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Things are looking up

I haven’t posted in a few days. I’ll catch you up:

Thursday I had the team outing. I had a lot of fun, I love my coworkers. I hurt my knee badly :( 

We had burgers on the grill for lunch. That night I cooked steak and green beans :D

The next day was moderately uneventful. I masturbated in the bath in the morning. At work I conducted an interview; those are always fun. I went home afterwards, though, because my knee was hurting so bad. Not before having 4Rivers, though!

Then at night I made a dish that was odd but I enjoyed it! Ground beef, tomato, red pepper, green beans, and seasoned like Mexican ground beef.

The next morning I masturbated in the bath again, and then I went and saw you! I love seeing you and touching you. On my way home I got some things from Publix, including some buffalo chicken tenders :D 

And then on Sunday (this morning), I saw you again! I felt kind of weird this morning... but when I got behind you and scratched your head? It almost felt like things were back to normal again. I’m almost crying just thinking about it now... I miss you so, so terribly. 

I went to the game after that. Pretty good spot!

I’m feeling decently better than I was most of the week. I love you a lot.

I think I’ll go masturbate and then head to bed. 

<3 

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Sick and afraid of disappointing you

(Anonymous friend name) came over last night. Actually we went to the dog park first, and that was a blast-- though both of our dogs were tired even before getting there! Our dog played so well with hers. :) 

We watched McElroy content, and through the night I started to feel bad. Like... sick. I ended up with a fever when I went to bed at ~10pm. 

I woke up and feel even worse. This sucks. I miss you. I need Mommy to take care of me, I’m really bad at this.

You called this morning and needed me to bring you something. I just finished up a morning meeting, and I’ll leave now.

I feel like I’m disappointing you, and that the weight of the world is coming down. I just want to be safe in your arms again.

Sorry.

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Getting better?

It’s Tuesday. It’s still really hard... I miss you so much.

I was so happy to see you on Sunday. It makes me really happy to see you work on yourself, and being happy. Your happiness is so, so, so paramount to me.

On Sunday morning, I got you Vietnomz. I ate Wawa :P 

After I got home, I cooked up some wings I bought at Publix:

Then yesterday, I had some breakfast at PowerDMS:

And then I had Steak and Shake for dinner.

Also on Monday, I actually started working on my side project again. It feels really good to commit to that repo. I really want to do more work on it, and I feel like if I commit once per day I’ll make good progress on it. 

You’ll notice there are no carbs in the breakfast. I told myself I would start Keto yesterday morning! 

And then promply fell off the horse around Lunch time when I had a snack of skittles.

It’s something I want to do, I think. It’ll be much, much easier with you around to help go shopping and cook.

I’m so excited to get out of this house and into our new house. It’s ours, Mommy. It’s ours. And no one else’s.

Today’s lunch? The VERY non-Keto pizza!

I worked from home today, obviously. And masturbated to pony VR.

I miss you terribly. I love you so, so much.

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It’s been hard

These first few days without you have been really tough on me. I’ve been self medicating with booze and weed, but when I’m sober I’m just kind of... lost and sad. 

I’m seeing you again today. That makes me really happy.

I’m supposed to have a date this afternoon. I just want to be alone. I think I’ll cancel.

I’ll catch you up on the last couple days of food and masturbation:

Friday I had a bunch of things to do. I took the day off but ended up working most of the day anyway. I brought you flipflops and headphones. I took the dog to the dog park. Didn’t eat Breakfast. Had Taco Bell for lunch after dropping things off:

Ate leftovers for dinner: First the chowder in the early evening, and then some ravioli as a midnight snack.

I’ve been eating like crazy. It’s really not good. I don’t know what else to do right now.

I masturbated to the pony VR game, Mommy.

I didn’t go to the bonfire. 

I also masturbated in the bathtub the next morning.

The next morning I ate Chick Fil’a with you. Alex came over in the late afternoon, but before that I ended up eating french bread pizzas for lunch.

For dinner I made us beef red curry. I used the steaks you bought, and then green beans and peas... which aren’t the best red curry fodder, but it tasted good nonetheless. I forgot to take a picture. I’m sorry.

I should do some work today. I should cancel my date today. The house will get cleaned today.

Yeah. Okay. Let’s do this.

Ordering Vietnomz first, though.

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I masturbated this evening, Mommy. I came to this~

I love you.

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First day alone-- shit, just my first meal I had to prepare myself-- and I went for the crappy frozen pizza rolls. There is homemade red sauce and ravioli in the fridge. There is leftover chowder made by a real New Englander in the fridge! And what do I choose to do?

Fucking pizza rolls.

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What is this? Who are you?

Hello!

I’m a babyfur. I’m in a Mommy Domme / little boy 24/7 relationship, and unfortunately Mommy is in residential treatment for depression right now. I’m going to be using this tumblr as a diary for her when she gets out of treatment. It will be a way to continue the rules we have in our relationship while not being near each other presently. 

What does that mean practically on this blog?

Mostly pictures of crappy food I make for myself or great food I buy at restaurants, detailed recounts of masturbation (as well as the (likely furry) porn I was looking at when I came), and some sprinkling of feelings and actual diary posts once in a while.

She went into treatment today, April 26th 2018. So strap in.