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oh yeah erm. william at da club

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we can go anywhere

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its crazy it's insane that yoo joonghyuk ends up doing the same fucked up things other people have done to him to kim dokja, out of love

he really said we're not breaking the cycle!!

its the most obvious in the 46th scenario, where he tries to betray kim dokja, just like anna croft did to him last regression, in exactly the same spot even. because he couldnt bear to see kim dokja die again, even if he has to act like his worst enemy.

'he doesnt eat food made by others' cause he got poisoned once and became paranoid that people would mess with his food, but then he goes along with kimcoms decition to secretly drug kim dokja. out of love! and cause he couldnt bear to see him rush into danger again, even if he has to do this thing that broke his trust in others forever.

and then, during the epilogue he writes a novel with kim dokja as the protagonist... when he spent his whole life trying to break free of the chains of the narrative and found out his whole life's suffering was because he was character in a novel he didnt consent to be written (even if he forgave that later) and then he goes on and does the same thing to kdj?

he who is the protagonist of Ways of Survival, knows intimately that you cant capture the true essence of someone in a novel, has asserted that many times to kim dokja himself, they fought about it, etc. yet now he helps write orv in the hopes thats somehow that's not true, with the impossible wish that kdj gets brought to life whole from their incomplete knowledge of him in ANOTHER NOVEL???????

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I am a star

I am a star. When you see a star, you see the light that comes from it. It shines bright in the sky, high above where no one can reach.

I am a star. In order to shine, the star must *burn*. It burns and burns until there is nothing left to fuel it. And then it dies.

I am a star. I burn, not the brightest, but enough for people to see. They see my light, burning bright for them. They do not see how that light is fueled.

I am a star. I fuel my light with the help of those who see me. With every word they whisper to me, with every look we share, I make my light burn brighter for them.

I am a star. The light that burns around me is like a fire, burning hot and eating all the fuel i give it. So long as i give it fuel, it will not burn me.

I am a star. Sometimes, i forget to feed the shining light. I forget, and it is only until i feel the singing of heat burning my flesh that i remember.

I am a star. But sometimes, i crave the burn. Sometimes, i crave the pain. I crave a reminder that i can feel, that i exist. So i let the fuel run out, and i let myself burn.

I am a star. And i burn. Not always, but sometimes i burn too much. Once i am satisfied with the burn, i give the fuel, and i continue to shine.

I am a star. If i burn too much, i will burn out. No more light. Every time i willingly burn, i feel i lose myself. So i have to be careful, for

I am a star. I know if i disappear, people will wonder where my light has gone. But maybe i want that. Maybe i want people to think about the star that burned too bright. Maybe i want them to miss my light.

I am a star. But i am also selfish. I want to burn, and i want them to see the scars that get left behind when i let myself burn. I want them to stop me. But i do not want to ask for help.

I am a star. But i am also scared. The light that i shed is but a distraction from the rot that lingers beneath. They do not know that the light they see is what i want them to see.

I am a star. But i tire of the light. I tire of adding fuel to the flame. I tire of the pain the burns bring. I am tired of being a star.

I am a star. And i fear the dark. The never ending darkness that will one day take me when my fuel has run dry, and i have been fully burned. I fear the place i will go when it is time.

I am a star. And i wonder what the darkness will feel like. Sometimes i want to reach out and touch it. Graze the darkness that lurks outside my light and get a glimpse at what awaits me.

I am a star. And i know that if i touch the darkness, it will consume me entirely. My light will go out, and i will not return.

I am a star. My fear is my fuel. My will is my fuel. My joy is my fuel. And so the light continues to shine, whether i want it to or not.

I am a star. And i am scared.

I am a star. And i never want to go out.

I am a star. And i crave the dark.

I am a star. And i am so very tired.

I

Am

A

Star

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FUCK AMERICA HAPPY 100TH BIRTHDAY CEASAR SALAD 🇲🇽🇲🇽🇲🇽❗❗❗

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I fear I ate them up

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How many more times can I draw these three before they finally come home, I'm desperate

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Hi pookies heres the long awaited Oscar drawing :3333

If you've seen my last post, i said there I assigned John, Arthur & Oscar as the sun moon and star

I wish ive been more creative with how i incorporate the star symbols on my Oscar's design but it's okay I can always do another redesign :3

Stars symbolize hope, destiny and guidance. Which SCREAMS Oscar doesn't it? Oscar being Arthur's hope?? Guidance?? Im so ill

I can't decide whether I want to assign the daffodil or blue iris to oscar bc both flowers is so him!!!! For now he gets blue irises. I'll draw him with daffodils next time ofc

You may have noticed the ring he's wearing. well apparently a ring on the middle finger symbolizes life purpose!! I drew Oscar with a ring with the moon symbol...im sure by now you know which character that symbol represents (its arthur)

My Oscar is definently going to have a redesign soon as im not fully content with this design. Im thinking maybe embroided star symbols on his garb... Can this kind of garb have embroidery? Bc i literally have not seen it have any sort of pattern /genq

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hi tumblr im posting my johnlock fanart here aswell. in the year of our lord and savior 2024....

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I will start sobbing violently no one look at me

Poem by Natalie Wee

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I know it’s not hard to point out reactionaries hypocrisy when it comes to like safe spaces or hug boxes or whatever but genuinely how much of an echo chamber do you have to exist in for you to think this is a reasonable thing to say

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The Captains’ Loyalty

Meanwhile:

Context/part one/whatevah - here

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Old habits die hard

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Hua Cheng really said luck may not be on his side but I AM, so if he loses that's against the rules because in MY city law is Xie Lian always wins at everything and the prize is anything he asks for. Argue with the wall or my scimitar and I respect that.

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Hello fnc nation,,, I come bearing offerings

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Bingqiu singer au where sqq is secretly lbh's super fan