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i miss my ex bestfriend & everyone else that i have ever loved but don't want any of them back either

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WELL. that was an experience.

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ultimately the truth about frankenstein is that we are all grotesque amalgamations of the best and worst parts of everyone who came before us. and sometimes the people who are supposed to love us because of and in spite of this will not. and we can kill them with hammers for that. and i think that’s beautiful

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on identity

ojibwe / noah kahan / richard siken / unknown / elliott smith / oamisoa / cameron awkward-rich

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i want to be circled like i’m a prey animal. As everyone does surely

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don’t think intimacy will ever feel normal for me but i’m being really chill about it

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literally what the fuck do you mean its still january. how is that remotely possible. its been six months minimum

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yea

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Are you becoming what you've always hated?

Isle of Dogs / Game of Thrones / Painting by Jenn Mazza / Unknown / Ancestral Memory by Hari Alluri / Unknown / Venetta Octavia / Emma Tranter / Unknown / Ninth House by Leigh Bardugo / @ machineryangel

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and bless the daughter but fuck the family

it lingers for your whole life - katie maria/the sun is also a star - nicola yoon/the lost girls: a poetry collection on girlhood, grief, and growing up - lyra wren/crush - richard siken/unknown/on earth we're briefly gorgeous - ocean vuong/ @emmajadepaige/stick season - noah kahan/promises of gold - josé olivarez/matilda - harry styles/susan smith - wych elm/tangerine - nolune/#6 - aroara/right now - gracie abrams/love & a loaded gun - emily rose cole/someday I'll love - ocean vuong/ @parentless-suggestions/unknown/the burning - venetta octavia/you can love him but you can't keep him - @pencap/a poem from the adult daughter to the narcissistic mother: not your fault, not mine, just is - katherine fabrizio/courtney love prays to oregon - clementine von radics

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i made a lot of mistakes

i made a lot of mistakes

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@mothercain were you having a uncomfortable unsatisfying orgasm during houseofpsychoticwomn I love it

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realizing you want to kill yourself out of apathy at age 25 on a rainy monday in december is so anticlimactic. like what do you mean this long endless slog and thousands of days of my life have led to me to stare bleakly out my window on a work call and refuse to even rally to edit my resume. I am so miserable and so apathetic and I dont want to do anything about it. I can't wait to fall asleep. I can't wait to not dream. I want everything to match the sick grey in my head. I can't wait to slip away.

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Yeah now we've entered the back pain stage

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ugh why must I be always so repulsed by my own vulnerability but I find it very moving and impressive if other people are vulnerable with me????