otherkin-confessional

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heard someone the other day talk about bioterms (or something similar, don’t fully remember the name), which is basically just how you want your biology to be referred to in regards to your kin type or alterhumanity, and let me tell you—if people started referring to my theeth as “mandibles” I’d be overjoyed (I’m bugkin)

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It’s actually low-key so embarrassingly cliché that I awakened at 16. Like oh my GODDD that’s such a main character in a “gets magic powers/curse/whatever the fuck” type of movie moment GODDDDDD

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Why was a Tumblr post with owl pictures the thing that made me realize I MIGHT be angelkin ? I'm screaming and going insane this was not how I expected this to go but...let's go ? A win is a win ? That's still an oddly specific way to end up considering actually being an angel but...after all what is conventional in that community ? That's what I thought

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Whenever I'm in the middle of the mating season of one of my kintypes I feel awfully on edge and really instinctual and I can't help but nest and find plushies to put in the middle of the nest so I can pretend they're my kits/hatchlings because that's the only way I can settle my instincts

I also start spraying one specific perfume that I associate with "pack", "family", "babies", ect cause else I can't sit down for even 2 minutes, I almost growl whenever someone tries to enter my room

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A weird thing I get dysphoric over is the way my neck works like. The way it feels so straining to rest my chin and look forward if I’m laying down completely flat like GOD WHY CANT I LAY LIKE THAT FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME WITHOUT IT. HURTING.

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The older faekin were so fucking right with adopting stuff from 'changeling: the dreaming' bc that shit is so real. the banality of the world is killing me. i dont dream as much as i should, im dying. we should go back to that frfr.

i wish there was just a big fucking book of just everything any kin has ever said everrrrr so things like this wouldnt get lost? i feel like we got scattered after livejournal and forums died ? i wish there was an easier way to get in touch, and stay in touch.

anyway, im still a wilder (wildling...?) but i feel like i got burntout wayyy too young, and im getting older. banality got me young, it still has me now. horrible horrible

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Ok so my kintype changed so much but its still the same??????

and i feel so happy about it and so seen by myself but also so confused?????

help?????

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I WISH I HAD FUCKING QHISKERS LIKE A CAT 😭😭😭

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ok so I saw this post the other day. saying stuff like "a smart dragon is wise with his gold", "a healthy dragon gets fresh air", etc. and unironically this has been helping me a lot actually??

like I'm an angel cat not a dragon but I've been thinking to myself "a good kitty takes care of his fangs.... a good kitty washes his fur... a good angel is responsible with his money.... a good angel does chores before they become a problem..."

y'all this is TMI but I went from brushing my teeth never because I'm eternally exhausted and forgetful to brushing them twice a day. TWICE!!

idk what kinda drug I'm high on rn but I think I just found life's cheat code, I feel great

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Very positive right now because im slowly coming to terms with my therianthropy :D

Ive known for around 3 years now, but its nice to finally start wearing gear and coming to terms with my identity + finding out more im more kin :D

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I think my partner might be godkin/godkin adjacent?? He calls himself a demigod all the time and talks about what I assume are its powers in that respect (control of chance/probability) in a genuine/not joking way. I don't really know what to do about this since I'm not sure how to explain the concept of being otherkin to someone who doesn't already at least know we exist and I'm pretty confident it doesn't. I want to talk to him about it but it's scary :[ especially if I'm wrong. How do you bring this stuff up

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I've just learned about angel fangs and I want them SO SO SO FUCKING BADLY they'd help out my species dysphoria a ton!!

... however from my research it seems that you need a certain lip type to get them. one that I do not believe I have.

anyone know if it's safe to get lip implants with the intention of making a piercing more possible to obtain?

(I ask as if I'd actually have the money for that in this timeline, on top of all the trans-related medical bills I'll have to shoulder)

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being spiritual conceptkin with memories of being that concept is so scaryyyy because where is everyone else like me... worst of all, I have so many friends to miss and I don't know if I'll ever see them again since my very existence is painfully niche! Currently trying to find 3 specific friends, but no luck so far... then again I'm only really on discord and I'm too scary to do calls on Tumblr.

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One thing I’m always worried to express about my alterhumanity is my desire to be skinnier, way more so than I am currently. Because people say it’s fatphobic, people say its an unhealthy standard. Its an INHUMAN standard. I dont want to be skinny for the human beauty standards I want to be a skeletal looming cryptid damn it

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As voidkin I wanna paint my whole body matte black with body paint but I’m too scared of being accused of blackface :<

Like be so fr with me right now, NO human being is pitch black. That’s like, the whole point. I’m not trying to imitate a particular race I’m TRYING to appear INHUMAN 😭

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Low-key it would be SO voidpunk to tattoo your WHOLE body. Like no patterns just. Ink. Everywhere.

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Not a confession but I NEED to ask people, how do I find any good games for cryptidkin. Like all the monster games anywhere are always YOU running away from the monster, and even in the very few that let you be the monster its like a one in a however many players are in a lobby chance. I seek a game where, ideally, once is some kind of monster hunting down and scaring NPCs. Preferably something like a ghost or a werewolf, but really I’d be glad for anything tbh

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