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I’m Booked!

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Say Anything (1989)

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https://www.instagram.com/p/Bpu6cCLgg6X/?utm_source=ig_share_sheet&igshid=j6djlaa0ytfo

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@/mrgwilymlee on insta

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this is the purest, sweetest photo I’ve ever seen….and then there’s roger

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A clip of Freddie Mercury from the documentary Freddie Mercury: The Great Pretender (2012)

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A Pilot’s Wife??

This year in July, I was on a beautiful day-trip to a nearby Volcano. We stopped at a secluded Hotel with Hot Springs and a garden full of Hummingbirds. It was incredibly enchanting and peaceful. My boyfriend and I stepped inside the Hot Springs and soon after, my boyfriend confessed to me that he was thinking of becoming a pilot. He wanted to join the air force before entering University, but was not accepted since he was psychologically not fit to be ordered around. He’s in his last semester of Uni now, and since he had told me that he revisited his thoughts on becoming a pilot, I of course was taken aback at the sudden change of course for the future, but I encouraged him to go after his dream. I wasn’t sure what to think as I have always told myself that I would never date a pilot. After considering all the travel opportunities and benefits, I was content with the idea.  

That was five months ago. 

I have been so bipolar about our whole plans for the future. 

Lately, I’ve been researching and wondering if I am really going to be okay with being in a relationship with a pilot. The major factor that had made me never wanting to date a pilot, was the cheating one, it’s so easy for them. I don’t think my boyfriend would cheat on me, at least not in the first years.

There’s a bigger thing concerning me about this. Time. Especially in the first years, he will barely have time for us. I have been thinking this whole time it’s going to be way easier than our Long Distance right now, but I realize that it could just possibly be extremely similar. Do I want to be alone half of the time? Am I willing to have a family and raise them practically by myself? 

I read that, when pilots get their days off, all they really want to do is stay at home and relax, they won’t want to go on a vacation, let alone a plane. Do I really want that? A husband missing out on important events celebrations, holidays? 

I’m someone who needs constant affection and attention, I know I would get jealous easily of whatever people there might be surrounding my boyfriend abroad or in the air. 

I don’t think I have the mental capability to become a pilots wife. 

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costume appreciation: White Christmas [⅓] (costumes by Edith Head)

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Veronica Lake as Jennifer in I Married A Witch (1942). Costume design by Edith Head

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Léon 

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you did well. You’re doing well. You will do well.