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Im currently happy , God granted one of my longtime wish . I am married to a family that treats me as one of their own, a husband that is kind and loves me dearly and next year we will start a family of our own. I hope I could be a great teacher to my future kid 🫶❤️

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Im so lucky to find and be loved by you.

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Its been 2 years, im in different place but the same situation. The only thing that has been improved my heart but nit my situation but still thankful ❤️

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I love and wasted 8 yrs of my life.

I love and prioritize him first, provide everything within my power to make him happy coz if he is happy i fell happy too. But with just one snap he dump me just bcoz he got tired of me.

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I saw a post in fb, a woman crying alone in silence so nobody can hear or notice. I believe crying out your pain specially in silence only shows how strong woman you are. You put up a good fight for so long, a battle between you emotions and yourself that nobody knows about or even notice. Now its time for you to release it and ease the pain, cry my dear its human nature. It doesn’t fix what has been broken but it helps you to make that heavy burden you’ve been carrying to feel light.

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I pray that one day I wake up without the pain of remebering you.

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Life will throw you a lot of shit, you gotta be a bitch, get up ignore it and keep movin’

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Hey paps, its just Febuary, its just the second month of the year yet you’re already deteriorating. Hang on tight there, its still a long way to go.

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I would say sometimes, but since i have been feeling this for a month I would say most of the times I’m tired , im drained, im exhausted. Too much has been going on lately, and it tears me up it brakes me apart. I’ve been carrying so much and been faking that im okay wherein deep inside im just survivin’ my flat line. All I can do is cry until i get tired of crying and pull myself together coz they can’t see me like this. I’d prefer to act normal to smile and pretend that everything is okay wherein on the other side im at the lowest of my low. But yes, i need to keep going, I just need to be more creative at hiding my worries, my pain, my loss, my sorrow, my sadness. Its a thing called surviving.

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Let some things go, and focus on others

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Its okay to get hurt at the moment so you will not get harm in the long run.

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Good thing take time, accompany it with prayers. 🙏

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I wish not to be the same person i’ve become. I lost people that mattered to me, so this year I need to be more careful and not carefree, I would also like to start saving. In the past 5 years I have been so reckless financially. I give more than what is needed, offer more than what i supposed to offer, even when im left with nothing. This year I badly want to make my goals turned into reality. 2020 was tough and rough. I was left behind, didn’nt get a lot of chance, lost people, financially unstable. I want this year to be different. I won’t say I will be perfect but this year atleast let me accomplish some of my long term goals. I want to show them that even I became worst I can still get up and make things anew. They look at me like they’ve seen everything they need to see and left. I want to make a different ending on this story. I dont wanna show off, I just want to be judge differently.

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Stay muted.

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One thing i am so afraid to admit myself is that you and i are now just a memory. A beautiful memory of the past.

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Im far from being perfect and have sin a lot of times in my life. But i just cant help but to be upset seeing somebody tolerating a married mans infidelity. I find it excruciating seeing you paying no mind at all like its normal, given the fact that you also know his wife.

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I was stressing myself because in my mind i cant free the idea of u and me. I think im slowly learning that we are really not meant for each other. I hope soon or too soon my mind and my heart will finally agree on each other. I should really work on myself, to accept that things doesnt always go just like how i want or how i imagine it. Acceptance should be every girls bestfriend.