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Tim TMA forr the ask game? :3c

MY MAIN MAN TIMOTHY STROKER GOIN IN 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

DIS ONE GOT LONG

How I feel about this character:

WHAT IS DERE TO EVEN SAY THATZ TIM MY BEST FRIEND TIM……………….. he’z absolutely my favorite out of any of teh archive crew memberz throughout teh series , he’z such an incredibly strong character that makez s2 and s3 , especially s3 , what dey are . i love that you’re intentionally led to believe jon’s shallow view of him as Stupid Funny Guy by restricting what we see of him and making it so that we don’t really know how he feels about thingz until MAG040 and later and more pertinently MAG065 . thinking about it itz extremely obvious that any person would be traumatized by teh Prentiss incident and further sent spiraling by being actively stalked , but teh story guides us to not really think about Tim or how he feels , because Jon certainly doesn’t care how he feels , that’z Tim who is simultaneously a funny doofus and a potential murderer scheming against me , he can’t possibly have EMOTIONS , all up until teh breaking point . I think Tim is such a lynchpin in teh story for first coming to understand that Jon is , spoken with love , kind of a terrible fucking person and deeply mentally unwell . again , something we know if we’re paying even a little bit of attention he’z already interrogated Martin and generally talked about stalking teh otherz at dis point , but Jon constantly justifies thingz to himself and itz a punch in teh stomach to actually hear from someone else just how bad thingz have gotten because of him (since Martin just kinda swallows teh mistreatment) .

if you aren’t willing to understand Tim’s feelings you will not understand what teh podcast is trying to tell you up until Jon gets even more catastrophically bad in s4 , and thatz how you get people acting shocked and appalled that deir precious Jon would ever do something liek th surgery on Melanie . and even beyond thingz regarding Jon , I cannot possibly imagine experiencing s3 and not being completely torn apart by Tim’s character in that season . once again we don’t see him super often , but when we do we see how he’z degraded , he’z miserable , all he does is slink around avoiding everyone else , to teh point that no one even told him about teh Unknowing , probably figuring that it wasn’t worth stressing him out more . and jeeeeeeeeesus christ MAG104 episodes that are taped to teh inside of my EYELIDS oh my god !!!!! I think a lot about how Tim initially insists on giving teh statement to Jon when he gets back — probably mostly bc he’z just trying to put off talking about it , but teh fact that he’d even suggest being willing to give it to Jon is really interesting and I’ve always thought it had something to do with teh later reveal that Tim is terrified that no one is real after everything with Not!Sasha . how can he trust Martin with his worst trauma if he doesn’t even know Martin is an actual person ? Jon is at least real , even if itz Jon .

and also that just makes me crazy in general , I think itz MAG114 ? teh conversation where Tim admits he can only trust Jon . thatz liek . so fucking deeply heartbreaking to me what if dis guy (WHO YOU USED TO BE FRIENDS WITH BTW!! JON OFFERED HIM TEH ASSISTANT POSITION BC DEY WERE FRIENDS!!!) ruined your life by stalking you and making you batshit paranoid to even exist but at teh same time he was teh only one you could be certain you could trust after your best friend got replaced by a THINGY and you never even noticed . what if teh guy who betrayed you most was now teh only one left . what if that fucking happened to you . I’d throw up . it also makes me want to jump into teh ocean that Tim becomes avoidant , paranoid , and dehumanizing teh others — which is exactly what Jon was doing in s2 . Tim’s breakdown is more self-destruction , he never really actively hurts anyone , but teh same tones are dere . it has to feel like shit to be able to understand exactly what Jon was feeling when he did dis to you . jesus christ man .

and yet despite everything Tim doesn’t snap and burn teh whole place down liek he definitely had a god damn right to . people Desolation-code him and I’ll get to dis more later but he’z only really vindictive towards teh Circus , he is frankly extremely tolerant to Jon and Elias’ bullshit and never really seems to want to exact revenge on dem . if anything hez just miserable and suffering and wants it to be over and if he can take down teh Circus at teh same time that he kills himself thatz teh best thing he could ask for . like above all Tim is just deeply suicidal at teh point of late s3 , he talkz about not even wanting to come back from teh House of Wax , and repeatedly tries to put himself in danger to help people during teh mission . it breaks my god damn heart that he reacts so strongly to seeing teh Anglerfish skinning people and tries to convince everyone to try and save dem because dey’re “still alive” . you ever think about how Danny is never explicitly stated to be dead , only “missing” or “gone” ? I think about it . also Jon yelling “I am not losing you as well” in dis scene ? hello ? 🏳️‍🌈 ? well we’ll get to that .

everything about Tim’s final moments is just ……. Absolutely insanely peak writing . teh fact that teh only thing that snaps him out of teh Unknowing haze is Jon compelling him , using a power on him that he deeply fucking hates (which btw only vaguely related but tim should get to kill jon for many reasons but one of dem is jon listening to his statement behind his back. whatz your problem man.) . teh fact that some of his last words are telling Jon “I don’t forgive you, but thank you for this” . teh fact that his ACTUAL last words get to ring back to when he had any joy in his life in that he gets to make a stupid joke to a clown’s face and blow everything up . teh fact that he and Jon die together . teh fact that , not accounting for teh assisted suicides of Gerry and Breekon , Tim is teh only major character (…that I’m aware of idk jon could nuke himself in mag200 I’m not dere yet) to outright commit suicide . teh way that we later learn teh Unknowing would always fail and dis immediately makes it seem like Tim died for nothing but I don’t think that’z necessarily true . he took out Nikola and who knows how much of teh rest of teh Circus with that explosion — and if my interpretation is true and Danny was still alive and in that crowd of skinned people , teh explosion would have killed him as well and put him out of his misery as an object of teh Circus . in teh end Tim’s death was a tragic suicide that didn’t need to happen , but if absolutely nothing else , he got revenge and he saved his brother . I think that countz for something . a happier ending could have existed , certainly — but unfortunately Tim’s story was not made for a happy ending , and thatz how it is to be a character in a tragedy . at least he died with dignity .

Tim is just such an incredible character that fucking MAKES season 3 and it makez me very sad when people whose focus is mainly on s4-5 and jmart just kind of forget or don’t care about him because he’s gone by den . he was dere he mattered !!! Tim is also a character that hits me personally as someone who was in The Work Hell Gauntlet as we listened to teh series . liek yeah man working is a miserable hell from which dere is no escape . I get it . i’m fine now and (sort of) have a job I liek but for a while dere I was liek HE UNDERSTANDS ME…….

also he has ocd and I can’t be told otherwise .

All the people I ship romantically with this character:

well I think tim is aromantic but I’ll talk about my visions regardless

JONTIM WARRIOR !!!!! WOOOOOOOO !!! I have so many jontim opinions in my beautiful world dey had liek a weird not-really-dating-but-have-made-out-before relationship precanon that never went anywhere super far but tim did really really like jon and while jon really did liek tim he also had a very specific preconceived notion of who and what tim Was and never really budged from that . jon is very bad at remembering people have feelingz , even people he lovez . and that really just drivez everything to hell when dey both get fucked up by teh prentiss incident . love making deir scars mirror each other btw . yaoi . I just think deir entire story gets so much more miserable if you imagine that tim really did love jon and despite it all still does and he’z teh only one left he’z teh only one he can trust but he also ruined him and how do you contend with that . and jon really did love tim but he just did not really see him as a complex person and by teh time he did it was much too late and teh damage couldn’t be undone . nothing could be undone . jon gets to live with teh guilt of what he did to tim for teh rest of his life . HOORAY ! also dey just keep having really bizarrely gay momentz liek how deir MAG065 conversation where Jon can’t fire Tim and Tim can’t leave reads liek a couple on teh verge of divorce staying together because dey just can’t bear it . I know itz spooky Institute powers at work but it really does just sound liek dey don’t want to get a divorce . not!sasha is getting two christmases

and of course “I am not losing you as well” “I don’t forgive you but thank you for this” WHAT WERE DEY COOKING!!!!!!!!!!!!

also what was dis why did she do dis

I have complex opinions on timsasha but I think dey come down to that tim is very aromantic and doesn’t know that about himself so he’z liek oh my friend sasha who im sexually attracted to i must be in love with her or else it would be weird to stay friends with her right (thatz just his bestie he should’ve had a platonic life partner situation with) . he keepz making teh vibes weird and den he comes in one day liek “hey sasha have you heard of the word aromantic. because im having questions” and sasha is liek Oh thank god ! (<- did not want to date dis man but he is her bestie and it was getting really awkward for a while) . teh tape in s5 of deir interactions is so so sweet dey play off each other so well . we’re told teh whole time dey’re close and finally getting to see it after dey’re both long-gone is absolutely heartwrenching . why were dey stapling papers in an archive .

martim’s cute but I don’t think about it too terribly seriously .

timoliver exists to me purely in my swap au but it is very near and dear to my heart . oliver loves his sickly dog that only he can take care of and no one else

My non-romantic OTP for this character

yeah dis counts as nonromantic , mostly , unless something insane happenz . ollie and i have gotten obsessed with our really specific world where tim and elias are having crazy hatesex that maybe gets a little too emotionally involved . fuck that old man . fuck that old man so hard you fix teh timeline

uhh idk what else . I know people ship him w mike crew but I’ll be real with you I don’t really gaf about him that much . he’z cool though

My unpopular opinion about this character

JUST ONE ???? okay starting off small I do liek when people give him silly shirts but if you change that as he gets more depressed you’re wrong and understand nothing . teh funny shirts are his last shred of whimsy . dey’re all he has . itz juxtaposition . god .

tim is just…… wildly mischaracterized by dis fandom . either people make him nothing more den Funny Goofy Flirt Who Doesn’t Have Serious Emotions or dey make him liek , violently destructively angry at jon and elias and neither of those are true . I think teh worst is teh secret third thing though where people treat tim liek he’z teh most horrible unreasonable asshole in teh world for yelling at jon liek dude jon should be GRATEFUL he only got yelled at he should have gotten his TEETH knocked out for all that . teh really bizarre thing is that people are so defensive of jon that dey treat tim as dis Unreasonable Hysterical Bitch on teh levels of liek , what I usually only see in insanely misogynist posts about female characterz . Liek people talk about him and melanie in almost identical wayz . first male character to experience misogyny I guess ???

also if you make tim forgive him for any reason you’re insane and wrong . im a jontim warrior and i think even in some perfect world where th tragedy was averted mid-s3 and dey became a thing tim would not ever forgive him no matter how much he cared about him . he spends some of his last words refusing to forgive jon while still being grateful for him . jon has to live with teh guilt of what he did to him for teh rest of his life he doesn’t get to be absolved . he has to learn to live with it .

also every other design of him lookz liek , in teh eternal wordz of my friend fig , “he’s about to ask you ‘where’s my hug?’” and itz true . dey do all look liek that . I am very picky abt what tim designs i think look good . especially bc i cannot conceivably imagine him as white in my head . white tim hates that we call him white tim

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

MAN IDK i think Tim’s arc is pretty perfect I wouldn’t seriously want to change anything . I think teh fact that he isn't violent towards jon despite it all is an important part of his character but in teh world of wish fulfillment I wish he got to throw a brick at him .

and if you’ve made it dis far: YOU WILL WATCH EVERY DAY IS EXACTLY THE SAME 🕰️🕰️🕰️🕰️🕰️🕰️🕰️

#NOTSASHA IS GETTING TWO CHRISTMASES!!!!#anyway RWALLY REALLY GOOD TIM READ. MANIFESTO. yeah really really good #tim stoker #<- saving this here #tma spoilers

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