I am having a moment of true confusion piled on to more confusion...
So, Tiktok on the whole has treated me a hell of a lot better than any other platform. It has not murdered all my accounts the way IG did. I'm exposed to an interested audience. I have a post that went flying to unimaginable heights of positive feedback.
BUT in only a couple of days, one of my videos skyrocketed 20k views (the one messing up with the ball for DB's birthday.) Just randomly. It was appreciated by some, definitely some new followers came along, but on the whole not much engagement, and no comments besides four separate people pointing out that I forgot my bulge. One was hella rude.
It made me paranoid that I was being shared outside the site/app where non-users were mocking me for it. Then I visited analytics and there doesn't seem to be any hint of it leaving the app... but apparently there are swarms of mostly American youth searching "David Bowie's pants" recently.
So they had *really* wanted to see some bulges, and I let them down. It is in fact being viewed by tons of tiktokers who just do not like it... because of that.
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Um, what incited this crotch mania? I know in general there is crotch appreciation but why is there overnight crotch mania, I want to laugh and I did laugh a little but now I'm back to being confused.
Also, is this really something to put down a creator about? It's concerning how quickly people online turn things into punching bags.
Despite the barrenness of my social media, I have been very focused on preparing for the vampire ball. I'm trying to remember that some people enjoy looking at me. Damn do I wish I had an editor/social media manager though because 1.) I'm too busy with execution to document it 2.) I don't like having to look at myself too much. This has lead to a pile of raw content that hasn't been made into anything. Pffff anyway, let's just pretend that we're all babes.... yeah? 😏
Despite the barrenness of my social media, I have been very focused on preparing for the vampire ball. I'm trying to remember that some people enjoy looking at me. Damn do I wish I had an editor/social media manager though because 1.) I'm too busy with execution to document it 2.) I don't like having to look at myself too much. This has lead to a pile of raw content that hasn't been made into anything. Pffff anyway, let's just pretend that we're all babes.... yeah? 😏
Sometimes I wonder if you’ll ever do a female version of the goblin king but also.. I might actually have a heart attack and die… but also…. But… woah..
Aww, honey.... this is a flattering message. I can't see "female Jareth" being much different besides taking out my shoulder pads, though. I do not have a pleasing female shape; I do not have a chest. I live everyday as a woman and am not treated nearly as appealing as I am when buried underneath this costume, so I am not confident at all in succeeding in that way. Sorry, that was sad... but the truth!
Hello! Hope you are doing well. You mentioned you bought the fabric for the pants. Are you making and wearing them for the ball or is it for a later time? ✨
The pants will be primarily for the ballroom outfit, but if I can manage to complete them for the vampire ball, I'll wear 'em!
I truly apologize for not doing more coat construction posts. I had one almost ready, and then decided I didn't like any of the footage. I have another one almost ready but I need to shoot some footage and I think the problem is that I need better lighting. My friend was going to lend me her ring light but then she said she needed it and things came up, and I can't comfortably buy one myself.
Although, I did very uncomfortably buy the boots I've been wanting for Jareth's ballroom/vampire ensemble which I'm happy about but
Even as a kid, I could not understand why his lips distracted me so much.
Why were they so shiny?
It doesn’t show up anywhere else in the film.
Not the first time he plays with his balls:
Or the second time:
or when he throws his balls down the hall:
or even when he asks her to PLEASE take his balls:
it took me thirty gosh-danged years to figure out his lips were shiny because HE BIT THE PEACH TOO
It’s not a mistake. This is a test shot for the costuming:
shiny shiny lips
This leaves so many questions. Hoggle is the one who gives Sarah the peach per Jareth’s threats directives, so how would he have bitten it too?
We don’t see him from the time he hands over the peach until they’re in the ballroom, so there’s no real way of telling, but I’m assuming that he could or would have conjured one on his own and bitten it too. I’m sure crystal tastes like shit and cuts up your gums something awful.
Could the lipgloss just be…lipgloss?
Sure. But it was so…peachy. PEACHY.
Whoever it was who donated on Kofi, thank you, your contribution made it so that I could comfortably buy my ticket to the vampire ball AND purchase some nice velour for my pants!!
Moldable plastic and dental adhesive arriving tomorrow ✔️
Got my coupons for Jo-Ann Fabric ✔️
Next is undead makeup practice, devising my pants pattern (and possibly a shirt pattern if I can't find one), and.... Well, let's not get too ahead of myself. lol
Someone on ko-fi was very generous to me today and I am just shocked. And touched. My head is swirling at the prospect of being able to afford some supplies and getting going again. If it's one of y'all but you don't wanna say it's you, that's okay, but if you do want to say it's you, my mailbox is WIDE OPEN M'KaY
For those interested, it's here: https://ko-fi.com/jennyrose