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[okapi-life]

It's been a month since I came back to Japan. I started taking medicine for anxiety and panic attacks. The medication works fortunately. But, what comes next is my dad may have lung cancer. I don't know why so many bad things happens in a row. Although this year is my worst year based on yakudoshi, I'm overwhelmed. Things happens to me are out of control!

[okapi-life]

I want to start blog in Japanese, but I don't think I can write regularly... My coworker in the different province contacted me that she may visit here in this winter. I wish I will be able to walk at that time.

[okapi-life]

These days, I finally started feeling missing my family and friends in my home country. I never felt like this the past 2 years.

I know it is because I kind of used to living here, and got bored about the same life every day.

Not going to work, not going to the downtown, not seeing my friends (although I don't have many...) make me sick of this life.

I'm happy that I can work from home because I've been injured. But "NO"! I need to comunicate with people in person... I felt 2 months of working from home opened my eyes that it was not as easy as I thought.

My partner has been supporting me so much and I feel sorry I'm stucked. But, I'm also jelous he can go work and do whatever because he is not injured..

My stress exploded a few weeks ago, and it was going to destroy our relationship. I'm still not sure if I became totally ok?

What I can say is that I need to recover as soon as possible. Otherwise, I'll be sick.

Just wait for spring quietly. Bear this winter that I hate...

[okapi-life]

I called CRA. I waited for 2 hours and nothing was resolved... My two hours...

[okapi-life]

I guess my work permit was approved. I can stay in Canada for another one year. I am sure Canada calls me...

[okapi-life]

When you start something new, after preparing for that new thing, you somehow are satisfied with it.

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I bought yarn and a nitting needle, and I'm satisfied before making something.

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I'm getting bored staying all day every weekends. What I only know killing my time is cooking or baking. I feel I need more varieties how to spend my time except excersizing. So far, I'm thinking about knitting a scarf for my partner. I'm doing grandma things...

[okapi-life]

I'm afraid of working next week as one of my coworkers is going to take a vacation. It was scheduled before I injured. I need to take over her work during her absense😔 I'm not sure I can handle it. The timing of my injury sucks!

[okapi-life]

It's not my day today.

1. I puked and had a diarrhea this morning.

2. I started working 1 hour early because I misunderstood the working hours.

3. The power outage happened after I started working.

4. I cannot cook anything due to the fact that gas and electricity has stopped.

5. I only have soggy biscuits and sunflower seeds to eat.

6. The condo doesn't have emergency power, so the building is pitch-dark and the elevator is also not working I guess.

7. I can't use stairs because it's dangerous for me to go down and up with my crutch.

8. I can't order delivery food since I can't open the entrance door from my unit, so I need to go downstairs to pick up.

9. My boyfriend is coming home late today.

10. It's been 4 hours since the outage started...

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[okapi-life]

Sad to say, I got injured my leg. This is my first time I got ruptured my achilles tendon.

Looking back, I felt a little pain on the achilles when I wore a sock before going to the gym. I guess it was the sign... but I didn't realize and I thought it was a pressure from the sock which I don't usually wear. I'm frustrated everyday as I feel useless. I'm depending on my partner a lot.

I wish my family was in Canada. I could ask them for help...

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I've been having insomnia for the past weeks. The nights I can't sleep are always before a new week. Sunday nights are long for me these days. I hope I will be able to fall a sleep easily tonight😐

[okapi-life]

I'm going to start writing my diary in English!