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[oghousewife]

honey.

that’s how i’d describe them,

yellow undertones in their skin

gold hue to their hair,

is my face red?

brown eyes that adds contrast to their beautiful face,

is this a fever?

stealing a look at their lips when the time is right,

a kiss won’t hurt right?

it burns, i yearn for them.

[oghousewife]

“Promise me not to hide yourself when you’re in pain, it’s unfair that we laughed together but you cried alone”

— Unknown

[oghousewife]

you’ll never recover without me

these are the words of a monster,

is he?

am i crazy?

has he always had this much control over me?

a monster and a man

i can’t tell the difference

“i’m being too dramatic”

was i? did he really want you forever or only temporarily?

he threw you away as soon as things got hard

that’s the true nature of a monster.

[oghousewife]

pointless numbers

from the point of view of the voice in my head

how do you allow yourself to get so close?

you were so close yet so far

everyday you say you’ll do better 

but you stray farther from the goal every time

you don’t deserve to feel good

not after giving up every time you indulge

give up entirely, break the control 

you pay with your happiness 

your desire to be thin will  always remain

pro recovery.

- oghousewife

[oghousewife]

the stages of grief

i am restless,

maybe it’s because i am still grieving

trying to cope as well as i possibly can

but how can i cope with so much loss?

i lay awake at night thinking

thoughts that i should let pass along

the past should not rule over me like this

i should not feel guilty. 

- oghousewife