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stupid squid!!!

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Ok Barnes & Nobles. I see you.

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started therapy !!! i want to learn how to be able to manage my emotions in such a manner im able to properly (and healthily) react to them

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Mistakes are the melody to which I write

Clinging to others like blood to a knife

The blood drips down, ink to paper

My Grief is the quill, a tool to write

Obsessively, like a moth to a light

The blood is my own, taste to savor

Love is the desperation with which I write

My heart bleeds for others, display of my life

Love is devotion.

And I have no greater devotion than when I pick up my pen to reach into your heart.

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what is orv if not a love letter to kdj?

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not to flirt but i see a reason to live in you

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what if being loved by me is the root of all your problems

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Every yoo joonghyuk needs a kim dokja who can manipulate him into living.

Similarly, every kim dokja needs a han sooyoung who can gaslight him into living.

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People assume that you are a man with psychic control over bees, but you're actually a hive of bees with psychic control over a man

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Franz Kafka, 1912

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the first song im making with my band is coming along So nicely <33 its so like. freeing genuinely to be around these people and be able to drum again and have people that time and time again show they care about me, regardless of if i think i deserve it or not. im at a good place in life and hopefully, mentally ill follow

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Badly need hsy's Avatar ability for better learning

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we all know that kdj practically only exists in the 1864th round due to hsy of the 1863th efforts to make sure to meet him again, to give him a reason to live, right?

but what about hsy? why is it, that there are only two of her, one in each of these rounds? and we know that 1863th hsy is originally a part of 1864th hsy when she gave her too many memories and she disappeared, gone into the last round, offsetting the start of the cycle. but, why doesn't hsy exist in all the other rounds?

it just never gets mentioned, and considering orv is from the perspective of kdj it's questionable if he realized the true meaning of that. because she was waiting for him, to mee him again, subconsciously, even with 1863th hsy slumbering after wriring twsa. and she wrote twsa for him. by saving him, she saved herself, and he saved her by saving himself. one cannot exist without the other, they're fated to walk towards, with, each other for all times....

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Help this video won’t post (this is my 5th attempt)

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oh so you think of yourself as inherently unloveable? should we all kill ourselves? should we invite kim dokja?

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*sees subway* orv reference

*sees sunfish* orv reference

*sees lemon candy* orv reference

*sees a rlly ugly squid* orv reference

*sees character* orv reference

*sees reader* orv reference

*sees author* orv reference

*sees 49% 51%* orv reference

*sees sword and shield together* orv reference

*sees Korean guy in a white coat* orv reference

*sees Korean guy in a black coat* orv reference

*sees a constellation in the night sky* orv reference

*sees story* orv reference

*sees story based off another story* orv reference

*sees story based off another story that’s based off of multiple other stories because the thing about stories is they never really die, they just get retold and remade into other stories and the point of a story is to keep on telling it and telling it because it may save someone’s life someday* orv reference

*sees the incarnation of love itself, strong, raw, hurting, and absolutely desperate to reach one stupidly wonderful and wonderfully stupid person who so stubbornly refuses it each and every time because they don’t believe they deserve it despite a cacophony of voices loudly insisting that they DO, they do deserve it, and that maybe love isn’t something that’s earned through deserving at all but instead given and received* orv ref—

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they need to invent a running away & never coming back that doesn’t affect your life