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you died and i desperately need to tell you how it feels. i need you to hold me upright while i show you this hole that exists now in my heart and the emptiness that swallows my soul. i need you to hold me while i cry out for you, and scream at god and ask him why. you died and you are the only one who can get me through this.

-Mae S. // letter to everyone i've ever lost.

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Is there another life? Shall I awake and find all this a dream? There must be, we cannot be created for this sort of suffering.

- John Keats

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missing someone bad for you

trista mateer / trista mateer / sue zhao / u.k / u.k / clementine von radics / trista mateer

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“Body Love Part 1”, Mary Lambert

“Stranger”, Lillian Mae

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i’m sorry mom, i miss you.

- sandygorange

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What do I have to offer, if not my anger, that no longer is inside of me.

And if I'm not my anger, what am I then?

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I wanted to be loved more than i wanted to be alive

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I hate that i miss you

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Self-aware of my self-destruction, yet unable to stop myself.

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-Sylvia Plath. (The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath)

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"sometimes, i thought my father was a God. i loved him that much."

— Leila Chattis, "Muslim Girlhood"

ocean vuong, "someday i'll love" / sam fender, "seventeen going under" / the front bottoms, "father" / satanay, tumblr / clementine von radics / agustín gómez-arcos, "the carnivorous lamb" / ?

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