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i hate to do this, but i need help.

i told myself i wouldn’t do this on this blog, but i need help. i have a balance of a $3835.83 for the rest of the semester and i am unable to pay it. my father, step mother, and step father refuse to support my education which leaves just me and my mother to pay for my schooling.

my mother has a degenerative nerve condition that has been worsening over the course of the last few months and has been out of work since this past march. her doctors said that she won’t be released back to work until after june 2023, which is after the new billing statement for my school is released. if i am unable to get the balance down before then, i will be unable to register for classes this upcoming semester.

i have taken a gap year, and transferred schools, i cannot afford to take off of school anymore. with only a year and a half to go i really just want to finish my degree and move on.

i appreciate any donation, not matter how small. if you feel inclined to you can donate to my cash app, venmo, or through my kofi. and if you can’t donate i understand, but please reblog so that it may reach someone who can.

cash app: $aannaaiirb

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kofi

thank you. (proof under the cut if you need it)

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SILENT HILL 3 ↳ Heather Mason

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— your boyfriend comes back home after 2 years.

"Little do you know, how im breakin' while you fall asleep."

You looked at his sleeping figure, grief overcoming you and eyes stained with tears. You wished you haven't opened the door. You wished you would have let him get wet in the rain. The pitter patter of raindrops which were soothing once, now feel suffocating.

"Little do you know, I'm still haunted by the memories."

You felt like screaming at him. What was he doing? Coming back? After leaving for 2 years? You remembered, how he hugged you just before leaving.

"Little do you know, I'm tryna' pick myself up piece by piece."

You wished to forgive him. To hug him. To run your fingers through his hair. But yet at the same time you wished to never see his face ever again. You loved him.

"Little do you know, I need a little more time."

You cannot love him. You cannot, cannot, you just cannot. He doesn't deserve it! If you would ever love him, it would be in another life! Not now! Not in this life! But yet your heart aches for him. Time. Time heals all the wounds, they say. Maybe you just needed time?

"Underneath it all, I'm held captive by the hole inside."

Closing the door, you let yourself slide down from behind. Tears threatening to pour out anytime. Leaning your head back, you stared at the ceiling. Vision was fuzzy because of tears.

"I've been holding back, for the fear you might change your mind."

You didn't know. You were surprised yourself when he came back. If you interrupt will he leave you? Tears silently falling, the pitter patter of raindrops increasing, as if the sky was letting you cry out.

"I'm ready to forgive you, but forgettin' is a harder fight."

Maybe you could forgive him? No no no! Even if you do, how could you ever forget? It will keep eating you up from inside.

"Little do you know, I need a little more time."

A small part of you hoped that you would wake up. And it all would be a bad dream. He would never be here. Everything would have just been a fleeting dream. A pathetic lie.

"I'll wait, I'll wait, I love you like you've never felt the pain."

He looked miserable, he was worried. All the mistakes he made. He wanted to try, at least try to make it up to you. He knew he didn't deserve it.

"I'll wait, I promise you don't have to be afraid."

He wanted to say he was shocked. You looked at him with so much disgust and yet you were worried. He could see it in your eyes. No, he could feel it too. You were worried for him, a being he is not even himself sure of.

"I'll wait, Love is here and here to stay."

He was ready to get the door slammed on his face. But instead you let him in. He knew you were angry. None of you spoke, the silence was suffocating, nor the pitter patter of rain you both enjoyed together would be enough to distract him

"So lay your head on me."

He wanted you to break the silence. At least even look at him. Even if it's a look of disgust.

"Little do you know, I know you're hurt while I'm sound asleep."

He could feel your gaze, from the couch he was sleeping on. He knows you wished you didn't open the door for him.

"Little do you know, all my mistakes are slowly drownin' me."

He closed his eyes. He wanted to close his eyes forever and sleep. He frowned, he didn't wanted to leave you. But that was inveitable. He hated how everytime he closed his eyes, his brain would get clouded with all the mistakes he committed.

"I'm tryna' make it better piece by piece."

He is trying. He is trying to make everything better. He will listen to Odasaku's wishes and do everything he can to make it up. Which he doubts, he doesn't think it will happen. He is not a good person.

"Little do you know, I love you 'til the sun dies."

He couldn't stop missing you. While in underground, he thought he will forget about you. And bear it himself so you won't have to go through the pain of seeing him again. But that's not what he did. If there was someone else in your place will he forget about them?

"Oh wait, just wait, I'll love you like I've never felt the pain."

He would apologise. Not in the childish way he does, but from bottom of his heart. And he will hope that you forgive him.

"Just wait, I'll love you like I've never been afraid."

He stood up. He can leave forever now. But why? Why were his legs stuck in one place? It's not like he hasn't left anyone behind. Then why does his heart ache for you? Letting out a 'tch' he sat on the couch, staring at the door in front of him. He knows you were there.

"Just wait, our love is here, and here to stay."

You stood up, rubbing you eyes to see clearly, you walked to kitchen counter to get a glass of water. Will it help to calm you down? Your glanced at the kitchen sink which was a mess. Maybe you can clean it to distract yourself? A knife caught your attention. No no no no no no! Don't! A hand grabbed your wrist, spinning you around, you were met face first with a scent of the cheap cologne, which you bought for him once. Your eyes widened, why is he inside? you locked the door didn't you? You tried to shove him away, but his grip was stronger.

"So lay your head on me."

He heard you moving, he stood up and walked towards the door, and tried to open it. It was locked. No problem he can always open a locked door. Quietly he opened it, and panic surged in him. He saw you walking towards the knife. Quickly he ran and grasped your wrist, spinning you around he hugged you. He felt you try and shoving him away but he wrapped his arms tighter around you.

"I'll wait, (I'll wait) I'll wait, (I'll wait), I'll love you like you've never felt the pain."

He burried his face in your hair, whiffing the scent. He could still feel you trying to break free from his hold. It honestly broke his heart. Will you leave him like he did?

"I'll wait, (I'll wait), I promise you don't have to be afraid."

You kept trying to push him away, but he didn't budge. Tears welling up in your eyes again. You were close to pour out again.

"I'll wait, love his here and here to stay."

You gave up on pushing him away, as he didn't budged. You let me hug you, it didn't feel suffocating. On instinct you wrapped youe arms around him, and let yourself feel a little bit of comfort. How can you leave him, now?

"So lay your head on me."

You couldn't bear it anymore, you needed to let those tears out. You gripped him tighter and let yourself breakdown. Maybe you can love him again?

"Lay your head on me."

He pulled you closer to him. Eyes closing he felt you relax under him. Inhaling a deep breath he held you as you were breaking down. Exhaling he hoped you won't leave him? He will come back always. He promises to you! He would not leave ever again.

"So lay your head on me."

You stopped crying and his grip on you loosened. He looked at you, eyes softening. He smiled softly and kissed the top of your head.

"'Cause little do you know, I-"

He said, and took your hands in his. You smiled, you know what he is saying. Something both of you came up one day.

"-I love you 'til the sun dies."

You completed, grinning you wrapped your arms around him and he did the same.

When two remaining puzzle pieces meet, the scenery you are making, becomes complete and doesn't it look beautiful?

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HE HAS HIS TIDDIES OUT... LEVIASTANS, WE WON

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Remember when shinji ate aizen up

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I’m taking L’s you did not even know existed

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i genuinely have so much respect for cookie run fanfic authors, ESPECIALLY smut authors. if i acknowledge that i am writing smut about literal dough and icing that are edible and are capable of being soggy, i don't know what i'd do to myself

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staring disrespectfully

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I KNOW this scene from the stage-play had me choking on my water

But the fuck is this???

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POV you are Ashley Graham

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so captivated by this image

why did he just accept his fate😭

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Imagine fighting a fricking mantis.

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always forget to mention that im on hiatus :(( u can still send in some asks tho!

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never let your hopes down of your AA fave appearing in a new game. Frank Sahwit was first introduced in AA1 and it was the only case he was in, then he made a comeback in aai2, A WHOLE 10 YEARS LATER. if he did it ur fave can too

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outfit swap

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SPOILERS for AA4 ending

i've recently finished aj and i got to thinking, how would the ending go if vera didn't survive the poisoning? it's a depressing route but it's slightly more grim if you take in account that she was declared innocent by the jurists. how would apollo, trucy, klavier, and everyone who contributed to finding the truth and deliver justice feel as if their efforts were gone to waste?

nonetheless, it was a very cute and beautiful ending. kristoph's attempt to murder vera has resulted in her genuinely wanting to explore the world that is outside her comfort zone, socialize, and see that the world is not as grim as she painted it out to be. i'm worried that she has no one to accompany in the studio now, she has only been in contact with her father and kristoph for the past decade and a half, but i'm extremely happy for her to finally decide she wants to meet more people! her piece of polly and trucy together was so heartwarming i literally cannot put it into words.