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Galdr Focus day 22

Gladr went well. I am in sync with my galdr voice and pulling Uruz though the water and drinking it is working a lot better than just fire.

On a practical level, the gladr voice has found it's way into my work life. I've noticed I slip into when giving direction to team members I supervise. I've just had an inkling about this over the past few days, and am now noting down when it happens, and what (if any) effects of has on my team.

Uruz continues to fill up my reserves, helping me to work longer hours and finish my projects a head of time. I've only now noticed the effect my "voice" has on others.

Perhaps a combo of the galdr water intake, and bone work.

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Galdr Focus day 21

%$%#@!!!!

After anot her 12 hour work day, that is how I feel.

The gladr is seeping more into the water and into me. I've been using what we cover in Andrieh's course to pack Uruz into my bones the last few days (like 2) I am not sure if it is the bone work, or Uruz is picking up, but I am able to work longer hours and really dig deeper than I have in the past.

Funny enough, I am far more "bearish" rather than "Bullish" with the team I manage at my day job.

I've had a noticeable uptick in my drive to accomplish goals.

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Galdr Focus day 20

Had a wildly exhausting day at work. Did the gladr, I'll update this in the morning but I am sure a bit of Uruz got through today.

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Galdr Focus day 19

Derp.

I had a post semi finished then my phone decided to connect to the wifi. Several Facebook updates assaulted my screen and when it was all done, the post was gone.

So, back to it.

I have noticed the voice I use to galdr has become much grittier and sounds richer. I feel almost like I have been training my singing voice, which to be fair, I kind of have.

Drinking the water after my galdr session is still giving me a feeling of grounding Uruz into me, but I am not feeling anything past that. Looking over my notes I am guessing I may be able to note a slower, longer term effect.

I recently received a promotion at work and in my new position I manage a small group. I have noticed myself becoming more "bullish" when slipping into the role of a manager, but I can't tell if that is me or Uruz....maybe both?

I set the wax burner again last night, still loaded with the wax I galdred Uruz into. I as the wax split I noticed the Algiz rune. I snapped a pic and sent it to my girlfriend as that rune has a lot of significance to us both.

I thought it was pretty cool, put rune in wax...get rune from wax.

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Galdr Focus day 18

I really feel like I've reached an "end" here with Uruz. I'll keep doing the work for 30 days, but I am finding it tedious.

Don't get me wrong, the addition of water (galdring into, then drinking.) has helped with the tactile sensation of the energy, but there have been no real break throughs that I can notice.

At this point I am just doing it to finish out the 30 days. I am not expecting any big break throughs.

This is what the runes are like, sometimes. They are not always very chatty, or speak in a way we can easily understand. It is very possible that this is as far as I can get with Uruz for now.

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Galdr Focus day 17

The addition of water with the flame during the galdr session was definitely the correct choice.

I feel like the fire "wakes" up the force behind Thurisaz and that can be a beating. Pulling Uruz through, and into, water evens out the feeling, grounds, and cools the energy of the galdr session.

Taking a look back, I wonder how much further I would have gotten if I just started with the water along with the candle.

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Galdr Focus day 16

Just finished a 12 hour shift, oh my various gods and goddesses...I am so going to be dead tomorrow.

Galdr is feeling more "soild" and is developing a voice of its own. Adding water, I hope, will help ground the runa into me.

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Galdr Focus day 15

I will keep this entry, and tomorrow's short, I'll be at work...for a loooong time.

Galdr went well, and the addition of the water seemed to help. I think it focus, or "held" Uruz better.

That makes sense if Uruz relates to Ymir's bovine friend.

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Galdr Focus day 14

So, the writing part of this challenge is most difficult for me. I do the galdr each day, I take notes....it's just the actually putting it down here that trips me up.

Like, what I'm I supposed to say, "Did galdr, Uruz still a no show on a real big effect."

I have been rereading my notes and, if anything, Uruz is being very slow for me. I can feel the vibrations with the galdr each time and the vibration has become very familiar to me, still nothing as noticeable as Thurisaz.

My theory of using Thurisaz as a piercing rune with the candle flame is probably not correct. I am going to continue with water along with fire.

I have a small glass jar I use for Bardon style water magic, I am going to get the galdr of Uruz flowing and see if placing in the water works better.

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Galdr Focus day 13

Yes, yes... still catching up on posting. I’ve been doing the galdr work each day, it’s the posting here that gets me.

More on that later, for now, a story. As those who have been following me know, Uruz has been shy while Thurisaz has been much more active. I also had a feeling that I wouldn’t make much headway with Uruz until I faced an issue and a person I really, really didn’t *want* to deal with.

Without going into too much detail....this is a delicate life situation.  I was getting prepared for a shit show. I spent more time in galdr with Thurisaz and really getting into my system for a few days. Rolling the galdr around in my system and holding it within myself. I even took a few days to “load” water with Thurisaz ala Bardon and drink it to aid me in feeling and holding the energy of the rune.

I was pumped and ready to go, well as pumped as I could be considering what I was about to deal with. In a sense, it was war. A war to reclaim a part of myself and my own feelings of dignity. In the end, I have to admit, I don’t care who someone is, or what they have done in the past if they betray me and my trust THAT badly. After a few minutes of centering myself, I dialed a number I never wanted to dial again. You have to understand, I had a cacophony of emotions roiling inside me, mostly anger. I was fully aware that, in my current “charged” state, something I would say may carry an emotional charge and escalate the situation. I might also cross this person up unintentionally, this can happen with one's voice. I had passed the point of caring though, I just wanted the end result. 

With all that grit and thorn in my system, I was not prepared for what came next.The phone call passed without incident. The other party admitted their fault and agreed to make restitution, and I didn’t even have to attempt sounding intimidating or the least bit serious. So...uh, all is well that ends well.

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Galdr Focus day 12

Note to self, make sure your post actually posts to Tumblr before you close the window....

Two nights ago I had decided to add some tactile sensation to my galdr session by holding a piece of scented wax. I had carved Uruz into it in an effort to help feel the rune and its associated sensations. I could literally hold it in my hand. At least, that was what I was going for.

I actually did feel the wax become noticeably cooler while holding the wax cube in my hands over the 30 minutes. I also felt a sensation of deepness in my core while gladring Uruz and sitting with the rune. In a way, I felt like I was being “shown” a potential for self-growth and improvement.  

I set the wax cube in an incense burner and let the scent waft in my house as I went about the rest of my day.

Runes pulled: Ehiwaz, Thurisaz, Dagaz

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Galdr Focus Day 11

A day behind posting.

I did the galdr and seem to keep getting more and more of Thurisaz and not as much Uruz as I would like.

I feel it more in my daily interactions with people, coworkers mainly. I am far more "prickly" with people who try to take up my time and mental resources with petty or trivial issues that are really a cover for the fact that they don't want to do their job.

And I get them.

I feel where they are coming from, they feel betrayed from an economic model and governmental model that they feel is not serving them. I feel betrayed too.

However I an not content with living my life as a powerless "rage junkie" I see my co-workers becoming. I am choosing to channel my inner fire into something I like doing (galdr and writing) while they just want to score their next hit of dope from whatever "news outlet" they pimp their minds out to.

Do I sound a little prickly?

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Galdr Focus Day 10

Not going to lie, I'm pretty zonked.

Did the galdr work last night mostly had an anger reaction with Thurisaz. Not a bad angry, more a righteous (well to me anyway) angry.

The projections of the rune and it's energy are getting noticeably easier.

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Galdr Focus day 9

Last night I could feel the runes vibrate up my spine along with a different sensation for each. Thurisaz was crackling and moved quickly, almost like a reverse chill running down my back. Projecting it outwards and into the flame to “pierce” it felt like firing a mini pistol from my mouth. Uruz moved slower and had less of a noticeable sensation.  I am still getting used to feeling Uruz from a far off distance, or what seems like a far off distance. I keep getting the sense that it is waiting for me to make a move, so I am gathering up everything I need to “put the final nail in the coffin” of a situation that has gone on too long.

On the plus side, no violent dreams.

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Galdr Focus Day 8

The violent dreams continued last night after the galdr session. Each time I find myself pitted against someone or something I find repulsive or “evil” and each time I end up smashing that thing/person.  Each time I see a sign of a certain spirit I am close to. I have divination session planned this weekend to find out exactly what the message is, but I have a feeling I already know what the spirit is going to say.

I started this 30-day challenge for two reasons: 1) to test out my theory about Thurisaz and its use in practical workings.

2) to amp up my galdr and my life with Uruz (primal strength and nourishment).

If the dreams are any indication, I’ve hit a block. I have someone to face, though not on a battlefield, and physical violence is out of the question, I have someone I need to “readjust”

Long story short, I let this person walk all over me when I was at a very low point in my life. I chose to cut this person out of my life, but there is still one small issue that needs to be taken care of. Talking, in the past, has yielded nothing, and I feel rather backed into a corner.  I’m at a point where it looks like the only way out is through. I won’t outright curse this person, but it is really starting to look like they will need a helping hand in keeping their word.

This internal blockage may be a big factor in why I can never really get Uruz to come out of the candle. It’s as though Uruz is saying, “Look, man... you’ve done enough healing work and improved your life up to this point, I can’t really help until you take care of this.”

Other than that revelation, the galdr went by just fine. Both rune songs flow effortlessly, and I think they sound deep and vibrant.  

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Galdr Focus Day 7

Stale air hung lazily and lifeless in the hallway as I passed a row of grey lockers. I knew I had to get to class, but I took a moment to bask in this feeling, soon I would graduate and be free from these hollow feeling halls.

A roaring voice snapped me out of my thoughts and into the present. The scene in front of my eyes set my blood to a boil.

A young child, no older than 10, slumped over in the fetal position, rocking back and forth as tears poured from his eyes. Between gulps of air, he managed to stammer out only a few words, begging to be left alone.

Towering above him a figure had the child's neck in a vice grip. The dark figure screamed and roared at the child, clearly enjoying the abuse he was doling out.

My rage broke and before I knew it I had planted my fist firmly into where I thought the figure's closest kidney. The only oddity was that my fist sunk into the figure. Cocking its head back, the dark figure roared in a blood curtailing rage.

"Dirt?" I asked myself as I pulled my fist from the figure. Looking at my arm I noticed that my arm, up to the wrist, was covered in dark dirt. Was that what this creature is made of?

"Oh shit, it's an Etin." I thought as the beast swung its massive head in my direction. Thinking quickly I grabbed a hold of its neck and tried to choke it out. Roaring, the massive figure lifted itself off the ground and began to swing around. It was trying to throw me off.

I could feel my hold slipping and knew that soon the beast would fling me off its neck. I had to act fast. Shifting my weight at the right time to match its movements I tripped up the giant and used its momentum to send its head smashing into a row of lockers.

Then I woke up.

So, that was me in Dream Land last night, right after my galdr session. A few things stood out to me concerning both runes I have included in this 30 working.

Uruz: This rune is a rune of the giants, make no mistake about it. While it does tie into Ahdumbla, it is also a wild force, one that can not, and should not be ignored.

Thurisaz: Thor fights giants, I fought I giant. Thurisaz is a very, very "active" rune and one I am fond of, and one with a message.

I have been having a tough time feeling up to doing really much of anything after work. Last week, I spent a bit of time positioning myself for a much deserved promotion and (thanks to a bit of sorcery) I was able to secure a nice bump in pay*

This left me feeling a bit zonked for a while. These things happen. Set goal, work hard, make adjustments to plan, work hard, achieve the goal....uh, now what?

I let my workout routine slip and just kinda felt a bit aimless for a few days. It wasn't bad, I just needed a bit of time to adjust my plans now that a bit of my life changed for the better.

The problem was...I was inviting a rune of physical vitality and power into my life via fire and Thurisaz. It was pooling up in me and wasn't getting "burned off" through magic ritual or exercise.

And I could feel it, just sitting there. Fiery Uruz with nothing to do is not a good thing.

I made a point to carve time out for myself for a nice run.

Other than that, Uruz is still sitting around the candle flame as I galdr and focus on it. I feel it stronger with me, but I don't get a sense that it is moving out of the candle flame and filling the room I am in. It's more like the Uruz in the candle is interacting with my own, internal Uruz.

Well, namaste Uruz...namaste.

ALU,

Orismen

*I got far more than I was asking for.

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Galdr Focus day 6

I attempted to lay down during this session, after the gladr. Big mistake, I am redoing this day.

On the plus side my dream did include a lot of brambles and thorns, so...someone is listening ⚡