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*taps mic* Is there still life here?? 

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Drag the stove to me right now.

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I got your back.

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The give generously season has returned.

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Most days ain't sunny but it ain't so hard...

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RIGHT NOW.

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It's kinda sad how I react to bad news. Slice and dice to leave precise scars like tattoos. At least I can cover these with long sleeves. I look inside the mirror and decide this how it's gonna be. No one else to point fingers at. It's on me. What a mess. I'm staring at my reflection flashing a smile. What don't kill you will help heal you after a while. Let the white blood cells tell tales of better days. Don't judge me by the look on my face. I'm never phased. I reach out to others, knowing they can't touch us. Voices in my head with all red in my clutches. Release me from these moments of living lonely. To the one whom I pray to in the sky, come down. Hold me.

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Exhale.

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Inhale.

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It's always gonna be something. It's not going to be a perfect ride. Ups and downs. Smiles and frowns. Fairytales are make-believe. I have to make room for it. I can't keep thinking that things are going to get better just because I want them to. I can't continue to burden people with the challenge of operating exactly like I do. I have to understand that my happiness is based in how I react to everything in life. I have to make the choice to be happy. It's not just gonna fall out of the sky.

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Choose happiness.

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Starving for inspiration.

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At times, I feel connected. At times, I feel removed.

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I'm gonna make it work. The troubles of yesterday still hurt my feelings but they're gone. Reminds of the shadows of my ex lovers. Of course, time goes on. I never really know where I'm going...I just know to keep going. Flowing like the river do. Every move critical. Powerful. Connected to my spiritual. Devoted to every emotion as I form into an ocean. Continuously giving to life.

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Sometimes it's easier to motivate than it is to be motivated. I gotta work on changing that.

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I want so badly to demolish these walls around my heart but nothing in this world is explosive enough.

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Manifestation