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Studying ref

a general reference for different subjects that i’m making for myself, but feel free to add something if you want. most of them are for cie/high school students, but (*) ones do have some fun stuff like logic riddles and quantum mechanics

Regarding if any of these sources contain AP topics or not is something I won’t be able to verify since I’m not in the American schooling system, but I’ll list any AP courses I can find.

this list contains physics, biology, chemistry, world history, US history, big history,art history, computing + coding + intellectual property, mathematics, economics, US government and political structure, ecology, music, psychology, animation (2D and 3D), resources for SATs and CIEs, and some language basics and a bit of literature

notes; -crash course physics (as of writing this) is still in the process of being uploaded -crash course philosophy (as of writing this) is still in the process of being uploaded -topics with an asterisk (*) may or may not be complete courses, they’re just some really cool sources of info if you have spare time. -some of these courses like astrology or ecology could come under larger topics like physics or biology, however for the sake of convenience i haven’t added them under those topics -history has been categorized separately even though it comes under humanities since it is a very broad term and there are many sub categories in it -im not exactly sure where things like intellectual property go since they come under multiple topics, so they have been added into a bunch of categories, sorry if it causes confusion. -honestly i just wanted to add ballet since i love ballet oops

STEM SUBJECTS

science fields explained NOVA labs

Physics crash course physics (includes physics AP 1 and 2)  khan academy  (AP 1)   (AP 2) minute physics * veritasium * vsauce * breakthrough junior challenge * (2015) scishow - the fundamental forces of physics * scishow physics * kurzgesagt - in a nutshell * (nuclear energy) MIT+K12 experiments (and some more!) Electrical engineering  32 fouettes  - TED ED

Biology crash course biology  crash course physiology and anatomy khan academy (human and plant) Breakthrough junior challenge * (2015) scishow biology * kurzgesagt - in a nutshell * kurzgesagt - in a nutshell * (immune system and viruses)   MIT+K12 experiments 

Chemistry crash course chemistry (organic and inorganic) (may contain AP 1 and 2 topics) scishow chemistry * khan academy (includes chemistry AP 1 and 2) (organic chemistry) kurzgesagt - in a nutshell * (nuclear energy) MIT+K12 experiments

Mathematics Khan academy (literally cover anything from addition to engineering) Breakthrough junior challenge * (2015) vsauce (some really fun logic riddles and paradoxes) 

Computing Khan academy computer sciences Khan academy programming (languagues: Javascript, ProcessingJS, HTML, CSS etc) CODE.org - How does the internet work? * crash course intellectual property Algorithms Hour of code - Khan academy Space, Cosmology and Astrology crash course astronomy Khan academy scishow astrophysics/space * scishow space * kurzgesagt - in a nutshell * (and some bonus stuff) NASA and Khan academy - space

ARTS AND HUMANITIES

Philosophy Crash course philosophy Kurzgesagt – In a Nutshell * (putting things in perspective) wi-phi’s philosphy intro course history of philosophy Who am I? - TED ED

Economics Microeconomics (Khan academy) (include AP courses) Macroeconomics (Khan academy) (include AP courses) Entrepreneurship (Khan academy)  Finance and capital markets (khan academy) Crash course economics kurzgesagt - in a nutshell * (technology and society) crash course intellectual property Sound/Music How to read music - TED ED * visualizing rythmn - TED ED * Khan academy

English Language and Literature Khan academy - english basics * Crash course literature *

Politics Crash course politics and US government crash course intellectual property

Animation Pixar+Khan academy 3D animation TED ED - 2D animation basics Khan academy - programming and animtion in JS *

Ecology Crash course ecology MinuteEarth *

Psychology Crash course psychology Khan academy mental health MCAT  MCAT behaviour

Ballet The Royal Opera House Evolution of ballet class 32 fouettes - TED ED origins - TED ED swan lake en pointe recreating a tutu (another one) omg this

History

Art History (AP topics are covered) Art history basics (khan academy)  Prehistoric art (khan academy) Ancient art civilizations (khan academy) Medieval world (khan academy)  Islamic world (khan academy) Renaissance (khan academy)  Rocco, Baroque and neoclassical (khan academy) American art (khan academy) 19 century Europe (khan academy) Expressionism to pop art (khan academy) Global culture (khan academy) Asian art (khan academy) Art of Africa (khan academy) Art of Oceania (khan academy) teaching resources AP art history exam prep

World and US History History of japan * Crash course world history 1 crash course world history 2 crash course US history  khan academy US history Khan academy world history

Big History Khan academy and the Big History Porject Crash course Big History

EXAM HELP

college admission

SATs Resource 1 - Khan academy (JAN 2016) Khan academy official SAT practice 

Misc MCAT  CAHSEE NCLEX-RN IIT JEE GMAT AP art history exam prep

CIE and A Levels Cambridge study list Interactive exam papers A Level study list redspot O level papers (i’m not sure where they ship to, but they are VERY cheap) redspot A level papers (i’m not sure where they ship to, but they are VERY cheap)

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Calming masterpost:

crisis/urgent support lines and sites

hotlines/crisis lines for depression, domestic abuse, alcohol and drug abuse, teens, pregnancy, lgbt and more

mental support community - a forum where you can post that you are in a crisis right now and need peer support as soon as possible

imalive crisis chat - online one-on-one chat for if you’re in at risk of hurting yourself etc

self harm alternatives

si urges alternatives

relaxation/anxiety relief

do nothing for two minutes

interactive silk art

guided relaxation

watch a dream

100,000 stars

thisissand - create sandscapes on your screen with your mouse

calming gif

the quiet place project

the quiet place - find some quiet

the thoughts room - a super calm page to unburden yourself from bad thoughts

the comfort spot - a place for anonymous venting with out anybody judging you for who you are

the dawn room - my personal favourite, especially good for when you feel alone

know that it will be okay - when a moment is too hard for you - come here.

music and sounds

my anxiety relief playlist - on 8tracks

my positivity/recovery playlist - on 8tracks

‘stay strong’ playlists - on 8tracks

coffee shop sounds

rain sounds

calmsound - nature sounds

rainycafe

comfort food

one minute cookie in a mug

brownie in a mug

several cookie recipes

25 hot chocolate recipes

loads and loads of snacks - 533 quick and easy recipes for a range of snacks on studentrecipe

lots of different in-a-mug recipes

chocolate pudding in a mug - my personal fave (lil tip: add mini marshmallows for extra gooey yumminess)

advice and tips

how to be okay with yourself

25 resolutions

life hacks

more life hacks

a hella ton more life hacks - so many life hacks dude soon ur gonna never have a day-to-day stress again

school masterpost - school sucks so bad but hopefully this can help ease the stress

how to love yourself

how to bypass restricted wifi omg

alleviate menstrual cramps

boost your confidence

love yourself!

self help after anxiety

stop biting your nails

stop procrastinating

stop skipping breakfast

videos and movies

cure to sadness (video)

the movie blog - a blog dedicated to movie masterposts you will never be without a movie to watch again

cute roulette - THE BEST PLACE ON THE INTERNET ITS LITERALLY JUST A HUGE ROULETTE OF VIDEOS OF CUTE ANIMALS WHAT MORE COULD YOU WANT FROM LIFE

random acts of kindness caught on film

disney movies

movies for angsty teens

distractions etc

rice questions - answer simple questions and donate free rice to people in poverty!!

click to give - just click a button to donate (it costs nothing) food to animals shelters, people in poverty and homeless veterans; mammograms to fight breast cancer; therapy for people on the autism spectrum; alzheimer’s and diabetes research; a book to a child; protect wildlife habitat

break something - good for anger

loads of cute games

how to make a blanket nest

learn something new - a masterpost of hobbies

exercise like a superhero

nice words

things to do when your sad

slap a bald guy with an eel - this is ridiculously entertaining

watch a dog lick your screen - it loops, so you could literally watch for hours if you want

calmingmanatee

daily puppy

how to make a comfort box

download free books

extras

emergency compliment!

lots of compliments - they even include ur name aw

huge list of bloggers who have put themselves forward as willing to listen/chat without judgement

getting anon hate?

:) tag - all the posts that i’ve tagged for making me happy

7cupsoftea - free, anonymous, confidential talks with trained listeners

get a hug

Calming songs, playlists and instrumentals:

Sing Me to Sleep

The Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Boost your Mood (peppier and happy songs)

The Driving Mixtape

Study

Summer Nights

It’s Going to be Fine

Calm & Collected

Once Upon a December - Piano (song)

Clair de Lune (song)

The Moon is a Harsh Mistress (song)

Calming/distracting Websites

The Quiet Place

Rainymood.com

Calm.com

Soundrown.com - calming sounds to mix and match

A website to distract yourself

A recovery masterpost

A post of interesting things

Ungruntle yourself

Press a magic button and fix everything

Play cute games

Almost every movie your little heart desires (i suggest you use with adblocker)

How to love yourself

A website that compliments you

Crafts and activities, easy and fun DYI projects

Glitter calm jars

A list of things to do to curb anxiety

Make a blanket nest

Silky summer legs

Lots of food recipes; mostly desserts  

For bad days masterpost

Make some microwave snacks

Five minute fudge

Make a phone case

A bunch of hobbies!

Self care list!

Pretty gold-dipped feathers (for decorating or anything)

What to do when:

You’ve been triggered

You’re having an anxiety attack

You’re having a panic attack

Your face is red and puffy after crying

You just had a fight

You hate yourself

You want to avoid being stressed

You want to get over your ex

Meditation and breathing

Guided Meditations

Do Nothing for 2 Minutes

Calm Down

Meditation Tips

90 second relaxation exercise

Simple things

Pretty Tree

When You Feel You Have Lost Everything

See Some BLOOD

Press a Button to Make Everything OK

Calming Manatee

Calming Gif

Make Something!

Jump into a Sofa Fort!

Make a Comfort Box

Glitter Jar Or This One

Other Nice Things

A Page To Help You Recover!!!

Coping Skills & Distractions

The Quiet Place. Shhhhh

For When You’re Upset

The Nicest Place on the Internet

Player 2

10 Most Relaxing Online Games

Talk To Someone That Will Listen

Not Having a Good Day?

How-to Love Yourself

Ground Yourself X X  X

Mood Chart

Do Nothing For Two Minutes

Rainymood

The Comfort Spot

Weave Silk

Seed Plant Breeder

This Is Sand

C.A.L.M

Calming/Relaxing Music:

Soft Piano: x, x, x, x, x

The Sound of Waves: x

The Sound of a Storm + Waves: x

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Aww...I'm sorry, mouse lady. I'm just....I'm in a bad place. We need to get me out together.

in my head theres a little mouse wearing a little apron and she makes all my emotions

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my favorite picture ever is the one that says “HELL IS FULL, BITCH” and then it has the national suicide prevention hotline on it. it makes me smile every time 

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I don’t understand why anyone would want something like depression or anxiety like I have. Depression’s not “sad woobie emo gorl who SHs and yet everyone loves her.” Anxiety’s not “shy uwu girl who’s so precious must protecc uwu.”

Depression is waking up and yet never feeling fully rested.

Depression is SH-ing and feeling like you have to hide your injuries because people will think you’re just seeking attention.

Depression is suddenly just feeling numb.

Depression is struggling to even just get out of bed somedays.

Depression is constantly feeling lethargic or the exact opposite.

Depression is feeling like you’re just bringing down other people because you can’t just “think positive.”

Anxiety is freezing up in the middle of class when the teacher calls on you out of nowhere.

Anxiety is panicking at even the smallest things and rushing around to find the meds for your anxiety attacks.

Anxiety is feeling like you’re always on high alert, like your fight-or-flight response can’t be turned off.

Anxiety is having an inexplainable itch during an anxiety attack and scratching so hard that it breaks the skin.

Anxiety is a fuckton of thoughts rushing through your mind, thoughts that feel out of control.

Anxiety is panicking out of nowhere.

Anxiety is the fear that people are always judging you, even if the logical part of your brain knows that everyone else is worried about the same thing for themselves.

Just to name a few.

How is that something anyone would want?

i really don’t understand people who WANT mental illnesses. as someone who struggles with mental illness a lot i can assure you it is horrible and it is ugly. social media (especially tumblr if i’m completely honest) romanticises mental illness so much that it is viewed as desirable, and anyone who actively struggles with any mental health issues would tell you it isn’t anything like how social media portrays it and it ruins your life.

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No doctor will ever get my respect like the woman in the ER who checked me for claws and fangs because I told her I was turning into a werewolf and could feel it and let me know gently that she couldn't find any but that didnt make it feel any less real, like THATS how you do it, other doctors who just flat out told me I was wrong take notes

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If anything reminds you of your abuse, or feels familiar to the past emotional abuse you experienced, YOU HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO LEAVE. You are not crazy, you are not deluded, and you are not making things up in your mind–if anyone feels like what you have experienced before, you are accurately picking up on abusive qualities in the other person… just as if you know what fire feels like, because you were burned by fire in the past. If you begin to feel scorching heat while with another, please know that you are not imagining things. Tell yourself that you deserved better before, and you still deserve better now. TRUST YOUR FEELINGS AND LEAVE. 

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don’t forgive abuse. don’t let anyone believe abuse is forgivable.

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I’d like to, but they keep popping back into my head.

You can let go of them now, it’s okay.

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"Think of all the things I've done for you."

She only said it once, but it's been almost five years and it's still there.

abused kid culture is that one line™ your abuser said to you that’s now seared into your memory like a burn wound scar

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I don't know if I am, but I am trying.

reblog if you’re just trying to do your best

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I've said at least 13 of these or some variation of them at one point or another, or still do.

things abuse survivors think/say

maybe my trauma wasn’t bad enough

maybe what happened was just my fault??

but what if I can’t hold that person accountable? what if they meant well

what if I don’t have the right to be angry?

but what if they didn’t know they were hurting me? maybe its my fault for not saying it

it’s my fault, i’ve always been hiding how badly things hurt me

i’m just weak and pathetic and everything hurts me it’s not their fault i’m like this

hey this this thing actually happen or did i make that up

if i ask abuser they’ll tell me i made it up that must be true they do say i’m delusional

maybe if I’ve done something differently this wouldn’t have happened

guilt guilt guilt guilt

what if abuser is right tho? what if they’re telling the truth and it’s okay to tell it in insults then?

i’m garbage, i knew it

yeah everyone deserves compassion and comfort but me? no.

I am the sole person who is just bad enough to deserve everything that has happened to me

no this person didn’t mean to hurt my feelings i’m just too sensitive!!!

maybe someone else wouldn’t be hurt by this, this means its my fault

i hate myself

how long until everyone realizes i’m just a fake and there’s nothing valuable inside of me

yeah they like me now but i’m going to fuck it up and they’ll hate me like everyone else

was that abuse? no it can’t be. its my fault. if I wasn’t the way I am it wouldn’t have happened

everything people do to me is just what I deserved

what this person is doing bothers me so I have to try harder not to be bothered by it

this person is wrong but everyone believes them so it must be okay

yeah they hate me but i don’t want them to leave me maybe i can get them to hate me less

yeah this person is hurting me but i still need them in my life maybe if i change myself

it doesn’t matter if they hurt me, i’m used to it

what if everyone abandons me and I die alone

this person scares me but I can’t let that affect me

I shouldn’t be feeling this way, I need to get over my feelings

I can’t let anyone notice how I feel or they will hate me

how does everyone just stay calm? why can’t I do that

I’m a burden on everyone, I bet they’d all be happier if I wasn’t there

if I disappeared right now wouldn’t everything be better?

*these are not truths, this is after-effect of long term abuse

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I went to NYC with these girls who I thought were my friends. I spent so much money on them the last night I was there, all I got myself was a Disney princess tiara. (Of Rapunzel. Probably should've taken that as a red flag) And all I got as a thanks was them letting me be in a snapchat pic with them, as if to say "hey, you got us shit, so you can be seen with us outside of school."

how to tell if your “friend” is not being a friend:

every time you talk about a problem, you have to spend time convincing them it’s a real problem

you have to convince them that your feelings are real and justified 

you have to explain to them, more than once, to stop saying things that genuinely make you feel awful

you have to be understanding of their point of view entire time, but that doesn’t work both ways, they don’t do it back

you have to be understanding to the point where you accept that they wont ever see your point of view

if your problems make them uncomfortable you have to stop talking

they compete with you and try to prove you that their situation is worse no matter what you struggle with

they try to convince you to get over yourself and to not think of yourself too highly

they make you feel like your opinions, actions or emotions are stupid, and like you should be ashamed for expressing anything to anyone

they pick up on your vulnerabilities then use them against you in critical times

they say things they know will hurt you, to get to you

they hurt you to prove their point and think it’s legit reason to cause you pain

they talk down to you, act as if you’re not capable of making good decisions, scare you into not doing as you wanted, make you feel inadequate and inexperienced in comparison to them

they don’t care if they tire you out with their problems

they don’t care if you’ve already given them more than you comfortably can give

they don’t find you worthy of their compassion and care

they don’t think you’ve deserved their attention or admiration

they neglect you and then come back to you when they need you

they act as if it’s normal for you to spend much more energy and time on them than they do in return

they expect unlimited compassion, kindness, energy, time and care from you, and act as if it’s the least you could do for them

they don’t even consider going that length in return

if they forget, even for a second, that you’re a human being

they’re not to be trusted.

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Reason to Live #3800

  To find a stray cat and pet it. – Guest Submission

(Please don’t add negative comments to these posts.)

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this is the Bun of Spoons. reblog to share in her magics of abundant spoons.

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Reblog if you want anyone considering suicide tonight to know that they are loved, cared for, and so valuable.