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✰ Sorry, I’ve had enough of running away, Sophie. Now I’ve got something I want to protect. It’s you.✰

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Howl’s Moving Castle ハウルの動く城 2004 | dir. Hayao Miyazaki

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Howl’s Moving Castle  ハウルの動く城 (2004) Dir. Hayao Miyazaki

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shingeki no kyojin ➝ volume covers: 1 - 34 ✧･ﾟ

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here forever, rest peacefully— my most beloved, my dear.

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the end of an era.

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My thoughts on the final chapter of shingeki.

I just wanted to say that I liked the ending, but it could have been better. If we had two or three more chapters it would have been better because somethings could have been fleshed out more. Mostly, there should have been more focus on ymir's story. I had expected for quite some time now that she was attached to king fritz but it wasn't a well thought out opinion because it sounded wrong in so many ways. Basically, this plotpoint should have been explored more.

Second besides mikasa, I wasn't really impressed with the conclusion of any other character arcs. They were all just thrown together in one room and were given meaningless dialogues. I was really disappointed how Reiner's last thing in the story was sniffing a married woman's letter about genocide potentially being the answer to their problems. So, I can understand why some people are upset that their favourite character's were either used for a poor attempt at some sort of comical relief or just nothing. Still, I personally think besides reiner there really wasn't anything to add with the rest of the cast.

It also got me wondering what was the point of connecting Mikasa to hizuru? At first, I hoped it was at least hinted that she was going to have some sort of role with hizuru. But then I realized mikasa was never interested in political dealings and my girl already made the ultimate sacrifice and ended the titan curse. It was her who cured ymir's pain and in return helped cure the world of titan curse. She doesn't need to concern herself with war anymore. She should live peacefully, far away from all the mess. She already did her part, so yes thank you isayama from keeping her away from all of it. And we should know that mikasa would never ever have wanted to be celebrated for killing eren. She would never want to be remembered in history books as someone who killed eren. So isayama did good by her.

And she is not alone, the possibility of her joining the alliance is open, they are coming to paradise; mikasa tells eren. She looks healthy, well-dressed and peaceful.

People were also complaining about the story promoting genocide which I don't think is the case. I think the initial translations were off which gave the wrong impression. And some amazing meta writers have already addressed this topic and I don't think I can handle this subject matter well because it's a sensitive topic so I'd rather not.

I saw some eremika stans complaining why eren and mikasa didn't get a more positive ending compared to the rest of the cast. And I have only one thing to say to this, a story as tragic as snk wasn't going to give a happy ending to it's heroes. Listen I don't mean hero in the traditional sense when referring to eren. What I mean by hero in this context is that Mikasa and eren made a huge sacrifice to give others a chance towards a better outcome. Eren didnt want to die. He wanted to be with people he loved. He was scared. Mikasa didn't want to kill eren but she did because that was the right thing to do despite the fact that it was the most painful thing she ever had to do. Mikasa embodied courage, loyalty and moral integrity. Isayama did right by her.

And it has always been a tragic story. Eren is the one who gave paradise and his friends a chance at a better outcome and mikasa is the only one who could have assisted him in actualizing this goal.

Eren told armin, he didn't know what Mikasa would do. And that nobody knew why it was mikasa who could save ymir. But we reader's do, we know why it was her. Mikasa showed ymir that loving someone doesn't mean you have to enable their worst traits, love doesn't mean blind devotion. It doesn't mean that you have to compromise your morality and ideals.

It's been evident since the start of the story that mikasa has always been in love with eren, and she followed him everywhere because she wanted to protect him but also because eren had never done anything to give mikasa any chance to doubt his humanity. To mikasa , eren was a kind soul and he was. He was humanity's hope for a long time and mikasa admired that. She thought eren would never hurt anyone because why wouldn't she? Unlike, mikasa eren couldn't bring himself to fight annie even though she was the enemy and eren innocently admitted the importance of his friends. So, why would she not follow the man she loves who also happens to cherish her and his friends so much. Why would she not follow him when he also happened to be humanity's only hope.

Then things changed, eren went and killed innocent civilians and children and mikasa couldn't follow him anymore. No matter how much she loved him and that troubled her. She was struggling between her morality and her love for eren. This is why post-timeskip the focus of her arc was about learning to let her morality and love for eren co-exist. To be able to call him out on his actions despite still loving him wholeheartedly. To be able to decide what is right. To be able to separate love from blind devotion. To be able to love the person she loves for who is. To love eren for all of him, the good and the bad. To realize that she can't be selfish when it comes to eren. She can't let eren destroy every life outside the island just because she is selfish to lose him.

Mikasa made the ultimate sacrifice. Let her mourn. It's her beloved's third death anniversary. Let her grieve. But don't reduce her pain to not getting over eren. We don't ever get over our loved ones. We move on with life but we keep mourning them. We never forget them. Don't bash mikasa when she is mourning her beloved who she had to kill for everyone's sake. Please respect her pain. She is so strong for it. And she was never wrong about her eren. He continued to love his friends till the every end. He is just a broken child, a broken man. He is a mess, he is a horrible mess. The confusion between all those memories from past and future f*d him up in the head. Mikasa and his friends are not wrong in humanizing him because at the end eren wasn't the fanon chadren who enjoy killing people or hurting his friends. Like the meta writer linkspooky once noted, eren is a crying child.

Understand my dishearten eremika friends, that mikasa sacrificed eren/her love for the greater good. How can she get something that she already sacrificed because it wouldn't be a sacrifice then, would it? At least not in our world or isayama's world who enjoys nothing more than inflicting pain.

Let me tell you, you are not alone, I also wished these two had a happy ending. I wish they got to be together. But they just weren't meant to be. Even if they got together, eren would have died after 4 years. Mikasa would have been miserable because she would have eventually lost armin to the curse. She would have been hunted for her ackerman or hizuru blood. Warriors dead too, the eldians in the world would still be prosecuted. Parents would keep losing their children to the 13 year curse. Eldians would have continued to be used as weapons or just completely wiped out. So, at the end, it all came down to eren and mikasa. They could have never been happy abandoning their friends only to lose each other eventually.

I don't lie when I say that everytime I come across a panel from this chapter, I can't stop myself from crying. I haven't been successful in distracting myself at all. I really want to. But I thought letting some of it out might help. So here it is...

We are all in this together.

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for real, i loved eren this chapter. the dive into his emotions was so good. he’s human. exactly like ymir. he’s not a god or a devil, he’s just a person. he’s a teenager. he’s also eren jaeger—he’s reckless and hotheaded and shortsighted. in his last moments, he’s not really focused on his plans or whatever, he’s focused on his loved ones. in the end, without factoring in all the obstacles in the way, all eren actually wanted to do was see the world with armin and have a home with mikasa. so yeah, that’s what his focus was on. he didn’t want to die, even if he knew he deserved it. i’m really glad that the last we really saw of him was him being so human. he’s panicked and sad and selfish. he’s nineteen. let him regret that his life is ending the way it is.

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All in all, I’ll say that I’m satisfied with the way SNK ended.

What brought me to this fandom was the fact that all the characters seemed so human to me— There was no “I’m gonna die here like a hero for the sake of my comrades”; they died with fear, with thoughts of “why me?” and even when Carla was about to die and was glad that Hannes took her children away, she still muttered to herself “don’t go...” because who on earth really, REALLY wants to die alone and away from those who you love? I can say for a fact that I would have been heartbroken and would wish to have them with me at the very end.

Because that’s how we are, people. We are humans, and we are selfish and we cry and sometimes wish for things that we shouldn’t.

I have read a lot of people who said that Eren is toxic for not wanting Mikasa to move on—But I really needed to see him being human and just wanting the girl he loves to remind him.

(Disclaimer—I’m not a shipper of EM or whatever; I’m here for the story).

He did all of those things, terrible things, so that his friends could truly be free and happy while giving up the opportunity of himself being with the woman he loved; and you all are calling him a complete and utterly selfish person for thinking “I don’t want her to forget me and move on—I want her to keep loving me” ?

Of course that’s a thought that hurts; he gave up all of those things: happiness, love, friendship, honor, loyalty... And there was absolutely no recompense to him at all. (Yes, his friends are alive and free but I’m talking about his life directly).

I’m not excusing him. All those things were horrible and everyone can see that. None of it changes the fact that he ended up being the “evil” that ultimately brought them all together—But that’s the thing, isn’t it? He willingly took it upon himself just so he could grant them the “freedom” he desperately wanted.

The idea of Mikasa moving on with someone else, forgetting about him and just—leaving him (in a sense) all alone must have been really painful.

Just because someone wants to be “the bigger person” or “a good person” *Armin laughed in the background* doesn’t magically turns you into one and, in the end, what really matters is that when being for the last time with her, Eren said he wanted her to forget about him and move on. To live a long life and be happy.

He didn’t told her “please don’t forget about me, please keep loving me” ‘cause that would’ve been just wrong and Mikasa deserves to move on and be happy in the end; we all know that she would’ve been devoted to him (as always) had he said the word— He didn’t.

Let the poor guy have some selfish thoughts for once in the company and intimacy of his best friend, for gods sake.

There’s so much to say about this ending that doesn’t entirely revolves around Eren, but I just wanted to be somehow a defender of the principal reason I liked SNK in the first place.

We are selfish—even while we want to be all altruistic and “good”.

We are human.

Learn to live with it.

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Elisabeth Hewer, The Boy I Love Left Me for a Revolution

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Elisabeth Hewer, The Boy I Love Left Me for a Revolution

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how eren tells mikasa he loves her everyday

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Ever since I was a kid… Mikasa. I’ve always hated you.

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What Eren Wants

After all the mystery surrounding Eren’s true intentions, what Eren really wants in the final arc, this chapter lays it out quite clearly. Eren wants his friends to kill him. Not because he thinks it’s going to achieve some grand objective in a secret plan he’s had all along that requires he sacrifice his own life. I think Eren just wants to die. Suicidal ideation, is a symptom of a much bigger underlying problem, it’s a passive longing to die. More on this, and more on Eren under the cut. 

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「クソガキども…」

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are you Eren af ? [Levi ver.]

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Come here! Wait, wait! I have work! I have work to do! I don’t care. It’s our last day.