I don’t know who needs to hear this today, but intrusive thoughts are basically your brain’s (sometimes very upsetting) way of saying “If there were two guys on the moon and one of them killed the other with a rock would that be fucked up or what?”
I’ve personally found that adding the “would that be fucked or what?” part in myself really helps put the more disturbing thoughts we sometimes get into perspective. Helps me say “yeah thar sure would be fucked up” and move on with my day.
It’s not not a secret desire, it’s not something that only occurs to you because you’re a bad person. It’s just your brain deciding to process the fact that it knows an uncomfortable thing exists in the world by feeding it to you in an absurd “what if” with you as the main character.
So ages ago, I had a strange glitch where, on completing a tenant quest to rescue the tenant's friend, the friend didn't follow me back to the colony and got stuck in the mine where I rescued them. Then that one requested I save their friend, and then so did the next...
Anyway, I was down here hunting gleep when I stumbled on them again. They had one tent and tiny fire, so I thought I'd make them a nice little house to live in instead... with an extra bed, just in case.
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