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My Lauren

There’s nowhere I can post this where you’ll see, so I guess lll post it here. I think about you all the time and miss you everyday. I wonder constantly why I wasn’t important enough to you to keep in your life. Some days I want to message you so badly, to see if you still care, but I hold myself back. You hurt me too many times to try and go back. I try to only remember the good memories; there are so many. I always pray for your happiness. I will always love you, Lauren.

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It’s been 4 months since I have had any help with the children from their dad. It’s safe to say I’m losing my god damned mind. I’m so empty, there’s nothing left of me to give.

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Summer house | by “Katarina 2353 on Flickr”

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“I’m fighting myself. I know I am. One minute I want to remember. The next minute I want to live in the land of forgetting. One minute I want to feel. The next minute I never want to feel ever again.”

— Benjamin Alire Sáenz, Last Night I Sang to the Monster (via wordsnquotes)

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foggy mornings in the Inverness

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It’s like a fog has cleared.

I don’t know why I ever spent one day crying over you. For you surely never cried over my absence in your life.

You’re pathetic and the only good thing that ever came of you is my children.

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I thought I loved you; it was just how you looked in the light.

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