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ISO Discord Recs for 1x1 M/M

I've been poking around Discord Servers for places to find rp writing buddies. I've been finding *all-ages spaces where nsfw isn't welcome (I'm 25+! I want grown-up spaces!) *erp spaces where people are looking for... something a bit *more* than a fun smutty story *one maybe-place where they wanted a selfie of me for age-verification, which... nooooo

Anyone have any servers they like for finding writing-friends for low-key slashy smut?

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When I was a kid, maybe 14 or so (which is, you know, 20+ years ago), I belonged to a Yahoo! mailing list for an anime called Gundam Wing. It was mostly populated by other teens, of varying ages, as it was started by a teen and her friends. Eventually it migrated, when Yahoo! groups started as forums, and even branched off into non-GW related stuff in a second forum.

One of the things I remember the most clearly is the oldest person in the group. Her name was Steelsong. She was a 40-something Dom with a sub whose name we knew even though we knew nothing else. She ran her own fanfic archive because the web was still handmade HTML and navigated in webrings and I’m pretty sure Google didn’t exist or was only barely, barely launched and not well known. She was kind and patient and we loved her. She treated everyone on the group with the respect given any adult, even though most of the rest of the world was still treating us like we were children. Not teenagers even, but children. She never once condescended to any of us, never made our youth a barrier to her respect, never treated us like we were incapable of being full people or like we were less than her because we were young.

I remember that she hosted our fanfiction, as absolutely terrible as it was (and I still have some of it, I am WELL aware of how cringingly terrible it is, just absolute nonsense garbage), right there alongside of other fic that was soul-achingly beautiful. Not a separate section for her friends or for kids, just right there like we were good enough to feature alongside other authors. I never once received crit from her that I didn’t ask for, only support. Only love. I am still writing today partly because Steel was so kind about our fic, fanfic and original.

I remember that when I started doing clay sculpture, she commissioned a tiny pair of dragons from me, to support me doing artwork. She sent a check my mom cashed for me, and my mom helped me mail it when it was finished. It broke in transit, and Steel assured me that she mended it and that it was still beautiful. It was a small gold dragon curled up with a small silver dragon.

I remember that her patience knew no bounds. I remember that she was there for us, regardless of reason. When we wanted to know silly things like what to do with a single AA battery, she answered. When we had serious questions about sex, she answered.  When we had questions about writing, she taught us. When one of our group members, a young gay teen in Australia, ended up in the hospital and then stopped making posts, and we all knew what had happened, she let us talk to her about it because we couldn’t go to our own parents, even though we had just lost a friend.

She was not a replacement to my parents, but she was an extra parent, in some ways. A friend, certainly, but someone that had been through more life than we had and was willing to pass on knowledge if we asked for it. Someone older that we trusted with things that were too uncomfortable to go to our parents or teachers or whatever about, because we already knew she wasn’t going to judge us or something, and that we would get an honest answer.

I don’t know why I’m remembering this so hard tonight, and I’m not sure if there’s a point to sharing this, except that I know she’s gone now. She was ill the last time we spoke, and her site went down a long time ago, and I miss her. She was a huge influence on my life, then and now. She was hope, for me, that life as an adult didn’t have to be boring, it wouldn’t have to mean giving up the things I loved and Becoming Only Responsible With No Fun. Her presence meant I had hope I could still write and play with friends even when I wasn’t ‘a kid’ anymore. And she’s gone, and I miss her, and I wanted to share her from the perspective of youth, and the perspective over twenty years later has provided me.

And I think of her, when people go off about older folks being in fandom with younger folks. I’m an older folks now, or at least middle aged folks because there are certainly folks older than me still, but I wasn’t always. I’ve been here since i was a younger folks, and I know how much Steel’s presence and support meant to me, how much she helped not just me but everyone on that group. And I think of the people saying older folks don’t belong in fandom, and that they shouldn’t interact with younger folks at all, and I just think… I can’t agree. I needed that kind of solid presence in my life back then and even at the age I am now, I need the folks older than me to stay. I want them here.

So I guess, like, if you’re here and you’re 40 or 50 or 60 or 70 or 80 or whatever, I want you here in fandom with me, still. Your presence here is a comfort. It is hope. It is a reminder that life will continue to be fun, even as I get older, myself. And if you’re younger and you have this sort of elder in your groups, I hope that they are like Steel. I hope they are kind and patient and supportive, and that knowing them gives you hope for your own future. I hope in twenty years you look back and remember them fondly.

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Watching a youtube video and some well-intentioned Brits are saying "I know the US has an entirely privatized healthcare system, but what do people do if there's an emergency? Like for dental work? Obviously there should be a--" No, honey. There isn't. If you can't afford dental, you just don't get dental work done. The closest is like… ACA/Medicaid insurance and that's it.

"I'm very much hoping that they don't just turn people away" they do

They did find "it looks like people can get help but they're landed with a big bill that has massive debt or tax implications"

Which like. Yeah. Medical debt is a fact of life in the US.

They are aware of their privilege, but even trying to account for it they need the internet's help to realize it's just. Debt or Death.

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IT IS TIME to unleash another EDEN ADVENTURE.

“Too Fast”

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so proud I could screaming😭🩷✨

• Together in the South Downs • [finished]

I'm like... absolutely tickety-boo!🥹

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this tweet really is fascinating to me. cis women feel so worried for trans boys they will…. wait outside a bathroom. that two young teenagers are using. so worried for them that she would DO said creepy behavior so someone else doesn’t do it, but maliciously.

the kids were fine. they used the bathroom as intended and left. not only do i dislike the implication that two trans kids, kids often perceived as gnc, would be safer in a womens bathroom but also the way she felt so comfortable watching two kids in the bathroom in the name of protecting them. she’s right, it is lunatic behavior!

i would be terrified if knowing that out in public, i could do something as simple as use the bathroom, and some older woman i dont know would watch me in the name of safety. that does not make me feel safe and it worried me more because i am not 13. can you imagine being watched and having no idea, AND youre a fucking middle schooler? that isnt even like “looking out for local kids” its just creepy. jesus.

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sometimes nepotism gives us gems like Taika Waititi dressed as a pirate calling his children urchins and giving them knives

and my personal favourite, Ty Tennant flirting with Michael Sheen in front of his dad

this is the nepotism I want to see more of.

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@staff @humans

You know, as another user said, even 4chan is at least able to tell people why they were banned/ had their accounts deleted. No one can possibly appeal if you don’t tell them why. But maybe thats why you don’t list a reason.

Many trans women have been banned with no official answer given. Idk if I were running a website that the community hates the moderation and team for constantly banning and deleting the blogs of trans women I would , at minimum, be a little more transparent about why they were banned.

It’s very clear that trans woman are held to an impossible standard that the rest of the website isn’t. Trans woman are our fellow bloggers, friends, lovers and family. You’re actively alienating the few people who actually use this website anymore. This is a pattern of behavior and targeted attacks.

Trans women get banned for no reason but you can’t do anything about @nyancrimew getting rape threats? It is on its own there???????

There is a double standard where trans women are held to an impossible standard you’re able to shut their blogs down for no reason but apparently you’re powerless to do anything about actual hate crimes on this website.

Date posted: June 13th, 2024. For reference in case I get banned like I’ve seen other people instantly banned for speaking out.

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Most of my "recipes" are "Stuff in soup" or "Stuff with noodles" or "Stuff with potatoes" or "Stuff with an egg on top"

When you’ve been cooking for long enough, you stop making recipes and start making “shit in a skillet” and “whatever soup”

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the extent that i would be at emo night at sneaky dees every single weekend is crazy. you would think i was canadian.

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Nigel Farage got milkshaked again, what a time to be alive

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You know what breaks me?

Edwin tried to deliver his confession in a collected manner at first.

"as more than a friend I'm afraid" he says like he could be saying "oh no, it's raining I'm afraid". He wants Charles to know but I think he's also trying to downplaying it a bit because he's afraid of ruining things with his best friend.

And then

his voice fucking breaks while he says "I'm in love with you" and it's not just the weight of the words, he's scared. His voice waivers and the word love comes out like a whisper almost because of all the feelings and the fear he was trying to reign in.

He tried to be the collected one for Charles but he couldn't in the end because he's just a teenage boy in love with his best friend of 30 years and he's scared he's going to lose the only person he ever allowed himself to love. And you can actually see the fear in his eyes, hear it in his voice too

Also the fact that Charles compares them to Orpheus and Eurydice. CAN WE ADDRESS THIS?

Can we address the fact that like in the original myth it was love that made Orpheus turn around and it was love that made Charles turn around too? When Edwin stops them to talk he's almost turning around again and it is when Edwin says "I love you" that he, of course, whips his head around.

I like to think (because I do not want to think about other sceneries) that much like Orpheus loses Eurydice in that moment, so does charles with Edwin. In that moment he loses the old Edwin and welcomes the new one, the one who's not afraid to speak up and talk about his feelings, the one who can kiss the cat king on his cheek while admitting that he too is lonely like him. I like to think that in a way, to put an end to those endless deaths he faced in hell Edwin truly had to be reborn. I think he really needed to face himself, all his selves (the sexuality he had hidden to his own self, his loneliness, his despair), all the hidden parts in the words of the cat king in order to be able close hell's door once and for all.

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JK Rowling is trying to sue people for sharing a screenshot of this tweet that she liked where somebody defends the Taliban.

Now I'm only showing this so people know what not to share. Please spread around the fact that JK Rowling doesn't want that screenshot to be shared so people know not to share it!

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ISO 1x1 MxM RP

Anyone want to write smutty m/m rp together on Discord?

Things I like: Dubcon (seduction, sex pollen, fuck or die, blackmail) Over the Top Settings (superheroes, magic boys, they're inside a video game, someone pissed off a supernatural entity) Two is Good, Three is Better, More for Four (2 on 1, gangbang, one orchestrating)

Kinks and Hard Stop:

Yes, please- Dom/sub, deep throating, spitroasting, double penetration, face-fucking, gangbang, desperation, public sex, cock-warming, toys, object insertion, voyeurism. Will do dub-con, non-con.

No, thank you- underage, celebs, incest, vore, watersports, daddy kink (Also, if your character just lays there and doesn’t contribute anything to the scene, that gets boring fast...)

21+ only please!

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Bored and in need of smut! Come entertain me!

Looking for a writing partner for Discord. Combination plot and smut if I can get it (m/m only please).  21+ only please. Below are some details so you know if we’re looking for the same thing. Reply if you’re interested and I’ll set up a discord for us to chat. (Keep in mind, work means some days I’ll be around for a lot of back and forth, and some days I’ll just write once.)

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Looking for a writing partner for Discord. Combination plot and smut if I can get it (m/m only please).  21+ only please. Below are some details so you know if we’re looking for the same thing. Reply if you’re interested and I’ll set up a discord for us to chat. (Keep in mind, work means some days I’ll be around for a lot of back and forth, and some days I’ll just write once.)

Some plots for consideration:

The Lost World A has discovered someplace new, exciting, and impossible. He gathers up his staff, but at the last minute B is tagged to come instead. B, naturally, has his own agenda. And, of course, in the Lost Word, things are going to go terribly wrong, leaving A and B relying on one another. The Quest A and B aren’t friends. Not even friendly acquaintances. One day they get the call, some higher power telling them there are artifacts they need to find and gather/disperse. Now they need to team up and save the world.  

The Prize

(Idea entirely lifted from a dirty manga...) The general premise: character A creates a useful commodity when he cries emotional tears; character B finds out and is going to take advantage. (Bonus points if this is the B plot and they’re both caught in the middle of a larger A plot.)

Kinks and Hard Stop:

Yes, please- Dom/sub, deep throating, spitroasting, double penetration, face-fucking, gangbang, desperation, public sex, cock-warming, toys, object insertion, voyeurism. Will do dub-con, non-con.

No, thank you- underage, celebs, incest, vore, watersports, daddy kink (Also, if your character just lays there and doesn’t contribute anything to the scene, that gets boring fast...)