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WHAT IS WRONG WITH PAIGE NOW SHE IS ALL ABOUT DICK

Always

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You have every right to still be mad. No, you can't do anything but it's still just wrong. If you need anything though, just let me know okay?

It’s fine. I’m fine. Clearly still mad but whatever. Can’t do anything about it now.

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She what-? I can't believe she would do something like that. It's just-wow Ethan, I'm so sorry...

Amethyst decided to fake her pregnancy and I couldn’t take it so I left.

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And why's that....?

Nah. Left early.

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It's nice too meet you too, what's your name?

I don’t think we have. Nice to meet you.

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Oh hey, how's the city of lights? Or is it love? Either way, my shirt size is small, in case you know, you're doing a little shopping.

No

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Ooooooh it's what you do to me, it's what you do to me...

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Hi, I'm Paige, I don't think we've met before.

Hi!

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@pagiemorgan: me and my valentine

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"I never knew I could hurt like this...I remember you used to tuck me in at night with a teddy bear I held so tight, I thought you were so strong, you'd make it through whatever."

Following the directions the lady at the desk had told her Paige walked down the halls in a trance, she could hear the sobbing of a family in one room then the cry of a baby down the hall, she heard the laughter of an older man and an old lady's song like voice following it. As soon as she reached Jeremy's room though she heard nothing but silence that weighed heavy on her ears. Slowly opening the door her eyes fell right on the boy laying closed eyed in the bed, the one person she had always counted on, who she had never planned on leaving now laid in front of her looking only a moment's away from death. The sound of the door shutting behind her caused a strawberry blonde's head to jerk up from her hands and quickly wipe what Paige could only assume were tears from her eyes. Without a word the girl stood up from her chair and walked over to Paige, her warm arms wrapping around her and gently smoothing down her hair. The girl's touch brought a sense of comfort to her, knowing she wasn't alone, she had someone who cared, someone who was just as worried, she felt a tug at her heart, knowing that just months ago when it was Paige laying in that bed, Jeremy had her, someone to lean on, someone to make him feel less alone. Paige felt Katie pull away leaving her alone with her brother, she almost asked her to stay, craving that motherly touch she seemed to have, but she knew what she needed most was the one thing she couldn't have, her brother.

Once Katie was gone Paige sat beside the bed, just looking on at her brother, her protector. Taking a deep breath Paige reached out to hold on to his hand, "Jer?" She spoke softly, her voice getting caught on the lump in her throat. "Where do I even start?" She continued speaking, the tears welling up in her eyes. "I should yell at you, you know? I should be so mad at you right now, but I'm really no better than you am I? I promise you though, I'm done, I'm so done with everything, I'll be better, I swear. You just have to pull through this, then you'll see, I'll be the little sister that you would once do anything for. Jer, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for everything I ever put you through, but I'm telling you, I'm done with smoking, drugs, everything, I just can't lose you. You're going to get through this, you have you. Who else is going to interrogate future boyfriends? Who else is suppose to tell me when I'm being a shit head? Who else am I suppose to call when I can't sleep at three am because I watched a scary movie? Who else is suppose to walk me down the aisle huh?" By this time Paige had no control over the tears that were pouring down her face as she clutched on to Jeremy's hand and her fell to the bedside. 

Paige's mind flew back to every memory she had with her brother, playing football in the front yard, eating hot wings while watching a movie, him driving her to school in the morning and singing along with the radio. Her mind relived all the tiny good moments they had together, the ones that didn't seem so significant at the time but now she would do anything to go back to. Picking up her head to look at her brother again Paige shook her head and wiped some of the tears from her face. "You know, I would deal with every single one of Dad's outbursts toward me if it meant I could have you here right now. You can't be gone, I'm not going to let you leave, you're stuck with me because I can't go through life with out my big brother in it, I can't Jer. I need you so fucking much, I take back every time I didn't talk to you and every fight that ended with me saying I'd be out of your life. I don't want to be out of your life and you can't be out of mine. God dammit Jeremy! I'm not losing you!" Her voice raised a little bit before she broke down completely, her head falling into her arms as she let out loud sobs, wishing her brother would wake up to it and wrap his arm around her and comfort her. No matter how loud her cries were he didn't move, he just laid there, the one person she needed was right in front of her, but so far from reach.

As her crying softened and she found her voice again Paige plucked up the courage to lift her head again and look at her brother. "I'm not leaving you Jer, when I walk out of tis place you're going with me. You're so strong, you're going to get through this and I'm going to be right here with you, I promise." She gave his hand a little squeeze and stayed in her seat, just watching him for a bit, listening to the steady beeping sounds that filled the room and watching his chest rise and fall as long as she could see him breathing, as long as the beeps continued at a steady beat she held on to the hope that he would open his eyes again and the hole that was forming in her heart would fill up once more. "I love you" she whispered as she sat back in her seat, still holding on to his hand, refusing to let go just yet. "I'm going to be here when you wake up, I'm not going anywhere."  She whispered once more before hearing Katie walk in again. The girl placed a soft hand on Paige's back and rubbed it gently. "He's going to pull through, he's a fighter" Paige said turning her tear streaked face up to the girl only to notice that her face was a mirror image of her own, tears falling at a steady pace out of eyes that looked like they had been rubbed too much, "I know" Katie barely choked out as she took a seat next to Paige and wrapped her arm around the small girl. Paige rested her head on the girl's shoulder as they both looked on at Jeremy, both sitting there knowing that either one of them would wait forever on him to wake up.

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If I said my heart was beating loud, if we could escape the crowd somehow, if I said I want your body now, would you hold it against me?

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Well, I guess that's all that counts.

In my head it did.

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Austin, I don't even think that really rhymes.

Okay,so I call you Paige with a y at the end and that rhymes with baby so I add baby to it.

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I'm pretty sure that I should understand what you're calling me.

You don´t have to.