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michael, there isn't a day where i don't wonder how you are. i still remember the day i met you, i felt something that i can not explain. it felt like i needed to meet you for a reason, but i never knew what it was. i can't take my eyes off of you, you have this effect on me that makes me admire you in every way. i miss you every single day. everyday sucks because i never see you anymore. you give me these feelings where it feels like the sun hits my hair at 6am, when i know it's a new day to start over. i love every single thing you do, even the stupid things. you make my heart shatter into millions of pieces but i still and try to fix it all for you. i want to be the only one who makes you smile everyday, i also want to be the only one who makes you laugh everyday. i can't regret any moment i have ever had with you. our memories are the things that give me hope. you are the light of my life michael. every time i'm happy it's because of you. but do you want to know something? I  love you, but you don't love me and that's okay because if we both loved each other, we would of ended up together. i love you. i loved you so much. i ask the universe everyday why you had to go but i get no answers. you took those with you when you left. i felt empty, confused, angry and i know that hurt will never go away. but there will come a day when i don't feel it every minute. my feelings will fade. and i'll only be left with past feelings. a good friend once said to me i can love you and still let you go. so michael, i love you and i let you go. i'm going to miss you, i hope where ever you go next. you feel happiness. in way where that you never felt for me. and wherever i go next, you'll always be there, but in my heart. goodbye michael."

- thank you for reading this book.

yours truly, b.e.

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michael, there isn't a day where i don't wonder how you are. i still remember the day i met you, i felt something that i can not explain. it felt like i needed to meet you for a reason, but i never knew what it was. i can't take my eyes off of you, you have this effect on me that makes me admire you in every way. i miss you every single day. everyday sucks because i never see you anymore. you give me these feelings where it feels like the sun hits my hair at 6am, when i know it's a new day to start over. i love every single thing you do, even the stupid things. you make my heart shatter into millions of pieces but i still and try to fix it all for you. i want to be the only one who makes you smile everyday, i also want to be the only one who makes you laugh everyday. i can't regret any moment i have ever had with you. our memories are the things that give me hope. you are the light of my life michael. every time i'm happy it's because of you. but do you want to know something? I  love you, but you don't love me and that's okay because if we both loved each other, we would of ended up together. i love you. i loved you so much. i ask the universe everyday why you had to go but i get no answers. you took those with you when you left. i felt empty, confused, angry and i know that hurt will never go away. but there will come a day when i don't feel it every minute. my feelings will fade. and i'll only be left with past feelings. a good friend once said to me i can love you and still let you go. so michael, i love you and i let you go. i'm going to miss you, i hope where ever you go next. you feel happiness. in way where that you never felt for me. and wherever i go next, you'll always be there, but in my heart. goodbye michael."

- thank you for reading this book.

yours truly, b.e.

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"is the world even poetic? i mean people take these horrible feelings they feel and put it down into beautiful words. how do they do that? how can they make their pain sound so beautiful? how can people make the world seem so poetic when it's actually not?"

-b.e. //yourstrulybje on insta

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“they are too cute to be true“