’re introspective and self-destructive. 

hi friends i’m v, hailing from mst usually (when i head back home) and let me warn u ahead of time this is a brand new muse so bear with me while i figure him out fstygerhukjsa but anyway !! feel free to hop in my dms or like this and i’ll slide into yours at some point tonight to bother u ♡

( tw: drug abuse/addiction, neglect )

bio !!

soren was born in manchester, england to a pair of very young parents who were decidedly not ready to be parents. their neglect wasn’t malicious and oftentimes wasn’t even a conscious thing. they just didn’t have the maturity to take care of a kid, still in their extremely early twenties and more concerned with partying and living their young adult lives. with no other family or grandparents around, it resulted in soren having to do a lot of taking care of himself, and in some ways that did teach him a sense of how to be self sufficient, but it also gave him a super warped sense of responsibility.

he resents them for it big time but (especially in the past five years or so) has started to learn how to compartmentalize that resentment and like?? learn from it rather than letting it make him bitter, if that makes sense, but he doesn’t talk to them anymore. he’s done a lot of growing up lately though. soren in his early twenties was running around doing drugs and substituting actual meaningful relationships with sex and otherwise filling the void with garbage and addictive tendencies. 

it was in his mid-twenties that soren decided kind of on a whim to pack up and move to the states, heading for the east coast and the big city. he found a tiny shoebox apartment in new york, got work at a bar and supplemented it with selling drugs. continued his bad habits of sleeping around, committing to nothing except drugs and sex and live music, and a few years later found himself nearing thirty with nothing at all to show for it and no sense of direction.

so that was when he started his tattoo apprenticeship. he worked under somebody who became something of a mentor to him (wanted connection!!) and helped him find a sense of responsibility and purpose that his parents were never able to do. by the time he finished the apprenticeship he had also managed to kick most of his drug habits with the exception of weed and a few party drugs here and there.

it was almost exactly a year ago now, around the new year, that soren decided he needed to get out of new york and find somewhere that was a little bit less conducive to his bad habits. you could call it some kind of spiritual enlightenment but he would never call it that tyfegruhujwk. he calls it growing up and getting his shit together and realizing there’s more to life.

so he’s been here in ballard for a year, works at a tattoo parlor, still smokes a lot of weed and parties pretty frequently but has managed to figure out how to maintain a sense of priority and responsibility in his life.

some bullets !!

soren’s a thinker and an observer--he notices things, small things other people don’t notice

bisexual king

despite his neglectful childhood and terrible history with commitment he’s actually very good at being in relationships and has only had 3 or 4 bc they’ve genuinely lasted several years each time

has some serious self destructive tendencies in that he defaults to doing drugs and getting up to shit and has to consciously be like.....no, bad

probably cares more about his friends/loved ones more than himself?? he’s such a lover he has such a big heart he literally just wants the people he cares about to be happy and will sacrifice his own happiness to that end

a lot of his emotional turmoil comes from the war between his self destruction and wanting other people to be happy since those....do not go hand in hand at all lol

soft soft soft boy but in a death metal band tee aesthetic

it’s literally difficult to get in a fight with him bc he cba getting worked up about things and spending that mental energy. however if he does get pissed off.......yikes he’ll go off and cut you off so fast

wanted connections !!

one person he dated (or is still dating up to u) in ballard in the past year he’s been here

if your muse is from england? or ny? get at me w his other exes thanks

some best buds :( this boy would die for his friends

people whose tattoos he’s done !!

bad influence who possibly encourages him getting back into the Bad Stuff 👀

also some good influences give me those soft vibes

sibling like connections?? please? he has no siblings and he wants them so so badly

he is no longer a dealer so give me HIS dealer (probably this could also be a bad influence)

hookups, one night stands, etc. i’d love some unrequited things those are my weakness

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