Untitled, Unmastered
More than a common denominator
They can’t factor me out the equation.
Born cold, in the city of thieves with no honor,
Given a rebirth, a new land becomes my encapsulation,
Institutionalized still won’t give me no more.
Been living trife, that illegal since a infant.
Affiliations causing presumptions creating reputations.
Narratives painted, fact or fiction, either way
It don’t matter in the public eye,
Guilty until proven innocent,
They never see you as innocent, even when the facts staring at them,
Complacent only if they get you, taboo Irregardless.
Don’t matter what you do, just who around you,
Friends or family,
It’s the ties that bind us and hang us from the same tree,
Tightening the deeper and older you grow till you take ya last breath,
Only if you let it.
Born into the business,
What more can I want than a new chance,
The American Dream.
Not for folks like me.
Picket fence meant to be the docket keeping folks out,
Cutting us off but never uniting us,
You either a product or a variable of your environment
Stuck in poverty or a part of the billion-dollar slave system.
Living on borrowed time, got to do more,
More to this life won’t find it stuck in they game
Got to change, won’t have longevity being trife.
Playing both sides of the fence through opaque lenses,
Movements surrounded in mist,
Morality all subjective if you ask me.
A born sinner lookin for bliss.
Cut my losses, time to begin percolating wins
Came up different,
Last of a dying breed.
Greed ain’t posses me.
Ambition the clarity I found,
Hustle and to motivate is all I know.
Came up on a different plane than those I see on a daily basis.
Food stamp only ramp that kept me from starvin,
Still the fact remains,
Only thing for sure lay in honor,
Living by the sword dying by the sword,
Death before dishonor.
Take it in blood, we ain’ t come from much
We ain’t have but the clothes on our back,
Movin around tryin to find a foundation
Stuck in isolation in between the crowds,
Mental won’t give into their subliminal shots,
Never shoot straight at me, they minimal
Shook ones they ain’t no crooks son,
Always from the side out of view, they ain’t built for it.
Cementing my lament
Ask do they feel it,
Simply,
How can one be stable,
When everything around unstable,
When ya hunger pangs and all the pain keep you up nightly.
Hoping for better days been past the river of Styx,
Deep in the levels this ain’t paradise this is hell,
The only thing I know in this divine comedy of life.
Ain’t no peace when you got to lease it,
Never find it, always at war with oneself,
Ain’t able to feel here, nor there,
Only dreams keeping the breath going,
Seeing distant visions of a new life,
Hope the only thing keeping me sane through every dark night.
Rebirth, the ill life shed behind that talk that a cocoon ain’t no other boon.
A distant fruition, if dues don’t pay tuition,
From the school of hard knocks that make up my life.
All alone,
Family ain’t family no more,
Blood ain’t blood no more,
Got no shoulder to lean on but my own.
Build or destroy,
The two paths, still ain’t done,
Vision only thing keeping me out of incarceration.
Predicate felon in the melon,
No advocate a survivor by any means,
Never lean on none,
Been told by false prophets hyperbolic visions
That serve to reinforce the mass incarceration system
The oppresses my kinfolk in this nation,
That’s what they been telling me,
Trace it back to the days before I taught myself written words,
See look at my initials to check the credentials it was predestined before my birth,
Unintentional, look at the tools the fools gave me,
Too blind to see the plot they just dots, no more no less,
Meant to write spoken word that would be the scripture to describe the raptures to come,
Revolutionary warfare it won’t be televised, that’s all distant,
For now,
Only one thing for certain,
Tomorrow isn’t promised.
There is more to this life,
Given the chance my children won’t know of me off spoken word,
Can’t let them have one foot in the grave off what they see.
In these tumultuous times have to be ambitious,
It's simple, break it down to avoid message going into the void.
Every night leads to another day,
Another day another dollar,
Never had privilege had to make my leverage,
Applied pressure with my foot on their neck,
Fuck a slice I want the whole cake.
Taking back everything they stole from me,
Fighting to be more than a statistic,
Fight to live.
Living every day to the fullest,
Don’t matter if it’s my last.
Ain't living in fear,
What I reap, I will sow
Keeping the same mentality,
In the back of the mind it's still the same sentiment,
Seeing things from a different perspective, it’s an afflictive when they don’t get the feeling,
At peace with death, no longer scared to die
It’s a part of life,
Still it's not time, the sentiment off the placements in the mind through time.
See you go numb to the feeling over time,
This ain’t thug life this survivor life,
The shit that calls for therapy we suppress where I’m from,
It ain’t spoken unless it’s a scream,
Relived nightly in our dreams, that’s the only time we see gleams when we ain’t dying nightly,
Tell you the truth it goes back to the days as a youth,
Let me beg the question,
How you suppose to grow as a youth,
How you supposed to be more,
How can you grow,
How can you love,
When all you know is hatred.
Hatred for the knowledge that curses your mental,
Hatred for what you possess,
Mentally and physically.
Hatred for what you’ll can’t comprehend,
Hating no one understands
Hating they can’t see you more than a thug or sap case.
See they say that hood shit be that good shit,
Claim it make them diverse, that they understand the lexicon
They hide behind that privilege when they go home, they escape it,
Go home to the belly of the beast.
Looking for love from all sides.
It ain’t surface layer, its deeper than that
When you get numb you feel nothing,
You lose love, you feel nothing but pain
Pain that poisons the heart
Pain becomes all you know.
Rejection the only subjection I received.
Asked for guidance, same response,
You’ll make it hopefully,
That’s the next level, peers don’t see you as a person,
When they see you all they see is a primitive savage,
Clutch they purse look straight ahead,
See the fear in the eyes and body we all the same to middle class,
Upper class use us as pawns,
Rest never see us more than what media feeds them.
Profane, vulgar, insanity what they paint on me.
No more than an abortion.
That’s what they see.
Always look away never acknowledge,
Won’t look into my eyes won’t see the soul.
It don’t matter,
Had to switch up,
From an orphanage that everyone is trying to escape from.
This mentality adopts us, and we foster it,
Not knowing any better,
Just knowing lesser.
Solace in that piece, it won’t bring you much more than material,
Slinging rocks the only destiny in manifestation.
Finding four fours in a pavilion trying to be a civilian.
Just a kid when I began to see the plot unravel,
How would I know everyone would do bids,
See everyone around me turn to feins,
Its in the vain different sides of the game I see the same.
It’s in every neighborhood we in, do the math
Ain’t talking addition,
Schools don’t teach us that,
Judges teach us that when they hand that sentence
Geniuses with no muse,
Hide that pain,
Self-medicate never mediate.
It’s all ends the same.
The routine funeral,
Routine to see another slain brother,
Routine to see another sister taken too soon.
Routine to see folks disappear never to be seen again,
Routine to live in fear.
Coming from a place where no one makes it major
All my homies either dead, in jail, or stuck in the cycle,
Living dead the surface don’t tell,
Look deep into the eyes they don’t lie.
The body won’t live long once the mind gone, it’s all connected
Don't matter when the soul caged up,
The caged bird Angelou told the ode of,
We ain’t given shot to expand our thoughts, die for a little bit of clout,
End up blowing over as quick as you came up,
The target on the back remain the same at birth,
Too blind to see it.
Don’t matter age of location, ain’t a thing change upon income.
Regardless of outcome,
We all was born in the same place, same opportunity
Only one left, ask me why all the views I see filled with blues,
Failure the only time you make it major on the news.
They call us rapists and drug dealers, they hate us but never know us,
It’s generational but I can see far past and see the pawns at use by the dons,
They want to see us bleed, it's all a product of greed.
What can I say,
When they see us for sacrificial lambs to try and get the glory days they ain't never had.
Fuck them, they fools to hustle a buck out of,
Blood in my eye still don’t cloud my sight,
My plight realer than anything they ever been through.
The guillotine what they plant for us.
First generation with no role models
Surrounded by the blind, cursed with sight.
Seeing more to this plain, they ain't with it
Go against the grain that’s ya head on a silver platter
Born with no silver spoon,
Came from the mud in the trenches, one thing for sure,
only promise lie in your brain matter painting the canvass,
be another decapitation.
Final hours marked by folk lure,
The war stories of anyone stuck in the tar.
The only way to grow is finding a new flow
That’s the only way to blow through the legal, it's all another hustle,
Ain’t another variable, my life ain’t expandable like they say.
Another lost soul trapped in a cycle.
They say,
Divine intervention only reason I'm still breathing,
From being another remnant forgotten in time painting the cement with redrum
A relic in a era where everyone want to be basic,
Living in the moment never looking ahead,
Everyone want to earn soon that’s the error,
Look in they mirror they don’t see into the soul.
No sound one just a survivor.
It gets harder to move on when you switch gears,
They fear you when you awaken,
Rather see you dead then see you bloom.
They don’t love you when you rise above them
Cold hard facts.
They ain’t never believe I was more than another one,
They told me I wouldn’t live to see eighteen
Sixteen school told me only e-d-u would be from a g-e-d,
Spoon fed me lies, telling don’t try it,
It ain’t for folks like you, since day one.
Spat in my face telling me it’s a rain drops, get use to the bottom.
Ain’t believe the lies the devils fed.
Rejected what they try and subject me with.
Grew stronger by the day,
They told me I wouldn’t be shit,
Family from distant to the one that gave birth,
It wasn’t just them folks up at the top,
People here and there it don’t matter, only care about me and mine,
I’m selfish fuck who I offend.
They ain’t believe till I made something out of nothing,
Ain’t gonna be in the mud with filthy human swine.
The bottom always crowded, theres space at the top,
Just gotta pave my own lane up there,
They can never feel my pain,
Don’t matter how, gonna get my forty acres,
Ancestors came from shackles, I won’t buckle under their ruse,
The pain is my muse.
Keep it under the surface, they can’t see the truth,
See they still think I’m crazy,
That’s what the world say, that’s hearsay,
Telling me my fate was in a six by nine cage.
They never believed it me but what does that matter?
They inadmissible, my peace ain’t expandable,
Ain't no subject, don’t listen to the fronts.
Look at it one way.
I’m still here.
I still got breath in my lungs.
I still got drive.
Not a Don just another saying my word is born,
Fuck all that talk, talkings cheap,
Move in my actions,
It ain’t all surface level, check how do they right by you,
Tell the whole truth,
They try and take my life, rob me of my shots
Split my melon, when I was four
Got up, got them stitches
Stabbed me when I was thirteen
Tended to my own wounds ain’t no one come help me.
Beaten and battered till green and purple covered me,
Death threats a regular occurrence, they words have no meaning.
A crash ain’t stop me, three weeks off end of first week of uni,
It ain’t take me out
All the pain caused growth,
Destroyed tolerance,
Ain’t sweating defenses no more,
Shoot first, stay offensive to them.
Got back up through every fall and set back.
Misery built me.
Gave me a foundation nothing can break,
The child I was,
Made me into the man I am today.
Here I stand at the crossroads
Not knowing what's to come
They gonna have to kill me to silence me
It’s bigger than me,
These moves bigger than any picture I can paint.
Talking that empire, talking that generational wealth,
Power moves I can’t lose,
I came here with nothing,
Came as an infant on the verge of losing my life,
No nutrition brought me back,
Strength and will, they can’t stop me
Built my strength through tolerance,
Physical, mental, the layers there,
It’s Time
Time to build a new life,
Time to build a real life.
Got to build a foundation for the future,
Ain’t no fates or destinies,
I’m making one.
Will go the distance.
What more can I say,
Got to take a virtue,
Know who I am, Know who I will be.
Maybe I’m crazy, Maybe I’m the one to make the changes,
Maybe the one to spark the mind that makes changes,
Only one thing for sure,
Got
One life,
More than that,
Got one last chance.
One chance at redemption.
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