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Sylvia -

I knew what you meant when you talked about swimming in the ocean and leaving your patent leather black shoes pointed towards it while you swam

It tickled you to leave them there

It was the thought of a young child or of a lost fairy

It reminded me of who I am

That's why I'm now at this facility by the ocean

& why I go barefoot and why I go calmly

Why I leave my shoes up by the stairway

I do it for you, and I do it for me

Because having learned from others and from you,

I learned there was a missing piece to finding existential calmness and domestic bliss to lead to peace

You see, you cant fall in love with a man like Ted or a musician who sings about being free

A woodworker doesn't a good man make if he wants his work to be on TV

You have to separate the wheat from the chaff

You have to be discerning

It takes diligence, consequence, and other things to keep that sea from churning

& to keep yourself from longing to let those painted waves take you under

It isn't just the water black that makes the body plunder from high sea cliffs

I know, my dear, I wish that I had been here or there

I wish that you were here now if you're not now because who knows how these things work?

Sylvia, Marilyn, Violet, Diana

All of my kind women who came before me, blonde

I dyed my hair black for you

I turned my back on that black pond

I swear I wont stop 'til I'm dead

& here I am at 34, and what for?

To bring my pair of baby patent leather shoes to turn them the other way

Towards the sea cliff stairs, not at the ocean

To bring them back up safe to the facility instead

& I think of you as I walk to the 280 wooden steps dynamited into the cliffs 100 years before

I let myself into room 2 and got undressed

I was sunburnt

Contemplative and sore

& as I fell asleep by Gabapentin

I lay my head on the pillow

& stretched my hand out on the cool white linen and sang you a lemon melody

I kept the shoes on the sill by the window seat in case you got restless and wanted to leave

& I hugged you with my baby's breath and sang your spirit to bed

The way I would have if you were my child or if I had children

My Queen Anne's lace heart weightless on your little head

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It’s kind of dumb, but I want to talk to you all the time. Like, all the time. Which is annoying and needy and very unrealistic, because you have a life outside of our audio messages and sporadic phone calls. But I wanna talk to you. I want you to talk to me. I want your mouth to run a mile a minute and make me laugh until I’m crying. You’re always so good at that. You’re my best friend, my confidant, possibly my world. So we won’t make out in the back of taxis. As long as you hold my hand through crowds and send me another voice memo the next morning, I’ll be okay. Because I wanna talk to you. And I want you to talk to me. And you’re my best friend. And I love you. (In case that wasn’t obvious.)

“and maybe you’re my soulmate or something”

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"you should have a look" 🪁

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As promised, old Panic! for you :) Thank you so much for 1.8k followers

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To the end.

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Fever Era Ryan being the cutest ♥️

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tyler dedicating can’t help falling in love to josh (x)

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Okay but have you considered THESE for your OTP:

Who steals the whole fucking blanket in the middle of the night and leaves the other without any?

Which one is always stubbing their toe and screaming about it?

Who crashed a car and made the other pick them up at 3AM?

Which one is the lightweight that needs to be watched over at all costs?

Which one likes to get up in the middle of the night and (loudly) make themselves a snack?

Who is always suggesting they get another pet?

Who drinks straight up black coffee and teases the other for their overly-flavored Starbucks?

Which one insists upon buying unheard-of health foods?

Which one would run through a busy street just to pet a small dog?

Which one always mispronounces words and gets constantly corrected by the other for it?

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why is it so hard for people to believe and understand that, sometimes, mentally ill people will act mentally ill

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[grabs u by the nostrils]

[slams u into the table] what the FUCK did u just say about ryan ross

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Reblog with one word or phrase only a Ryden shipper would understand...

I’ll start

“I miss your skin”

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just guys being dudes (x)

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SØ READY

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u know that one girl from ur school who posts those emo quotes on black backgrounds that say some shit like “sometimes, you gotta pretend you’re ok” in that handwriting font and then likes it right after they post it…..thats ryan ross

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I’M JUST BEING DRAMATIC