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guess who has bell’s palsy (womp womp noises)

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oh albert <3

twin peaks characters mashup!!

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Getting into perfume makes you question your sanity. You think you won't become like the people on Fragrantica who have favorite scents for hiking and that you just like to smell nice, but then one day you will think, "Hmm, what perfume should I wear to bed?" And that's when you know you've gone insane. "Which one would be best for the farmer's market?" I've lost my mind.

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Yeah this is my wet hay perfume. this one’s my wet forest soil one, but then this other one is just plain wet soil. This one’s rotten citrus wet soil. That’s my fresh tennis ball one. Ohh and that one is supposed to represent the horrors of war lol

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I used to be a dishwasher and yes it’s even more The Horrors when you turn around and there’s THREE pots …. just quit at that point

The agony of thinking you’re finished doing the dishes only to turn around and to your horror: the pot.

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the thing about having moral ocd and not letting it kill you is that it loses the kick it once had, you know? like a soda going flat. you read that you're ontologically evil and need to end your own life because you (spins wheel) ordered Doordash while sick or (channels the ghosts) enjoyed the wrong silly little fictional failman, and instead of being frothed up into a wild frenzy of self-flagellation that would make a medieval monk hand in his cassock, you just go "ok cool" and drink the herbal tea you don't deserve

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This is Awesome to hear because the comorbidity OCD demons try to tell me that when I don’t know one thing or find a new source that reframes my fixations that i Actually Know Nothing and should question My Entire Diagnosis…

Because I “shouldn’t” not know everything about something i’m fixated on, obviously that means i’m NOT fixated on it and I don’t have Any Fixations and I am, by default, neurotypical and have no mental illness. Easy jump.

But hearing that despite fixations and SpIns that you CAN be wrong and there CAN be things you don’t know…? Insanely uplifting.

Possible unpopular opinion: treating having a special interest as equivalent to being an expert on the topic is another form of the savant stereotype.

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Unrelated but just posting about moral ocd

This post is awesome. Moral OCD tries to force me to see myself as The Worst Person Ever and it’s just bullshit. I forgive people all the time, so why don’t I just accept that I *could* be doing bad things, but to forgive myself because I know that i’m trying my best. I can be a good person AND I can cause harm and it’s me striving to be the better person and listening to others that is the Secret Sauce. I hate the idea that if I do one bad thing that it makes me a bad person.

the thing is, if your younger self was a bigot or an abuser, u can't make people forgive you. but you still gotta forgive yourself, like that's non-negotiable, dude. that happens before u can even ask the question of earning forgiveness from anyone lese

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*opens mouth to speak*

*blood pours out before i can say anything*

*dies of blodd loss*

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moral scrupulosity ocd affirmations compilation

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crushing

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i love a good bidet. it’s so amazing.

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Wild at Heart (1990) // Dir. David Lynch

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(To the tune of I Want It That Way by the Backstreet Boys)

🎵 Tell me why.. moral OCD compulsions

Tell me why.. i’m super fucking anxious

Tell me why… nothing I do is everrr right….

Please. take. my. brain. out. 🎵

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The thing with OCD is that all my thoughts are lies and any sense i try to make out of it is fake. If I try to question myself whether i am a good person or not, whatever asnwer I give is wrong. Because if I say yes, it's just my ego not wanting to be bad, if i was bad I wouldnt think of myself as bad, so if i say i am a good person, I'm not. However if I say no, thats just me being humble, because saying you are a good person its prideful, which is bad. But it could also just be self-loathing, a good person wouldnt admit to being good, so I might be good. But then again the self loathing come with a reason, so I'm bad, although, my opinion of myself is biased so maybe the reason is senseless, or is it just my ego trying to protect me again? I DONT KNOW CANT TRUST MYSELF

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thinking about major briggs (guy addicted to going missing) announcing that he’s going on a walk alone in the woods while a serial killer is on the loose and harry and cooper (two cops leading the investigation into said serial killer) waving him off and letting him go. you guys will not believe what happens to briggs immediately after this