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“First and foremost I’m writing for myself,” I hiss through my teeth, resisting the urge to refresh my email for an Ao3 message for the 100th time.

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Nah at this point he knows what he’s doing to us 💔

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"The solo exhibition ended 😭😭😭"

"Toshiya's solo art & utakata photography 2024-2025 ended successfully. Thank you so much to those who came to my first solo exhibition and also to those who couldn't come this time. Before the event started, I worried about what to do, but another set of problems piled up on that when the event started. When the works that I had drawn digitally were printed on paper, the colors were more subdued than I expected, the frame of the image was different than I imagined, etc. I learned many things that you can only understand through experience. Taking those things into consideration, I'd like to work hard to make my next solo exhibition as close as possible to what I imagined. "Won't you sell your paintings?" some people asked, but I don't want to sell things that aren't the color that I want to express, and I don't want to be exploited by a company, so I won't do it this time, but if I can overcome various hurdles, then I'm thinking that I could sell [other] paintings at some point. As such, I will give a few of them to people I know, and I'll burn* or dispose of the rest myself tonight. Thank you so much to all the people involved and friends, to all the staff, and to all the fans who attended the event."

* Cultural context: In Japan, a lot of garbage is referred as "burnable", and it is indeed incinerated rather than buried.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Nightmare (Band), Jrock Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Ni~ya/Sakito (Nightmare) Characters: Sakito (Nightmare), Ni~ya (Nightmare) Additional Tags: nisaki, Sakito has regrets for once, Established Relationship, Complicated Relationships, they're in love but also Sakito is being an asshole, Hopeful Ending Summary: Was that progress? That he knew he couldn't pin the clusterfuck he'd caused himself on his friend? Maybe so. And maybe that was a revelation other people actually came to in kindergarten. Gods, he was pathetic.

Guess who finally got around to translating some more fic. it me :D

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Typical Sunday becoming cross-eyed staring at my screen to clean these scans.

Kaoru is the stand I won. I got Toshiya because of course, and then I opted for Die because his stand wasn't too expensive and we rarely get him in such a pose. After those though, Shinya's and Kyo's especially seemed too much.

As always, these are available without the watermark for personal and private use.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Dir en grey, Jrock Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Die/Kaoru/Shinya (Dir en grey) Characters: Die (Dir en grey), Kaoru (Dir en grey), Shinya (Dir en grey) Additional Tags: Open Relationships, Pre-Poly, Die is an anxious mess what else is new Series: Part 1 of A thousand words or less Summary:

»Do you think I haven’t noticed the way you keep looking at us?«

Or: sometimes Die needs to be shoved in the right direction and he knows it.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Dir en grey, Jrock Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Kaoru/Shinya (Dir en grey) Characters: Kaoru (Dir en grey), Shinya (Dir en grey) Additional Tags: holiday fluff, Slice of Life, Kaoru works too much and Shinya will make him take a break Summary: Shinya turned to face him, walking backwards for a few steps, and Kaoru couldn’t help but mentally complain about how unfair it was that his partner fit perfectly into their surroundings. In contrast to himself, who felt – and clad in a thick winter coat also looked – like the Marshmallow Man from Ghostbusters, Shinya in his color-coordinated outfit seemed like a picture straight from a ski resort advertisement.

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Excerpt from Dir en grey's show at Zepp Haneda yesterday.

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y________h

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Ultra high quality scans of Toshiya's pages in the ANDROGYNOS -The Final War- Day 1 pamphlet

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Ultra high quality scans of Shinya's pages in the ANDROGYNOS -The Final War- Day 1 pamphlet

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