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my search for the perfect twitter bookmarks manager (aka i tried 4 twitter paid manager apps and i still can't choose bc they're all expensive as hell)

i want to leave twitter ASAP BUT

i don't know how to do it

i've been collecting and organizing my bookmarks with "twillot" a freemium twitter bookmark web organizer. it costs 581 php/month (368 php/month if you do annual billing But you will be charged 4416 php right away.)

I have 3 candidates for my twitter bookmarks organizer, the main drawback for each is that i have to depend on them? but the monthly fee is wayyy too expensive, that's like 2-3 days of meals for me, and it's already 3% of my salary, and i have to make space to buy kpop stuff.

so far, i paid for 1 month of twillot basic plan which yeeted out 581 pesos from my credit card. ouch

so it's either find a higher paying job (i plan to leave my job by October so start applying around August) so i can afford to lose 600 pesos per month (that's like 30 pesos per working day. ouch!)

so the options are:

1. TWEETSMASH

PRICING: - $49 - exports pass (one time payment) - can export and auto sync bookmarks, organize into "smart" folders - reader pass: $14 monthly or $84 yearly (6 months off or $7 monthly) - can turn into newsletters, no export to pdf option - yearly pass: $99 yearly ($8.25 monthly) - full experience PROS: woman made #womenintech, can open in tablet browser ✅, it looks similar to notion so somewhat cleaner looking than dewey CONS: no nested folders?, and it's selling AI too much?

2. DEWEY

PRICING: - $50 - 48 hour export pass - all features for 48 HOURS ONLY - pro monthly: $10 monthly = $120 yearly - no export, notion & gsheet integration) - pro yearly: $7.50 monthly or $90 yearly (3 months off) - all features - last black friday they offered 30% off, then christmas they offered 35% off, then on new year they offered 25% off, so i'm waiting this year for either black friday or christmas for at least a 25% off discount (i'm talking $63 yearly which is still a lot but hopefully i'm $63 richer by november LOL)

PROS: nested folder, can open in tablet browser ✅, almost same interface as tweetsmash, i think this was the one i tried exporting to pdf and it came out nice, has an option to save the whole thread, auto groups by year and month CONS: interface is too noisy (too many gradients), the export pass is limited for 48 hours why why why, also the limited features when you do monthly billing instead of yearly billing is so nasty, when i first did their AI auto categorization it just threw out 200 different folders and that sucked, they

3. TWILLOT

PRICING - basic - $10 monthly or $78 yearly (3.5 months off or $6.5 monthly) - export 50000 tweets, up to 50000 bookmarks - pro - $20 monthly or - unlimited bookmarks PROS: prettiest interface (it looks like an excel file but cleaner), easy to tag tweets into folders, promises local backup (better than export to csv imo) but i tried it and it doesn't work so. CONS: idk if i want my money to go to a chinese dev and indirectly to the ccp lol, no sorting by date, doesn't open in tablets because it's a google web extension. (sad) ❌ but also, it's newer than the first 2 apps so i will give it some slack, the export to pdf doesnt put the username for some reason? but it numbers the tweets, and the images come out really HD, so that's nice.

4. FAVOURITES IO

PROS: cheap CONS: limited features, only search and tags, no export

i really want to like twillot but it was too late for me to get the early bird discounted subscription, and it's a younger app.

so i'm thinking of unsubbing to twillot after the 1 month, then waiting for the black friday/ christmas/ new year discount and subscribe to a dewey yearly plan; or if there's no discount, getting the tweetsmash 1 time export pass and hopefully it doesn't have a time limit like dewey has.

so far i've organized 833 tweets into folders (2%) in twillot, so i've wasted some time, but it's part of the exploration.

i want to do like a youtube video on this so i can monetize it a bit LOL but maybe i should send feedback to the devs first).

what's really cool is that both the tweetsmash and twillot devs are on twitter and reddit (they advertise their apps on there and seek advice and stuff). i think the dewey team are also on there. what i mean is you can see they built these apps because they were sick of seeing this problem and were like "fine, i'll do it myself!" which is inspiring as someone who once dreamed of building an app (for what? idk? like my own personal assistant on the phone lol). and they did it and these apps are running, albeit not perfectly, but they built it! and people pay for their apps! that's cool!

so my takeaway is maybe i want to shift my career to tech soon bc that's where the money is still at (pls don't flop soon)

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my fingers are itching to buy something (an in game item).. and for what? for that magical animation ? 850 php, 5 hours worth of my time?

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November

It's been 2 months.

I already know I treat this blog as a journal of sorts, a dump for things too political/ too personal/ too deranged to post on twitter.

So. Life has been treating me (not well) as I should have been treated 3 years ago. Whopping me with the need to be accountable.

Tomorrow is a Monday (bloodbath) (I work as an engineer in a construction site) (I need to complete a spreadsheet and a plan of action tonight) (I also can't stay up tonight because I need some sleep)

So here's how my day went so far:

8AM: Wake up, sleep

9AM: Wake up, sleep

10AM: Wake up for real

11AM-1PM: Breakfast and bonding with mother

2PM: start doing work

So the rest of the day will be spent preparing for the week, also I need to sleep early because I need to wake up at 4AM, so 6 hours back = 10PM sleep:

3PM: work

4PM: work

5PM: work

6PM: work

7PM: work

8PM: work

9PM: Shower

10PM: Sleep

Here are the things I need to do:

Work Expenses: List down work expenses for liquidation

Receipts: Organize my receipts

Training: Make a training plan for the cadets

Training: Create a procedures document for the stuff we do

Project Tracking: Update the monitoring file to be more accurate, Expand the monitoring file to all buildings; Link the monitoring file progress

All Projects: Set schedule; when the cadets should be done training; when I can go with them to anothe site

Personal: Set aside schedule for weekly liquidation file

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the ominous missing cloo item

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sabog na yung financial planning excel sheet ko omgggg restart ko na naman sha

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OKAY SO THIS BLOG IS 10 YEARS OLD.

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Happy Sunday, tomorrow is another Monday (groans)

Erm.

It's almost 9pm. And Sunday will be gone soon. And in a few hours it will be.... Monday. The work week starts again. (Can you tell I don't like my job?)

The song of the day is: Heejin's Nokia. Because it's a good song to sad about. I know the lyrics are about missing an ex, but it's sad enough that I can use it to lament over my (wasted again) weekend.

There are lots of things I haven't told you about.

Last month I donated to the guy's fundraiser. But I'm still holding off on donating again because he might be an israeli guy who's pretending to be in gaza. Irrational, I know.

Do you know of this Filipino boy sing-dance-rap group Alamat. I have been getting into them in the last 2 months. The closest kpop sounding song they have is "kasmala", but they also have ballads like "Walang Hanggan".

Then these are the next songs I would recommend.

in fact I may have gotten in too deep, I went to their live gig last July in Cubao. Which is nice because I got to hear them live, and they interacted a lot with the crowd (which I do appreciate even if I really don't care for interactions. I just really needed to confirm if they sing well live- they do.)

Thankfully I haven't gotten into their photocard business... never starting that addiction man.

3. I have taken a liking to reading "bodice ripper" books; yes. I am an "English romance" junkie. They're easy to read, I finish one in maybe 2 days, but they do take time to read. I read lots of Tessa Dare, maybe me watching Bridgerton was the main influence for this.

I also read Don't Love you Like a Best Friend, which is a Victorian era lesbian romance. I do appreciate that there is one for the lesbians; and a sequel for the gay guys. I will be reading that too. However, Dare's books are smoother to read.

4. I bought a lot of things. I am slowly feeling the drain in my wallet. I lost 50% of my savings last year, mainly on my house downpayment. It still is painful. So here are the things I bought:

5. On Youtube, I have been watching the following:

Financial cringe videos (Social Symone, Zac Rios, Shawna Ripari - hers is nobuy focused though)

Youtuber drama videos (mostly Cope and Seethe, last month it was nickdeorio)

And then youtube shorts.

And this evening, the North Korean tv channel by Peter Fairlie. Because I missed analog TV and DPRK channel is always fascinating (tho they have too many songs!!!)

I am using Youtube to block the noise in my head.

I have to take a shower. I will be back in 30 minutes (or less.) I have to take less time in the shower.

I will be back OKAY

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taking care of myself first (and the guilt)

This Saturday I was supposed to work on a project that I keep putting off; but it really needs to be done before Monday, as it has been 6 months overdue.

But today I logged in to Twitter and saw the groupchat that I was in to support a man from Gaza's daily posts, he has not reached his target goal. For some reason I do not feel like boosting it for the following reasons:

He has a blue checkmark, but I understand that he is doing that to be able to message a lot of people

He may be a scammer and by boosting it I may be encouraging people to be scammed by him, I should boost those from people who can't even afford checkmarks, or those from the Gaza Funds twitter account.

I am wary of men (this is most likely prejudice coming from my part).

He has already accumulated a big amount of money, so I feel that I should be boosting fundraisers that haven't reached 1k USD yet.

I feel like I should donate to him instead of just retweeting.. but I already did last month and I do want to donate to other people.

If I tweet and say "please consider donating $5", $5 is still a large amount, it's PhP 250, which a lot of my oomfs maybe uncomfortable to donate.

So there is a lot of guilt.

You spend money for silly albums and yet you can't donate to them?

Why do you think he is a scammer? You are very prejudiced! If he spends the money on a scam that shouldn't be your problem.

But also on the other side I have guilt too.

You want to donate to people far away yet you don't donate to your local organizations/ pet shelters? that are begging for funds because they run out of food to feed their dogs?

You advocate for people far away and yet you don't talk enough about the WPS issue?

So my resolutions to address the aforementioned issues are:

I will boost his gofundme post. I have nothing to lose except maybe the respect of some of my oomfs. I will urge only to donate up to $1 to $5 as it is money you can pretend you lost in a bet or something.

Donation is a form of sacrifice. I will start selling some of my photocards to account for some of my donations, but first I will scan them so I have proof that at one point in time I had them.

Every 15th and 30th I will allot 5% of my salary to donate to mixed fundraisers, which is $24. So if I donate $4 each I will be helping out 6 fundraisers; or $8 for 3 fundraisers. I know that some people allot 10%, but until I have sold off a lot of photocards I think that will be at 5% for now. This will start on June 1 and June 15 this year.

I will pause on unnecessary food purchases, maybe starting with only 1 treat per week; then 1 treat every 2 weeks; then 1 every month.

Next month if that works out well for me I will be boosting the fundraisers with my message to allot $4 or more.

I will not be logging into social media during the weekdays. If I want to have a consistent source of income, I need to be locked into my job. Social media just makes me feel tired. It will not give me money. And the executives prey on my anger; my reaction; my every scroll.

I will try studying on the following conflicts: Palestine, Sudan, Congo, the Rohingya, the West Philippine Sea, the Marcoses vs. Dilawan issue, the Chinese infiltration of the Philippines, and the US using the Philippines to wage war with China, early Philippine politics and exactly how evil Gloria is; so that when I advocate for it; and somebody tries to put doubt in my decision; I will have a correct answer for them. Basically how to be right all the time.

I will also read books on logic and how to be right all the time so that I can defend myself well.

I will engage with my hobbies but spend no money! just print shit out that I want to color! Idk

I have been thinking of curating all my feed, so that positive news from the Philippines and (but I don't know how to make an RSS feed or something like that).

I do want to engage with people that share the same opinion as me IRL because they say real life organizing is the most effective way to enact change, but I must do it myself first,

I will put a pause on any kpop related spending starting today. Unless there is a concert. The fan meetup on Saturday will be the last I will attend.

Whew. I have 12 items. That's too many. I'll make a new list next week (if I remember) that's more organized. It's so hot and my brain is overloaded and I'm just pissed off. Why can't they just stop bombing civilians. Fuck Israel and Fuck the USA. Go away from those civillians. If you did I won't have to worry about all these. I can just be happy and thriving with all these comebacks. I wish I had all the money to spend on all the hobbies and I wish merch in kpop wasn't intentionally sold at a limited time. If you sell photocards it should always be for sale you fuckwads. Fuck kpop honestly. Once I sort all these photocards, scan both sides and sell them to each person, I'm gonna quit. I have too much stuff and I still don't know what career I want to do for the rest of my life; nor do I have any clue how to move to a job that pays me 50k Php per month ($850).

If I had more money I would be happier. Fuck a love life. i'm gonna make more friends if I had more money. I want to move out. I want to be glowing and loving and expressive and extroverted and happy.

fuck this stupid baka life.

And yeah I really have to get to this forgotten project. From 5pm to 8pm I will work on it, I just need to it. maybe I'm pissed off because I'm hungry.

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my streaming playlist

to support loona post bbc i learned to make this long ass spotify playlist (currently at 7 hours). I am proud of this very long playlist. candy crush and girls night are on repeat (both very good songs, although flower rhythm is still the best artms track).

the only drawback is I can only play it on the web browser because i don't have paid spotify on my phone; so I have to turn on my laptop on the weekends (or at night) to play it.

but I'm just proud of the way I sandwiched the tracks because it took me a long time to drag the tracks to be in the correct order.

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is bernie sanders pro-israel as of october 2023

Ok so I saw this tweet from Michael Tracey (a journalist who is both right wing and left wing at the same time according to my google searches - mind you i am literally southeast asian. i do not know these people).

This tweet claims Bernie Sanders (someone I rooted for president in 2016 and 2020- damn 2016 was 7 years ago... - because all the cool guys I follow on Twitter like him. and also he is anti-establishment and a guy who has a clothes hanger chair. from the news that I saw about him)

In the extended youtube cut released by Senator Bernie Sanders, he says Israel has a right to defend themselves against Hamas quoting "the youths killed in a dance party and the babies killed". But says also that this anger should not be taken on the Palestinians because half of them are children.

And now people on Twitter are quoting this saying ohhh I'm so disappointed in him, we should never trust politicians, what do you expect from a jewish-american guy who stayed in israel for a few years. That last statement I had to look up.

So yes, he is Jewish-American, and yes, he stayed in a commune in Israel in the 60s.

This is the commune he went to, so yeah that's Israel:

And then the reply to the tweet: He also voted for it yesterday. His crocodile tears mean nothing. I'm so mad about that tweet. What do you mean by that? What did he vote for? You can't just drop that bomb and not add context!

Fortunately I calmed down and clicked on her page. "He voted for it yesterday"- was referring to all US senators voting to pass resolution in support of Israel.

I understand her disappointment (you should not vote to support Israel, if you're against Israel bombing Palestinians, and Sanders is against that. Even if you're Jewish, as lots of Jewish-American people have been speaking out against Israel, and Bernie should not have voted for that, if he really is against Israel bombing Palestine. )

I also understand why Bernie would vote for a resolution supporting Israel (for one he lived there + he's an old Jewish American, I think older people would find it harder to disavow Israel).

The resolution in question is linked here as an article (mind you, on a SENATOR'S HOMEPAGE, news articles did not link to it, not even the pro-Israel ones) and pdf from another US Senator's page here. (with the additional clause that "it should not be in any way be viewed as authorization for use of military force in Israel or Gaza")

This is what the resolution that Bernie voted "Yes" on says:

Basically it says, yes we support Israel's right to defend itself against Hamas (without acknowledging what Israel may have done to build up Hamas). It is lacking. And Bernie Sanders, known progressive US politician worldwide, voted for it along with everyone present (2 Democrats and 1 Republican was absent)

So am I disappointed in Bernie? Yes, somewhat. Do I still root for him? Yes, somehow.

Maybe I'm not yet ready to accept that he is a politician. I'll just look at him with a side-eye. Idk. I think I need to read more to decide. Why should I care? Because US policies affect everybody? Because I'm on Twitter all the time and hear about how US politics is shitty and now I feel like I have to have an opinion on it too because oh no what if I accidentally retweet a post that if I study further is actually not good? Why do I have to be right all the time on the Internet? Why do tweets go viral when all these thought processes, nuances, and research (which are still not enough to cover the whole topic), is not enough to fit in 140 characters??

And why did Twitter have to be the site where you can BOTH immediately interact with ideas and people AND have these limited takes go viral? And idk I'm just rambling now.

Mind you he is 82 years old! The US (still a global superpower) should not depend on 80-year old men to lead progressive movements in the senate! Yall need younger people! AOC is 34 years old! We need more 34 year olds in the senate!

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How I look going down to the grocery store to buy snacks.

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It's 4am and i haven't slept.

Blame the iced coffee i made earlier. Blame the Excel spreadsheet that I should have worked on this evening. Blame Twitter and Reddit for the unlimited content that's kept me up.

Lots of things on my mind again.

FIRST: my growing kpop collection expenses. oec and loossemble had comebacks this year and OOOOH. SHINY POBs. I want all the POBs. But I have limited money. I have gone over the supposed 3% allocation for kpop. I have too many albums (3 versions instead of just 1), Chuu and Heejin are comebuting this year. And Red Velvet! I don't have the money and space for all that! in general, I just bought so many things that they are piling up.

like that ^ is literally my philosophy for collecting loona items now. even if they're pretty, even if the store says it's limited. even if i have to wait 10 years for the prices to go down. I'm still working on accepting the reality though *cries in poor*

SECOND: the ongoing war in palestine and israel, and am i retweeting the correct information? do i have the correct information to form the best opinion? 2 filipinos have already been killed by hamas. if i retweet a tweet condemning that does that mean I don't support palestinians right to their land? if i don't fully agree with one side then does that mean I wholly support the other? Is it truly possible to support and condemn both sides at the same time? Maybe this is the "black-and-white" thinking that the boomers are talking about. This is a good thread: https://twitter.com/Ike_Saul/status/1711780282725011520

THIRD: kpop fancalls and the people who say "[group members] recognize me!" because they've met and talked with the members multiple times, and they went to all of their concerts. Like I'm jealous you know? How do they have the money, and the time, and the energy? And I don't even want to meet the members, I just want the clout and admiration that it gets them. I want others to envy me, if you get my drift.

FOURTH: is it possible to escape social media and screens? because just yesterday I felt sick, and I don't know if it was because I spent 30 minutes waiting for a bus, then 1 hour standing on that bus due to traffic, or because I spent an hour carrying my very heavy bag on my shoulder, or is it because the aircon was very cold when i went to the office, or is it my looking at screens. But like I want to be the cool girl who doesn't need social media. Or at least get my screentime down to 2 hours a day. I watched social dilemma and it still didn't stop me from doing 4-6 hours a day. Maybe I need to be more mindful of how people/ the algorithm is manipulating me to stay there.

FIFTH: Am i gonna get the drive to be better? Because I keep writing out my problems, searching for advice in forums, and then I open a distraction and forget everything that I wanted to improve in myself.

- You know what, maybe I will. I am typing this on a lovely laptop but it is company owned. I want to buy this laptop for myself. I want to edit my videos, and I will definitely need a fast laptop for that. Because my sister will be using the ipad, I cannot use that.

So maybe my drive will be to save up for that laptop as fast as possible. I've been wanting to buy a new phone (specifically, one that supports a stylus. So I can draw on it).

SIXTH: Am I ready to buy a house? I submitted a bid for a foreclosed house and lot near my sister's. I don't think it was approved, because I'm not on the list of winners, and nobody has contacted me yet. Personally, I don't think I'm ready to buy a house. But my mom is pushing me to buy one, because prices are only gonna get expensive.

SEVENTH: Am I gonna get the work ethic and drive that I admire so much in my co-workers? I will admit that I am not very fond of my job right now, but they are very lenient, allowing me to work from home, but I repay them with sleeping on work hours and not doing any work. I want to be like the ones that stand on their word and are very dependable. But I am not there yet. I want to work on being that someday.

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You see, I rarely go on here, but when I do, I always have so many things to say. That's what happens when you bottle up your thoughts. I should be writing here more often. maybe everyday. Here it's easy to catch up to my brain. Writing on notebooks, although recommended by some, is really tiresome, you know? Here it's easy to backspace and just type, as many words as you want. When I write with my pen, my hand tires easily. Maybe because I've been using my phone more and my pen less.

They say hand-journaling is better for distracted people, but for me, typing is so much better.

Maybe I should write with a pen less, draw with a pencil more, and type on a keyboard more.

Anyways. It's 4:30am. I need to sleep for 2 hours. and catch up on the work I missed.

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going to mass for the 1st time in months

ok i had to get this out of my head

so my mom asked me if i can attend evening mass with her since my arm is feeling better now. why not. so i did.

and the Gospel reading for this mass (intended for Sunday) was Matthew 20:1-16:

So first of all, I didn't know that was where "The last will be the first and the first will be the last" came from.

Second of all, I was pissed when I first heard that reading. my landlord hating ass was like "Well that's not fair, workers should be paid according to their productivity, like how much fruit did they gather. It should not be the same wage for everyone."

And during the homily, the priest was like "ok guys so did the landlord do the right thing?" and half the people said yeah (🤨) and half the people said no

And he was like "you guys it doesnt matter if the landlord is wrong or not, this is a metaphor guys. cuz everybody gets into heaven no matter whether they got into jesus early on or much later."

and in my head i was like That doesn't make sense..... the metaphor fits better if like the workers were like "omg they shouldn't get paid at all because they worked less hours" (something no worker would say i think) instead of "why is everyone paid $1 even if they work less hours". Because paying your workers according to their output is what's fair and what's right!

Unless....

Jesus was talking about wage inequality and how the biggest salary increase you'll get is when you move from 1 company to another, because companies tend to pay new hires for the same position with higher wages per year (even including inflation rates). like what people are saying on reddit lol

Third of all, reading the gospel again, I realized I missed 2 things

The landlord said "I'll pay you $1 for the day" to the guys who started at 5am. So technically they can't argue for a higher pay since they already agreed to the $1. However at 9am he told the next guys "I will pay you what is just" - WHICH should be according to the # of grapes you picked all day. or whatever. So technically the landlord isn't wrong but he's immoral and still an ~asshole~.

Jesus begins with "The kingdom of heaven is like a landowner..." . I missed that the first time and so I was puzzled when the priest said "guys that's just Jesus' metaphor for heaven". because I didn't hear that at first. So yeah Jesus, your metaphor isn't a perfect analogy, and when people don't hear your "the kingdom of heaven is like this metaphor" disclaimer, they tend to think you're endorsing the asshole landlord's actions. So maybe tweak that a bit.

In conclusion, Jesus's metaphor sucks this week, and lacks a disclaimer that says "bosses please do not do this".

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signs your mom is getting real old

she needs eye drops for the first time and you have to help her drop it on her eyes bc the eyedrop hole is too frickin small

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July 29

Hope to god this project gets approved so I can finally rest. (since December 2022 I have not been resting boyyyy)

Are FB truthers gonna be the new Aldub truthers? I thought the fans were theorizing for shits n giggles now they're actually disappointed that the girls might not be dating IRL.... like. They might be good actors and good with fanservice but dont expect shit at the end of the day

4 weeks in a cast and my arm hurts a tad bit but I can now lower my lower arm.

My face is super itchy right now it's soooo annoying. And I have a new neck pimple. Welcome to the family.

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And I already got the photocards I sent for printing a month ago......I am obsessed and will be posting my favorites on the next full moon. Lol. They're too many to take pictures of.

A lot of them got too red though, ink error. But I paid 10 pesos for it (0.2 USD) so 🤷.

Overall I am happy with the quality and now I don't find the temptation to buy any photocards! I still browse sometime when I'm bored but I don't get tempted. When I do I just browse through my collection binder that is now very full. (The fact that it's full also helps discourage me from getting any more, which is nice 😊)

There's a lot of mosquitoes in here holy shit.

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Just had an old thrifted McDonald's Tshirt altered (it was 2 sizes big) 2 days ago.... hope it gets done by tomorrow so I can wear it on Saturday!