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✨once I get my nose, lips, jaw, eyes and butt done, I loose 30lbs and get my shit togheter its over for u bitches✨

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DON’T. FUCKING! EAT.

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just my inner thoughts

my first fast ever, that night i looked in the mirror and i looked so pretty. my skin was a soft pale, my lips vibrant red/pink, and my cheeks looked sunken. i stood at the bathroom mirror for a while studying my face. i never felt that way about myself. i kinda…liked it? i liked how it felt. how it looked. but then when i woke up i literally felt like i was going to pass out. i couldn’t move, couldn’t walk so i forced myself to eat. it lowkey scared me because it felt like i was disassociating…..i still miss that feeling.

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me, at night: okay so I’ve been eating like shit recently so tomorrow imma be on a fast all day

me, as soon as I wake up: sO MUM WHATS FOR BREAKF—

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Me (before eating out): I’m just gonna get a diet coke and a salad, that’s it.

Me (at the restaurant): “Yes I’d like the three course meal with appetizer and a dessert tray please”

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Do not exercise if you’re restricting!

After forcing myself to go for a long walk yesterday:

• I could barely put one foot in front of the other

• I was dizzy

• I couldn’t hold down any food

• I violently threw up any liquids

• I was cold and couldn’t warm back up

• I had stomach cramps from vomiting

• I was too weak to even sit up on my own

• I lost all colour from my skin and turned grey

• All my muscles tensed up

• Everything hurt

I always ignore those posts that say “don’t work out if you’re restricting” and “eat if you feel like you need to” but seriously guys it’s not worth it, I’ve never felt so terrible in my life and I’ve been doing this stuff for years. If my boyfriend hadn’t have come with me, I wouldn’t have made it home.

If you need to work out out, do it home!

Stay safe everyone 💕

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I hate not feeling hungry because that means I’m failing

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there was this girl at h&m that was too small for all the clothing and honestly i have rarely been so jealous

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Someone once said, “Are you sure you’re genuinely happy? Or are you just distracted?”

It’s stuck with me ever since

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