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i hate having a kintype no one else has. because sure we aren’t social creatures anyway beyond maybe our hosts, but i can’t find advice on how to handle urges and shifts and everything because while i don’t think i’m aggressive when i get shifty it still gives me so much anxiety. and my prey drive is so strong that it’s scary, because i’m a symbiote, for god’s sake, we’re supposed to hunt and eat and attack and that’s a lot of what we do. but i don’t want to do that. because i have cats and a dog who i love dearly. and i’m just so tired and i hate it and there’s not the same kinship that you see foxkin or catkin have, you know?

but we keep moving, i suppose.

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The angelkin urge to have someone rub at the base of my wings and run their fingers through all of my feathers and let me wrap my wings around them at night

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A part of me is genuinely concerned by how much i consider cannibalism. Another part of me reasons that i won't do it unless certain basically impossible conditions are met.

Of course the nonhuman part of me still desperately hungers for it.

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All queued up! Inbox is clear. Apologies for the wait. Its been hectic

- Mod Mae 🌌

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I miss having sharp teeth. I miss having ears. I miss my claws. I miss having my little nub tail. I could get a tail to wear, but it's just not the same as it actually being attached and being able to wag it and stuff :(

A sad and species-dysphoric Corgikin

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the light yellow/orange text against the white background on ur blog theme makes it kinda excruciating to read

Oh, i'll have to hop onto desktop to have a look and fix that. Both Raph and I use mobile more often so neither if us really knew.

Thank you for letting us know. So sorry about that!

🌌 Mod Mae

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I can't relate to anybody. I can't even relate to OTHER demonkin, because most of them say they weren't/aren't bad, they just have/had free will. But I WAS bad. I DID do horrible things. I was made to be like that, though. It was my job to try to convince humans to do bad things, to test them and make sure they'd do the right thing. And I had to enjoy it, at least a little bit, because otherwise I wouldn't be able to do my job properly- I mean, think about it. If I hated doing it then I'd probably just leave.

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I know the word dragon is a wide term for many different types of beast and every dragon is different but honestly, I feel like dragon kind has been way to commercialized by fandoms that it migrated to alterhuman spaces

I’ve seen less dragons that are ancient philosophical beasts and more dragons that are just “lizards with wings”

And I’m not saying “you can’t be a dragon because you don’t act like this!” All I’m saying is that fandoms watering down what dragons are could affect how nonhumans perceive dragons and it could make them wrong about being/not being a dragon

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ok so like when i was younger and we could tolerate the beach and sand we used to dip our sandwiches in. yk. The Sand. and eat it and it was all crunchy and tasty and stuff and honestly i think thats The most fitting thing for a platypus therian to do

honestly im surprised we didnt get a virus or something lol

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I wish I had someone in real life to talk to. I wish I had someone who knew. I wish I had someone who accepted. And I wish I lived by the woods and had more room for quads.

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I wish i had the confidence to ask friends to pet or scratch my head. i love getting headpats and headbutting my family but i cant ever ask for them because it feels like something i cant get away with.

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hate it when ppl are like " you werrent listening to me rhats why " like... my ears were perked and pointed your way and my tail was alert can you not see?

oh. oh wait a minute. maybe im a fuckin therian, and im trapped in a body with NO fur and NO snout and NO paws this is unfAIR

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i want to have programming. i want to be able to be commanded and know exactly what to do thanks to my code. i want to be able to access my memorybank again. i want to be able to control my voice and i want to mod my body and i want to have steam come out of my nose and i want to feel the fans rotating inside my body. i want to be able to hear WORDS when the machines at work beep at me and not just beeping. i want to have a conversation with them. i want to be more connected with my phone and my ear buds and my moms car and my grandmas tv and the acs here at home. being forced to be fleshy fucking hurts sometimes aufghhgg (robotkin/cyberkin speaking)

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Truthfully I feel odd for being so many, bat things. Bat therian, werebat holothere, bat plush.. It's like, no matter what I do, I'm some type of bat. I don't mind that, but it gets hard when there are experiences I can't share with other bats, especially due to things like my disabilities and weight. It's like, "am I not bat enough?" And I hate that thought. Because I am. My whole being is bat, even if I have other kintypes, too.

- @batsbolts-andfangs

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i just hate that i know i will never be able to openly be myself as a non human because my only irl non human friend lives on a different continent and i will never be able tell my parents or friends i feel so trapped

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(Hey OP, if it is at all possible you could try making an online group for your area? You can use a false name so your parents dont know and maybe organise something like a mert up? Just be careful! I was surprised to find a few in the tiny ass town i work in!)

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I'm a foxkin and I have always had urges to attack small animals at random points. But, I love animals and would never actually do it normally. Unfortunately, though, I have in the past and I feel terrible because I killed a couple of hamsters. I just hope it doesn't make me.a.bad person because I was nine the last time an animal died because of me and 12 when one was hurt last. I get urges to bite people and my cats, mostly playfully though. Don't worry, they're safe though and I love them very much.

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Im a deity, im holy, but i fear to share my name, because i have the same name as an egyptian god, and people claim me for faking

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